Wild Spices Series | Ashton

Chapter 3

ASHTON

Hindi ako nagkamali nang isipin kong babalik s'ya sa akin ng kusa. Ang hindi ko inasahan ay ang dala n'ya. Hell, I was even hoping I got her pregnant when she left para mabilis s'yang bumalik sa akin but it was just wishful thinking. Sa hugis ng katawan n'ya ay malabong nangangak s'ya. Besides, I would know. My investigator would have reported it to me. A day after she landed in California, I had someone following her. She never dated anyone. She kept herself busy with work everyday. 

Days turned into weeks. Weeks turned into months. Months turned into a year. A year after another and another and here she is -- six years and the first thing she handed me is our divorce papers. Ano bang napakalaki kong kasalanan at nilayasan n'ya ako? 

Hindi ako nagloko. Hindi ko s'ya sinaktan kahit kailan. I have been chasing her since we were in university at pagod na ako. When she left, I have decided not to go after her. Sinabi ko sa sarili ko na babalik s'ya in her own time. 

Naisip ko mga bata pa kami noong nagpakasal kaya siguro nanawa s'ya agad. I let her be. I never controlled her. Kung anong maibigan n'ya, ibinibigay ko. Did I lie? No. More like I omitted. But then in women's book, kapag hindi mo sinabi -- nagsinungaling ka na rin. F*ck. Does she know about that night?

She was about to leave the room when I quickly took a step forward and caged her. She smells intoxicating. Sa sobrang pagkamiss ko nga sa kanya mula noong umalis s'ya, inii-sprayan ko ng pabango n'ya ang unan. At least I get to smell her. Even her soapwash,I use it at night when I shower. She always loved the lavender scent and it helps me sleep. Some of you might think it's creepy but when you love someone as much as I love my wife, I'd do anything to survive until she comes back to my arms. 

"You were saying?" Halos pabulong ang pagkakasabi ko dahil sa lapit ko sa kanya.

I saw her swallowed. "Masyado kang malapit. Layo ka ng kaunti."

"Ayaw ko," I kissed her the moment she looked up and eyes met. 

God! How I miss my wife. Hindi ako makapaniwalang magkalapat na ang mga labi namin uli. Her lips were slightly open when I kissed her. Her lavender scent, her minty breath were enough to drive me insane. You have no idea how much I'm stopping myself from taking her against the door. Sh*t! Narinig ko pa ang ungol n'ya. Her arms went around my neck and pulled me closer. Wala akong tiwala sa sarili ko kaya nanatili ang dalawang kamay ko sa pinto. But she is making it hard for me, her moans and light caress is sending me to the edge. Kaya ko pa ba? Kung angkinin ko s'ya ngayon, magagalit ba s'ya lalo sa akin? O parehas lang kaming nananabik sa isa't isa? One more minute and she doesn't stop the kiss, I'm taking her. And I am not letting her go out of my sight again.

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TASH

He missed me. I was wrong. He did miss me. If not, why would we be kissing right now. At ako namang isa pang marupok, hindi makatanggi sa gusto n'ya. As if not enough that our tongues are in a duel, I had to wrap my arms around his neck. F*ck. One last hurrah before divorcing him? I must be out of my mind. Langong lango ako sa ginagawa n'ya sa akin. 

Idiniin n'ya ang kahandaan n'ya sa akin ng isandal n'ya ako dahon ng pinto. Namalayan ko na lang na naitaas na n'ya ang blouse ko pumipisil pisil sa dibdib ko. His mouth left mine and travelled down to my neck. May mapipinong kagat pa na iniwan at halata ang gigil. His other hand lightly cupped my butt. 

"Oh.."

"Tash.. I missed you, baby." 

I was about to say something when he kissed me on my lips again at tinanggal ang pagkabutones ng pantalon ko. Oh boy, isn't it the perfect time to wear my thong. I heard him chuckle nang maramdaman n'ya ang pisngi ng pwet ko. And what made me gasp was when he cupped my center and slighly brush my slit. F*ck. I am in so much trouble and it's too late to back out now. 

"We shouldn't d -- ah!"

He didn't let me finish talking and instead, he set aside my underwear and felt my wetness with his finger. While he was devouring my mouth and his finger playing with my cl*t, his other hand was busy unbuckling his belt and unbuttoning his jeans. Narinig ko ang pagbaba ng zipper n'ya and the next thing I know, his shaft is rubbing the inside of my thigh. 

"Tell me to stop and I will.. right now," he said.

"I.. we.. ohh," he gave my cl*t a pinch and I heard him chuckling. Damn it! 

"I am not signing it. You're mine," he added another finger. "Say you'll never leave me again or I will stop."

"Y-you're c-crazy," I hissed at him.

Pero binalewala lang n'ya 'yon. "I'm waiting. Say it." 

"Ohh.. I'm.. n-not.. f*ck!" Hindi ko na alam kung uunahin ko ba ang pagsagot o pag-ungol. 

"Say it."

"I'm not leaving you. Take me now."

Pero sa halip ay iba ang pinuntirya n'ya. He secured his place in my life when he went down on me and teased my center with his tongue. I grabbed his hair as he licked and lapped down there. Hindi ko na inintindi kung sound proof pa ba ang opisina n'ya o hindi. My moans were enough to wake the dead and when I asked him to take me for the second time, he plunged in like it was the most natural thing to do. I was losing my mind as he went in and out. Kinagat pa n'ya ako sa may balikat. Siguradong magmamarka 'yon. 

Ako ang nagpunta dito para makipaghiwalay sa kanya. Ako rin ang nahulog sa sarili kong bitag. Now he's got me where he wants me and there's no leaving him. When we both came, saka ko lang napagtanto na maaari akong magbuntis. I stopped taking pills when I left and he came inside me a few seconds ago. Heto nga at tumatagas pa sa dami ng lumabas. When it comes to s*x, wala kaming pinag-aawayan. We satisfy each other in bed. Kaya hindi ko matanggap na niloko n'ya ako at ipinagpalit sa iba. Best friend ko pa.  I didn't get the divorce papers yet.. but I think I'm going to get the other thing I have been praying for so long... a baby.