Chapter 12
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Avery
" Oh my god! " I exclaimed and put my head down in shame and embracement of my actions.
I'm scared to look at her, i know she's angry. I upset her and i have to face my consequence by Monday. Is she going to kick me out like she was always does with other students?
No. I can't. I disappoint my parents.
" Avery.." I heard her say. But i can't look at her. I'm scared.
" Look at me.. " She spoke again with her soft voice. Slowly i lifted my head up and trying to focus with her beautiful face.
" I- I'm so- " Before i can say anything she cut me off
" No. Its okay. Please don't tell me you were sorry." She paused and brash her thumb into my cheek. " Because i like it Avery."
I totally froze. Froze. Froze.
She saw the confusion written all over my face but I can see the pain in her eyes. Wait, she liked it? A silence between us. I could not find the right words to say. Actually, I didn't regret the kissed but I'm still confused about my feelings, like what i said this freaking feelings was all new to me!
All of the sudden she stood up, she doesn't say anything and walked away from me with heart in her hand.
What did i do?
I sighed in frustration. I know. I'm stupid. I let her think that i didn't liked the kiss. And I'm f*****g more stupid because I'm the one who kissed her! And now I'm acting like this? What the hell is my problem?
I can't hold back the tears from my eyes. I feel the pain inside this f*****g heart.
Why I'm hurting like this?
Why i feel like I'm already losing her?
Why?
"Avery?"
I immediately swept my tears away. "Yeah? "
It is my twin, Emert. I hate him to see me like this. He silently sit next to me and put his arm over my shoulder. There's no need to ask. Because i knew he feels what i feel right now that's the advantage to have a twin. You both feel all the emotions.
I sob against his chest. I cried all the pain to at least feel better.
A minute has passed i calmed down and composed myself. We need to go back inside the hotel, but I'm not in the mood anymore. All i want to do is to get drunk but no. I don't want to embarrassed my self even more.
" If you're ready to discuss anything you know I'm here okay? " My twin said before walking away.
The truth is, I don't know what to do anymore.why all of sudden i felt like this? I'm not sure if im gay or bisexual. I have nk idea about this... Besides, how my parents going to react?
Will they accepted me?
Or they disown me?
Oh No!
I don't want to cry anymore but this f*****g pain inside me hurts me so much. I don't want to cry. I don't want to. I silently looking at my reflection in the mirror. My eyes were totally bloodshot and floppy. My make up is totally washed out but i don't care anymore.
Slowly, I washed my face and relaxed a little. I need to go through this party i can't go home alone because i knew my parents pester me million of questions.
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" Where is your friends Avery? " I heard Emert asked me but it didn't register on my mind.
I just sit here with them without saying anything though. People are scattered everyone, dancing, chatting, drinking, laughing and they are all happy. I think I'm the one who looked devastated in here.
" Avery? " A concern voice from Elena. " What is wrong? "
I just smiled at them. " Nothings wrong. I just feel tired, that's all."
Of course I totally lied.
" Hey Avery! " Brittany show up from nowhere with our friends. "We are looking for you " They sat beside me
" I did too but it seems like you guys are busy. Eh? " I try to be cool
We continued talking with each other but definitely not pay my attention. I was wondering where Emeri went. Where is she? I can't find her anywhere. I wanna see her, i wanna touch and kiss her again. God!
" Why are you crying? " Brittany whispered.
Huh? Me? Crying?
I touched my cheeks. Confirmed! I'm totally crying but I'm glad that only Brittany aware of this.
This is so much!
" I'm not. I'm just tired? " I said it almost a question not an answer.
She shook her head, telling me that she doesn't believe me. Thankfully she didn't bugged me to questions though.
The party is over but i never got the chance to see Emeri again. Maybe she went home.
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