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Chapter |9| s*x God

E M E R Y ' S P. O. V

"Are you ready?" I nod desperately, reaching for the buttons on his shirt.

It's been weeks since our first date and everything has been perfect. Complete of me falling in love with man.

It's crazy, but I love him. In mere spans of a few months, I am in love. f**k, I don't think I've ever been in love before.

Not like this. Not enrapturing love that consumes every part of me.

I sleep thinking of him, I smile thinking of him, everything I do is just a stepping stone until I can finally see him again.

God, if my mom could see me now.

I'm a mess around him, he melts all the confidence and independence I've built up until I'm nothing but a puddle of water for him to ripple across.

That sounds...horrible in context, but trust me, it feels beautiful.

I need to let go. Kai does that for me. He takes away my problems and my worries and all the stress built into me as a doctor. It all fades with him, and I finally feel free.

Then why? Why am I hesitating ripping the clothes off this man and f*****g him senseless?

It's all I've wanted for weeks now, all I've craved, the only fantasy I've m*********d to.

This moment should be easy. Instead, I'm still fumbling with his stupid shirt.

"Fuck." I rip a few buttons in my angst. s**t.

I glance up at Kai, expecting him to look completely disgusted at this crazy woman before him that just destroyed his personal property.

"Was that expensive?" I can pay him back...but knowing his taste, it's likely the shirt was cost me a few pay checks.

"Emery, what's wrong?"

"I ripped your shirt." I mumble stupidly.

I feel his body shake with light laughter. "Baby, I own a hundred of these f*****g shirts. I don't care about that, if anything it turns me on." His laughter dissipates, realising I'm serious, and he tilts my chin up. "Hey, what's wrong?"

"I don't...I don't know. Honestly, I've wanted to do this for long but I guess I'm nervous. Really f*****g nervous."

"We don't have to s*x tonight. I can wait, if that's what you're worried about."

"It's not that. I trust you Kai, I do, but I'm scared. What happens after? After the chase is over and you've got me completely. What if it's not enough? What if you get bored?"

God, I feel like an i***t for saying it, but my insecurities are bubbling to the rough surface.

Gently, he cups my hand and pulls me onto my bed. Our knees brush, we're so close together, and I can't help but stare his lips.

His freaking smile turns me on. It's insane but it's true. Amiss all of this man's godly perfection, I'm attracted to that most of all.

Kai ducks his head to kiss me. His forefinger tilts my chin up, letting him deepen the kiss, just before pulling back.

"I will never be bored with you Emery. You're a firecracker, you keep me on my toes like no one else in this f*****g world. Do you how f*****g obsessed with you I am? It's creepy, really you should take out a restraining order against me."

I can't help but laugh, fighting tears that crease my eyes.

"You Emery, are special in so many ways. I've been celibate for months now. That's longest I've ever been without s*x since I lost my virginity, and the funny thing is, I don't miss it. The only thing my body craves is you, and I promise you that will never change."

I stroke the soft stubble on his cheek. He looks so much more like a man than when we first met.

"Don't let me wake up tomorrow in an empty bed." I break the distance between and kiss him with all the adrenaline that fuels my body.

This is my risk. A risk I'm willing to take, even though my heart could potentially shatter in the morning.

"I'm not going anywhere." He mumbles, and I smile into the kiss, letting his tongue brush with mine to a state of almost serene bliss.

Kai wraps me up in his arms, and eases me back onto bed. My body hits my fluffy knit blanket that I quickly yank off the bed and onto the floor.

We're desperate for each other now, savagely ripping at each other's clothes, ignoring the sounds of clothes ripping at the seams and buttons pinging across the room.

My shirt is completely tattered. Normally I hate when a guy rips my clothes, knowing that it's money wasted, but Kai doing it, unearths this deep insatiable hunger inside of me I never knew existed.

"Kai, quicker." I need him. Need our bare bodies pressed against each other, sliding and moving in perfect synchronicity.

"Fuck." I laugh quietly as he struggles to yank down my panties, the fabric catching on his watch. "Shit."

"Here," I shift up onto my elbows and slowly unhook the stray thread so he can pull them off. "We've got all night."

He stills for a second and then leans over, fingers brushing against my ribcage. "We've got forever, Emery. I promise you this night won't ever end."

Kai's a dreamer, I've always been a realist, but tonight I feed into his words, I let them become my reality.

He catches me awed lips, shifting his hand down to my swollen p***y. I feel his heavy grin shift to my neck, as his fingers sink into the wilderness that landscapes the area.

I've never been one for hair removal. It's my body, it's my hair, it's my choice. Recently I've considered it, thinking Kai would desire a girl all bare and smooth, but then I think f**k it.

If he wants me, he has all of me. Including my trimmed but still thick bush that he can't stop grinning at.

"So the curtains do match the drapes?" My body rocks with laughter, remembering him asking me the very question a few weeks ago.

"Shut up Kai." I'm about to drag him up for another kiss, but instead he lowers his head down and down and down and oh...

My brain melts as his tongue grazes my clit. He flicks it again and again, then slowly raises my legs until they rest over his strong shoulders.

"Are you gonna let me make you c*m this time, or will you run away again?" Grabbing a fistful of his hair, my body shudders as his tongue pushes into me.

