Tears of Vengeance

Realizing Love

Sometimes people who hurt us the most are the one who attracts us the most.

Hatred and Love is mixed dangerously.

I looked outside the window.The cold air hit my weak body.

Several thoughts rushed through my mind.

"I can't do it.I am sorry." My heartless voice said.

I couldn't kill him.I can't kill him.I will never kill him.To them,all I was,was a betrayer,a traitor.

It wasn't my fault.I will retire once I return back to America.This was my decision.

"Fine!I will do it myself!" Walker cut off the line.

I deserve to be treated like this.I deserve to be treated like a trash.I could not avenge the person I loved then what kind of human am I?

I betrayed my country for a person who brought such misery upon me.

But he didn't treat me like trash.He treated me like his own.He loved me and took care of me.

No one ever took care of me like the way he did.

To the outside world,he may look like a demon but to me he was he?

Sometimes loneliness wrapped itself around me.

Was I wrong again? Was I wrong when I took the decision of saving Luke? Was I wrong when I didn't poison his coffee?

No answer to these questions.

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"Lucia?" Luke voice penetrated through my thoughts.We were both walking in his huge back yard and drinking coffee.

"Yes?" I looked at him.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

"Yes,yes I am fine." I replied.The moon shone above us.The gentle wind touched our bodies.We were just separated by an inch in this environment.We were separated by a word in our lives.Hatred.

"What happened?" asked Luke.

"Nothing." I pursed my lips.

"I've heard...what you did." He said.

"What did you hear?" I asked as I furrowed my brows together.

"Why didn't you poison me?" He asked as he stood in front of me with his huge body.His forehead was shining due to the extraordinary moonlight.The moon was looking as us.The wind was praising us but my heart,my remorseful heart,it was always conquered by him.

His brilliant smile said that he knew the answer to his question.Yet I didn't.

"I question myself the same thing every night...why didn't I poison you?" I whispered.My long hair blew due to the gale.

"It is possible to fall in love." He said as he put his hot palm on my cheek.He knew I didn't believe in love.He knew that I didn't know the meaning of love.

"Is it? But it isn't possible to fall in love with the devil.I will never fall in love with you." I whispered slowly.Some part of me regretted saying those words but some part of me feel joyous after I said it.