Concealed Feelings
1612 Words
MONTH 3
Blake POV
This was the third month with Desdemona.Last night, I made the same mistake again.I kissed her but it went too far.If all I wanted was a kiss for a closure,I should've controlled myself and stop things from escalating.
All those emotional talks,all those sentiments.It was something that should've been concealed in our hearts.
"Good morning." I heard a yawn when I turned around.
"Up so early?" I asked, examining my watch.It was only 8 am.
"Couldn't sleep." She whispered and sat beside me.
A feeling of horror rushed down my spine when I saw a brownish mark on her neck.
"Didn't you make breakfast?" She asked.
"No,you don't usually wake up before half past nine or ten." I replied as I drank my coffee.
"Yeah, right." She replied.
"Des,after last night-"
"It was a dream." She let out a faint, lazy smile.
"Please don't think too deep into it." I said.
"I am not.It's okay." She rested her hand on mine.
It was silent for a while until she looked at me.
"Do you regret?" She asked sadly.
"I...'' I was indeed as a loss of words.I did not know what to say.
When I didn't answer, she turned around casually.
"It's alright. " She faked a smile and walked towards her room.
"I don't. '' I whispered.
''What?" She asked.
"I don't regret kissing you." I whispered as I looked at the ground.
"It's fine then." She smiled and attempted to walk away again.I grabbed her wrists and hugged her from behind.
"Let's go somewhere." I smiled.
"Where?" She asked.
"Do you want to go to an amusement park?" I asked.
"What? Yes,of course!" She hugged me in happiness.
"You're the best kidnapper ever." She joked as she kissed my cheek.
"You are my promise, princess." I replied.
"Thank you for keeping me happy." She said.
"You deserve to be happy,Des." I smiled as I cupped her face.
"Go get dressed we are going to enjoy today." I said.
She ran off to her room excitedly.
She came out wearing a strapless light blue top and white short jeans.Her hair was a ponytail and she wore a bow over her hair.Also she wore the watch I got her in her right hand.I chuckled as I saw that.
"How do I look?" She asked.
"Good." I replied.
"You won't change?" She asked.
"No,I think-"
"Suit and pants to an amusement park, you're crazy.'' She said as she dragged me to the room and opened my closet.
She shoved her face in my clothes.
"It smells so good in here." She looked at me as I stood behind her back.
"Mhm,is this good?" She asked she pulled out my white jeans.
"Mhm,it is." I replied.She pulled out a t shirt for me to wear.
"Yeah,this is good." She said.
I placed my hands on her shoulders.I leaned forward because I couldn't help myself.The view of her neck was making it hard for me to breathe.
I kissed her neck as she stopped breathing for a second.
I sniffed on her neck.How wonderful she smelt.I wanted to start sucking the skin but I had to control myself.
She was still as a statue.She didn't move at all.
"I am sorry." I whispered.
"You take my breath away every single time." She whispered as she turned around.
"Nothing was a mistake." She said as she leaned forward.
I was in a state of daze.I was pulled back to reality as she started kissing me on the lips.
Again.
I cupped her face while her hands wrapped around my neck.
She broke the kiss to breathe.Then,she kissed my chin and my neck as she slowly started to suck and bite.
I grabbed her face and made her face me.
"We shouldn't." I whispered.She nodded nervously.
"Just wear the clothes and come out soon." She said as she walked out of my room.
The car ride was silent and awkward.My heart wouldn't stop pounding at all.On the other hand,Des was silent as well. I did not know how to start a conversation after all this. Everything felt f****d up.
The car stopped. Des looked at me with a bright smile. I smiled back at her.
We walked out of the car and inside the amusement park.
"I want some ice cream!" She demanded when she saw the ice cream truck at the entrance.
"Alright." I whispered.
We walked towards the ice cream truck. I stood behind and watched her as she ordered.
"Um... do you have butterscotch?" She asked.
"Yes." The man inside replied.
"I want one." She said.
"Coming right up!" The man replied cheerfully.
"No wait!" Her sudden reaction shocked both me and the man.
"Can you actually mix the red velvet and butterscotch?" She demanded. The man's jaw dropped at such weird combo.
