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Chap-9

Rubbing my lips against each other to smoothen the lipstick, i walked into the studio. Balancing my books in one hand and holding one large box in another, i made it to elevator. I greeted the people on my way to my office. Turning on the lights, i placed the box on the table and sighed in relief. Box contained some medicines and stuff.

Phew. That was heavy.

My finger tracing today's schedule, which was taped on my glass table. Today bts had to perform at an award show and next three days too. I quickly prepared the box for the things that i might need there.

I heard a knock on the door, standing up from the floor and throwing the medicines into the box, i called the person in.

Baek kyung head's appeared as the door opened. I smiled at him.

"Hey!." I greeted him as he came inside.

"Hello. How are you now?." He asked me as soon as he came to stand in front of me.

"I am fine. How did the shooting went?." I asked, taking a seat on the sofa and Baek kyung followed suit.

"It was good." He said, with a sigh it was clear he was hiding things that i already knew.

Bang Cha told me that they all went home very late. And it was because of me. I felt bad about it and i had planned something for them in return.

"That's good. By the way, Thank you Baek kyung, for yesterday." I said him, and pat him on the hand as a gesture of gratefulness.

"No problem Eun Ae. That's what friends are for. And i know there is something big that is stressing you out but you wont share with me." He said, narrowing his eyes and shaking his head in disappointment.

"Baek kyung, its not like that. I am just trying to face it myself without anyone's help. I really appreciate your help and i promise you i will approach you myself when i fail." I said, and hold his hand. His warm soft hands making me feel safe.

He is an ideal friend that anyone can ask for.

"I understand. And i am sure Eun Ae, you will do it because you can. You are a strong person. Do-yun told us about your hardships and you never gave up. So don't give up!." He said, holding my hand tightly in his.

His eyes boring straight into mine. The look was so intense for me to handle that i looked away from his piercing eyes. Although i had no feelings for him but his stare made my heart beat fast in vulnerability. I felt water in my eyes and i bit my lip trying not to cry.

"Thank you Baek kyung." I quivered as strong emotions hit me again. He saw my moist eyes as I tried blinking them away. He quickly pulled me into his embrace.

"Hey Don't cry. It's going to be fine." His hand moving up and down my back, which soothed me.

I took a deep breath and broke the hug. I smiled up at him and nodded my head, assuring him i was fine.

"Thank you for saying those things. I really needed to hear them." I said to him.

He nodded his head and gave me his soft smile.

"Okay. I need to go now. Please take care of yourself. What are we gonna do without our sweet doctor?. Um?." He said in a baby voice and with a cute expression. I chuckled at him and nodded my head.

He winked at me and left. I sighed and smiled at his cuteness.

Picking up my phone from the table, i called Luca's number.

"Hey Luca. Sorry for disturbing you."

"Hey Eun Ae. No its fine."

"I wanted to ask when are we leaving." I asked and bit my lip while looking at myself in the mirror. My eyes light reddish due to crying.

"In a few minutes. And i forgot to tell you, you will have helpers there. So coordinate with them."

"Oh okay. And one more thing, i brought food for Sirius members and for you guys. So after show don't go." I told him.

I picked up the hair brush and brushed my hair. They were getting longer.

"Oh that's great. Thank you Eun Ae. Looking forward to it." He said with cheeriness in his voice.

I bid my bye and hung up the phone. Quickly pulling my hair into a high ponytail and splashing some cold water on my face i went out of bathroom.

After a while, a staff member came to help me pick things up. I put them in my car and waited for Bang cha and Nicole to arrive. I waved my hands to members as they made their way to the black SUV's. They came after a while carrying their boxes.

"Come on hurry up." I told them, sitting in the drivers seat and adjusted the mirrors.

"One more box that's all." Nicole said as she rushed back again.

Bang Cha came to sit in front and put up her black Ray-Ban sunglasses.

"How do i look?." She said making a duck face. Her pink tinted lips which pulled forward, goes well with her fair skin and pink dyed hair.

"Classy." I winked at her.

She dramatically threw her hair over her shoulder and chuckled at my expression.

"Too much?."

"Yes." I said with a deadpan look.

"What are you laughing about?." Nicole asked while gasping for air.

