We got all the time in the world
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***Ethan***
I just stood there and stared out into nothing for ten minutes after the rest of the people walked back inside after my mate had driven away. Away from me. Did she really hate me that much? I know I'd been annoying and a bit mean over the years but I it wasn't like I knew she was my mate. Sure I had once had a crush on her as a kid and started acting a certain which just became normal by the time I got over it. But considering what I'm feeling right now I'm so not over it. It broke my heart a bit watching her get in the car and drive away. I wanted to go after her, tell her I was sorry and make everything alright. But then I remembered that she wanted to get away from me and pack to go to school on the other side of the freaking country. Was being my mate really so bad?
I needed to get away from here so I ran over to the edge of the woods and jumped, shifting in mid air. Letting Xavier realise his emotion that was bursting inside of me. Having him deal with our emotional breakdown was easier than confronting it alone. I sucked at feelings, well at expressing them at least. Xavier ran the fastest he's ever gone before and I yelled at him as he hit the breaks by the lake. There she was, our mate. Her sent filled the air with a fresh sea breeze, she smelled like the ocean and it had me paralyzed. Xavier just looked at her and he Became stiff as she moved, turned her head and looked right at us. She could smell and sense us to. I shifted back and walked over to her, carefully so she wouldn't move away from me out of fear. She didn't so I sat down next to her.
“How long have you known?” she didn't look up at me, she just kept her eyes on the water.
“I wasn't sure until tonight but I had my suspensions for three weeks.” I admitted.
“Was that why you told all the guys off at school?” She had figured that out fast.. My wolf had taken over as I had told them off, I couldn't help it. He's one possessive wolf.
“Maybe. They did cross the line and Xavier didn't like their tone. He's kind of protective like that.” I was fiddling with my fingers.
“You can't just do that every time someone says or does something you don't like.” she raised her voice at me sending chills through my entire body.
“I just wanted to keep you safe. I lo… I'd never do anything to harm you, I'll always protect you.” I almost let Xavier take over but he was gonna confess our love to her right there and it was obvious that it was to much for her to hear at this time.
“You can't do that, protect me forever. I'm still going to college, you know that.” my heart broke a little at the memory of her leaving in a year.
“Yeah.. Across the country. As far away from me as possible right?” I snapped, I didn't mean to sound so pissed off but I hated the thought of her not being here with me.
“I didn't put the school there Ethan. It's the best school and I deserve the best, I worked hard for it.” she did deserve it all, everything that she wanted I would get for her.
“I know and you deserve the world, the best even if that's not me.” out of nowhere she put her lips to mine and kissed me, shocks going down my spine. I never wanted anything, anyone else. Just her and me for the rest of time.
**Hailey***
I didn't what came over me, I just felt his hurt and pain like he thought I would reject him as my mate. Even if I wanted to I couldn't, the bond was to strong to let me. I needed him close to me, I wanted to comfort him and not be the reason behind the hurt. I pulled away from him, still keeping our faces close to each other.
“Why?” he asked after a while. "Why did you do that?"
“I don't wanna be the reason why you're hurting. Plus you might have a way with words at times Mr Reed” I gave him a kiss on the cheek.
“But you're leaving next year for god knows how long. I don't think I can survive that.” I was leaving for eight years, four of college and four of med-school.
“Well good we have a year to figure it out than.” I was lying, not only to him, but my family and friends. Hell I was even lying to myself at this point. Why didn't I just tell him the truth? God dammit Hailey!
"Okay, a year. Well then I wanna make the most of the time we have. Will you stay with me in the pack house until the day you leave?” All of me screamed to say yes but I couldn't.
“I.. I can't. I don't want anyone to know. When I leave it won't be pretty, you know that and I don't want the pack blaming me for leaving. I feel bad enough for leaving my life here, leaving you. Just until we figure out a plan on how to do this long distance, okay?” I could feel how hurt he was by not being able to be my mate in public.
“Okay, but just for a while. I don't think I could hide my feelings for you forever, you are my mate after all and I'm an alpha. It hits me, us harder than the others.” I get what he's saying, I've heard stories about alpha mates how they go from zero to a hundred in the blink of an eye and I feel that. A part of me just wanted to be with him fully and all the time most likely the wolf part of me but the me part was more withdrawn because of so many reasons.
“I feel that too. But for now at least, only you and me.” that did sound so good, him, me and no one else.
“I like the sound of that. You and me.”
We sat there and talked for a while not really wanting to get back to reality but we had to. After we set down some ground rules.
1. Not telling anyone, not even Josie or Chase (well let's admit that telling chase might get Ethan killed also)
2. No being sweet, cuddling or kissing in public
3. Fight and pretend to still annoy the hell of each other
4. No longing stares or mindlinking dirty thing with people around
5. School and our homes where no mate zones
6. At least one kiss per day (this was Ethan's only real demand)
We kissed one last time before he shifted into Xavier and ran back to the packhouse. I took my heels in my hands and walked down the path to the nearby parking lot where I had parked my new car. I put my shoes on the floor by the passenger seat before driving off with thoughts from the day filling my head. I had a mate, I found him and it was Ethan. He had always gotten on my last nerves but maybe that was a weird pre-mate-age way of displaying. We always had a bond even if we didn't use it in a good way by always fighting. He was my one and only, true love, soulmate and so on.. And I had lied to him.
I had been lying to everyone for the past year about school, about college. I was still going away when I graduated but I wasn't waiting a year for that. I had worked my ass of to graduate a year early. I knew a wolf in admissions who said he would push for me, being a born healer and all that, I got my acceptance letter two months ago and I still hadn't told anyone. But this meant that I would be leaving in three months and not next year. I didn't have the heart to tell him I was leaving so soon, it would only make this harder than it had to be. I couldn't go away for eight years with him marking me making our bond even stronger. I was gonna be terrible as it was I didn't need to add fuel to the fire. It was gonna come crashing down on me soon enough with finals around the corner and then graduations.. It's kind of hard to hide the fact that my name would be in the program, I would be sitting next to my brother and be called up on stage right after him. I can't hide that even if I tried. f*****g s**t! I screamed in my head only to have Nova saying
~I told you so. You shouldn't have lied to begin with and now you put us in the mess. Fix it!~
That b***h, she pushed me to do this. She helped me through all the extra work that came with graduating a year early and was all for it. And now she was blaming me for it all? I was gonna fix this though, I just didn't know when or how yet. But I was working on it and I always pull through
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