"In one cone?" He asked.
"In one cone." She replied.
"Blake,do you want one?" She asked. I shook my head.
"Why not?" She asked.
"I don't like ice cream. " I replied.
"What? Who doesn't like ice cream?" She gasped.
"I don't. " I smiled as I walked forward to pay the man.
"Enjoy." He said to us. Des took her ice cream and connected her arm with mine.
We walked slowly. It felt different. What could I say? Every time felt different with her.
"Why don't you like ice cream?" She asked as she licked her one.
"I just don't.Moreover,I think it's overrated. " I replied.
"I have to say,you have a bad taste. " She teased. I smirked secretly.Really,Desdemona, do I?
"Taste mine." She forwarded her one.
"No way." I replied.
"Okay, do you hate ice cream?" She asked.
"No,I only eat on certain occasions. Maybe when the ice cream tastes really good or else no. Moreover,your hybrid taste scares me,Des." I rolled my eyes.
"It is not bad! Taste it first." She frowned.
"No." I replied.
"It's really good. Trust me,sweetheart, you will love it." She said.
"Sweetheart? That won't work." I chuckled.
"Just have a try. It is really delicious,I promise. " She smiled as she stood in front of me and blocked my way. I crossed my arms over my chest and took a deep breath.
"Just have a taste quick. It's melting. " She said. There was no winning over her. I leaned forward and took a bite from her hands. When I swallowed it, it was actually divine. It did not taste weird at all but rather extremely delicious. I licked my lips as I felt lost in the taste. It tasted like her lips.
"How is it?" She asked as she linked her hand again with mine.
"It's alright. " I replied.
"Just alright?" She asked.
"It's good." I said.
"Don't be shy." She shoved her shoulder against mine as she broke down in laughter.
All of a sudden ,she placed a kiss on my cheek. My heart at thumping due to the shock. I was frozen internally. I could feel the intense surging of my blood.
"Don't. " I whispered.
"What?" She asked.
"Don't do it. We are in public. " I said.
"So what? Let people know that you are mine. " She smiled.
"People misinterpret things. They will write anything on the headlines. I have to answer the reporters." I said.
"Just say anything. Why do you care if they write something wrong? Don't they write baked stories all the time?" I asked.
"Yes, but this is something. If someone takes picture of us? It will question my personal life and impact yours too." He said.
"That does not matter. If I were in your place, I wouldn't give a s**t about what they think or write. " She said. She was saying these so lightly. She did not know what it meant. She never faced such media. It was easy for her to say.
"It is my image, Desdemona. " I replied sternly.
"Okay,okay sorry." She whispered and went silent. I looked at her. Why was she so dramatic? I did not even say anything to make her mad. Was it normal for a woman to go silent in the middle of a casual conversation.
I grabbed her jaw and placed a kiss on her cheek.
"Why'd you do that?" She frowned.
"My wish." I replied.
"Are you crazy or what?" She asked.
"Does it matter?" I asked.
"You just said-"
"I wouldn't have if you didn't start acting. " I teased her.
"I didn't act!" She gasped as she widened her eyes.
"You are so problematic. If I had known, I would've never suggested to go out with you." She rolled her eyes and elbowed me.
"The drama starts again." I chuckled.
"I am serious." She frowned. I tried my best not to laugh at her.
"That's it. I am returning. " She turned around. I immediately grabbed her and carried her on my shoulders.
"What are you doing! Isn't this going to be on the media too?" She rolled her eyes.
"Put me down.It's embarrassing. " She whispered.
"This is your punishment for being so dramatic. " I chuckled.
"Blake,I am gonna kill you!" She said.
"Apologize. " I said.
"You apologize!" She said.
"Stay there forever. " I said.
"Okay, sorry." She said. I put her down. She frowned at me again.
"I am sorry as well.I will just ignore whatever they write." I smiled.
"You better learn how to be a celebrity. " She said.
"It looks like you know it better than me." I joked.
"Blake!" She gasped.
"Let's enjoy a ride or else you will exhaust me by arguing." I laughed.
"You are unbelievable!" She blushed and embraced me.
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