Consequences
1725 Words
***Hailey***
"Now speak. What is up with you Hailey?" Chase asked me with tears now streaming down my face.
"Oh my god! You are so sleeping with Ethan. It all makes so much sense to me now." why would sleeping with Ethan make my cry?
"It's worse than that Josie.. I really f****d up guys.."
"you're pregnant!" You can count on my brother to go for the dramatics, would have bet it would have been Josie to guess that but still.
"No Chase! I'm not pregnant. I've been lying about a lot of things for a while now." I looked down on the car floor.
"About what Hailey? it can't be that bad." Josies voice made me look up at the two of them again.
"just let me finish before cutting me off okay?" they both nodded in response so I started telling them everything. "I've been extremely into school for the past year so I could graduate early with you Chase, so I applied for college for next semester. I got in to Hopkins. In Baltimore. In Maryland." Chase cut in to congratulate me
"that's amazing Hailey! Congratulations, but why didn't you tell us?" and being overly excited I might add.
"I'm not finished Chase.. I was going to but then I forgot until my birthday and Ethan had to make everything worse." new tears running down my face.
"what does Ethan have to do with this?" I didn't have time to tell me to shut up before Josie hit his shoulder which had the wanted effect I wanted from him.
"As I was saying Ethan made it all so much worse. He's my mate." I sat in silence waiting for the news to sink in before I continued. "He was so upset with me leaving for college next year and I didn't have the heart to tell him that I was leaving in August this year. I just told him and he probably hates me for lying and he will reject me if I go and I'm a terrible person." I buried my face in my hands, I felt ashamed of my behavior.
"How could you have found your mate and not told me about it?" she sounded upset and really? She's more upset about that than me leaving her alone for senior year.
"We made rules about it telling anyone for the summer." Chase's face tensed up.
"That ass! How could he want to keep you a secret? I'm gonna give him a piece of my mind." he was halfway out the door before I could get him back inside.
"It wasn't him, I was the one that didn't want people to know." which I feel terrible for too..
"Why? I mean he's hot and the future alpha. Oh my god! You're our Luna!!!" The realisation just hit her.
"And have the whole pack hating me and judging me for leaving and then blame me for hurting Ethan. The bond is gonna make him miserable without me there. I can't take that and I'm not giving up my dream for anyone, not even my mate." But I don't wanna give up on him either.
"I get it, if I got a record deal and my mate had to stay behind I wouldn't give it up for him. I would resent him for having to give up my dream for him." I could always count on Josie to be on my side. We're so alike when it comes to these things.
"And what? Having you both becoming heartless and mean after rejecting each other? Is that really a good choice Hailey?" he got out of the car and slammed the door behind him. He walked towards the packhouse, probably to talk to Ethan. This was gonna be a long day and it had only begun.
***Ethan***
I was out back with one of the practice dummies and giving it the beating of the century, getting all my emotions out. I didn't stop when I sensed Chase walking over to me, I ignored him.
"Hey man. So Hailey told me" he sat down on the porch as he spoke.
"Told you what?" I kept dealing out punches on the dummy.
"Everything. I can't believe you didn't tell me. That non of you did." I kept my eyes on the doll.
"How? She didn't let me tell anyone. Explicitly you, she made that very clear." I did a combination before resting my arms on the dummy and finally looking to him.
"And since when do you do what anyone else says?" he did have a point, she's my only weakness and I was just getting used to it.
"I can't help it Chase it's this f*****g matebond. I can't resist her in any way, she has all this power over me and I can't fight it. I'm f*****g in love with her man" I confessed for the first time, even to myself. I truly loved her.
"Wow.. The great Ethan Reed in love. I never thought this day would come. With my sister is weird but still, I'm happy for you man." he gave me a smile, I had thought that when we finally told him he would kill me or something. When she turned therteen, I think, he made it clear she was of limits for me.
"well it's all f****d up now. You know she's leaving in less than three months right?" I walked over to where he was sitting and grabbed my water bottle from the table beside him.
"Yeah, what are you gonna do about it? Neither of you are rejecting the other, okay." You could tell he was not backing down on that one and I was happy for it.
"I would never reject her, I just said I loved her." I chugged half the water from the bottle.
"Not even to make her feel less guilty for leaving or if she asks you to accept her rejection?" He was worried.
"No, I don't know." this was all new to me. We were gonna have a year to figure this out not two months.
"I think the only real question is if you can survive while she's in Maryland?" I hated that her dream school was so f*****g far away, an hour or two away I could handle but this was just insane.
"I honestly don't know. All I know is that I love her and will do anything to make her happy man" I felt my eyes water and looked away from my beta not wanting to show weakness.
"You should talk to her and tell her that. I think she needs to hear it."
"maybe I should."
***Hailey***
Chase had come back home after an hour, I was just done talking to my parents about it with all the bad and good that came with it. Over all they took it pretty well, at least the college part. They were extremely proud of me for doing all the work and getting in all on my own. The lying about my mate part wasn't as amazing. I didn't say it was Ethan to begin with l but when my mom asked why he couldn't go with or visit a whole lot the answer 'he has obligations here' wasn't good enough. I told them it was Ethan and they almost wanted to order me to stay here and take on my role as Luna. But they know I'm the type of person to give up my dreams just like that. All Chase said when he got back was that he had talked to Ethan and that we needed to talk things out without yelling or running away. So now I was waiting for him at the lake, it had sort of become our spot. The one place we didn't have to hide our feelings or desire since we were the only ones that knew about it. Technically it's outside of our packs territory, I think. You walk through a tunnel in a mountain wall and our land ends around that mountain. Anyway it was our own place where no one came and disturbed us.
Once he was in the tunnel I could smell his scent and it made me more emotional than before if that was even possible.
"Sorry I ran off earlier." he said once he spotted me.
"No you have nothing to apologize for. I should have been honest with you from the beginning. I'm sorry" I had tears in my eyes, I truly was sorry.
"Why didn't you though? Tell the truth?" I didn't know to be completely honest, it just happened and then I didn't want to hurt him by telling him that I had lied to him but I knew I had to confess sometime and here we are.
"Honestly, I don't know. I guess I was protecting myself in a way but I ended up hurting myself and you even worse than I thought was possible. I'm so sorry Ethan. I never wanted it to be like this." I reach for his hand but he pulled it away.
"You really f****d up Hailey. What were you gonna do the day you had to leave for school? Just be gone without even a word about it?" he yelled, I really betrayed him when I lied to him for so long.
"No, maybe. I don't think I could leave having to look at you in my rearview mirror. I might just turn the car around and come right back to you." I was telling the truth cause I don't know how to live my life without him.
"Don't. I love you Hailey and I could never live with myself if I stood between you and your dream. Do what you have to do and I will always be here, waiting for you to come back to me." How could he be so amazing as to do this for me, after what I did to him.
"Are you sure? It will be long and terrible and painful and agony every day. You'd live like that for eight years?" cause I don't know if I can.
"I love you, I would do anything for you. Even if it means pain every single day for eight years to be with you for the rest of my life after that"
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