"You better make me c*m more than once." I feel him grin against my p***y, promise fuelled in his actions.

"Fuck..." His thumb leisurely strokes my clit, back and forth, until I'm trembling in his arms.

Suddenly he replaces his tongue with his fingers, thrusting one inside of me and then two, their rapid speed creating heated friction that causes my head to spin.

"Kai!" I grip his hair so incredibly tight as white flashes burst beneath my eyelids.

"Shh, I've got you." I'm trembling in his arms, body and mind liquified to pure jelly.

I don't even realise he's moving me until my head hits a pillow. The comforter is drawn back and he slowly stripes himself of his last article of clothing.

Oh my...I now know why women risk everything for a night with Kai.

His c**k is pure pleasure, nearly nine inches. f**k. It's going to be losing my virginity on prom night all over again.

Kai reaches over and gently closes my slack jaw. "I know. It's a lot." He brushes my lips and shuffled forward on my knees. "If it's too much..."

"I can't handle it." It's just a cock...but it's not though is it. It's Kai, it's the man with the c**k that's the problem.

My head still reels from my o****m and he's about to f**k me with that monster. I can't keep a straight head, and I'm afraid of what I might say amiss the throes of passion.

"Emery, we really don't have to go all the way tonight, if you prefer..."

I shake my head and grip his c**k tight. He jerks in my hand, moans softly. Instantly I smile, watching Kai unravel because of me this time.

"Em, fuck." I stroke him faster, applying more pressure at the base and then slowly reach down to massage his balls. "Em god..."

He violently jerks forward, hooking my legs around his arms and sinking into me. "f**k me." I express at the sheer size of him, stretching me out more than anything.

"That's the plan baby, don't worry."

"Kai don't...jeez." My eyes rolls so far back I can barely fathom words.

Kai f***s me fast, quick thrusts, so rapid I know there's no way he's inside of me fully. "You can go all the way," Even though my push is already stretching around him to the max.

"Another time baby." He kisses my temple, then my cheek, my chin. My legs dig deep into my the flex of his a*s, feeling us muscles contract with every deft movement inside of me.

"I think I'm..." Words slip away as he f***s me restlessly through another o****m.

"f**k Em," He jerks out quickly, and cums on my stomach.

The plan was the sheets but there's weirdly something arousing in the way he's almost claiming me.

He falls, exhausted onto his side, both our chests still heaving violently.

A few minutes later, I'm rolled into his arms and he grimaces, staring down at my stomach. "f**k, I'm sorry. I know we said the sheet but I wasn't thinking and..."

"It's okay." I brush off easily. "It was weirdly sexy." He still seems angry at himself so I drag the corner of his lips up until he breaks out into a real smile.

"You don't regret it?" He whispers.

My prior fears of him crawling out in the dead of night with all his clothes fade away.

Kai smiles at me like there's nowhere he'd rather be. Just like me.

"Of course not. It was the best s*x of my life."

"It was the best s*x of mine too." I scoff. "It really was. I've never had such intimacy with s*x, it heightened everything and there's something rewarding in getting off someone you..." Holy s**t. Is he gonna say that he lo... "Like very much." Oh.

"Yeah me too. I'll go on the pill, so next time you don't have to pull out."

"I can pull out, really it's no problem."

"No, I want to." I was the one strictly against condoms after one broke and became lodged inside of at age 19. My father had to drive me to the ER and the incident has haunted me ever since.

"Okay, if you're sure."

"I am." I rest my head, against his chest. My finger traces the sharp contours of his smooth chest, watching as it moves up and time in synch with mine.

"I've never done this part before."

I smile. "Cuddled after s*x?"

"Exactly. It's peaceful." I doubt it with the blaring screech of cars horning just outside, but here it's just us, confined within the four walls of my small room. We've made it our moment.

I rest my chin on his chest, staring up at him. "When did you get so sweet and sappy?"

His grin stretches. "Around the time I realised I'm whipped. I used to give my brother so much s**t about it when he got engaged."

I frown. "Kieron's engaged?"

"f**k, no I meant Kalen." He curses himself out and I notice his eyes begin to well up.

"I'm sorry." I know his brother died recently, and he had a wife and a daughter that live away now. I also know they used to be close. Kai said Kalen was his best friend, and he'll always regret never telling him that.

"His love for Tessa was something I never thought would be possible for me. Now, everything is. He used to be the optimist, always telling me that there was someone out for me, that one day she'll come barrelling into my life and I won't know what hit me."

I wonder if he believes I could be her. He's already crashed into my life and turned it upside down in the best way possible, but I know he finds it hard to let his emotions show.

"I wish I could have met him." Kalen, if anything like Kai's sister, must have been a force to reckon with.

"Me too. He would have loved you, definitely ribbed you about giving me another chance but he would have taken care of you like you were his own sister."

Even now his lips find the strength to flash me the smallest smile. I reach up to brush away a fallen tear.

"Do you think we're there yet?"

He nods, gripping my a*s to hoist me up. "I want you to meet my family, and I want to meet yours. Who cares if we're going fast Emery? For me and you, this pace is good. Right?"

"Right." I kiss him hard, just as he shifts underneath us and pushes his c**k into me again. s**t. He really is planning to f**k me all night long.

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A/N: Thoughts on their first time together??

What do you think will be coming up next??