"Nothing. But why are you gasping like a fish taken out of water?." Bang Cha asked, pulling her glasses down at nose.

"I couldn't find that one box, i panicked and went crazy looking for it. Running here and there." She said and took a deep breath.

I opened the water bottle and passed it to her. Thanking me, she chugged it all down at once.

"Slowly!." I scolded her.

"Sorry." She said whipping her chin as a few drops fell out of her mouth.

I rolled my eyes at her, a soft smile playing on my lips and i started the engine. Bang Cha and Nicole were discussing the looks for members with their dresses for today's event. I was lost into my own thoughts. Then my favorite song came up and I started to sing. Circles by Post Malone. They also liked it and sang along with me. In a few minutes later we reached the place.

As soon as car came to a stop they both started to move in a bullet speed. I blinked at them, surprised. They were already in with their boxes. I picked up my box and followed them inside the building. People running here and there and chartering, laughing and urgent calls were heard from all the sides. I followed the pink head- Bang Cha, trying not to bump into anyone on my way.

Taking an elevator we reached where Sirius member room was. I quietly took an empty seat near by and looked at staff members doing there work. Sirius members were gone to arena, where they would sit and watch performances of other artists. Wardrobe staff were arranging members clothes and their accessories. Bang Cha and Nicole had put all the stuff on the dressing table. The table had square mirrors with bulbs on its sides.

I saw Luca approaching me with five men. I stood up as he neared me.

"Doctor Eun Ae. These people have specialized in this field. They will help you today here." He said, pointing towards the men, who bowed and i did too.

"When is their performance?." I asked him

"We will have our show after five performances." He told me while looking at the paper he was holding.

I nodded my head as he excused himself and went away.

"Hello. I am Doctor Eun Ae." I introduced myself to them.

They introduced themselves and took our seats. I looked around for Bang Cha and i found her in another room filled with a few staff members. They all were looking at a large LED TV. It was coveraging todays event. I sat in the corner and watched the performance of artist on the stage. She had a beautiful voice and was pretty too. Everyone seemed to enjoy it and people in the room sang along her. Bang Cha pink hair were dancing along with her. I chuckled at her.

Time passed by so quickly that it was our time now. Everybody was ready to do their work. As soon as members came in it was all chaos. People running here and there, noise getting loud. In fifteen minutes they were ready. They stood up and walked towards back stage. I went to the men who were waiting for me. We all picked up the stuff and followed a staff member who showed the path towards the back stage. It was huge. There were several seats and sofas present. I was in awe. I had never seen a back stage before. I made eye contact with Nam-joo and gave him a thumbs up, saying good luck. He nodded his head and smiled. Though they didn't looked nervous but i was pretty sure they all would be. The back stage also had several LED TVs which were showing the stage performances.

Luca speaking something into his mic and pointing members to stand on the lift. They all complied and stood on it. A staff member gave them their mic. All the microphones were pretty, glittery and eye-catching.

I stood in front of one of the TV and looked at them. They were being lifted up and the crowd went crazy. So much cheering and clapping. The crowd was filled with Army bombs which purple in color now. The scene was so beautiful that an electric current ran through my body. I smiled at them as they started their performance.

The camera zooned onto Seo-joon's back as they started dancing to Ashes and Diamond. Their Fanchant so loud that i put my fingers into my ears, smiling and lip-synced along with them. Then Baek kyung came and boy did he looked handsome. They all showing off their charms, i smiled at them. They sang their parts gracefully and dance in such synchronized way that i have never seen before. I get it why fans loved them so much. They do their best and give their best. As song was on it last part, all the staff started to rush, some bringing their clothes and other things. As they descend the lift, crew member opened the chill coolers and passed them water bottles and mini towels. I picked my small bag and walked towards them.

"All fine?." I asked them,as my eyes scanned them from head to toe.

"All fine." Baek kyung, Nam-joo said. Joo-ho even gave me a thumbs up. I smiled at his cheeriness.

"Are you guys okay?." I asked other members.

"Yes. I am always fine." Tae-hoon said with a smile.

I chuckled at him and nodded my head. I looked at Seo-joon, he nodded his head and drank water. Tae-ri nodded his head and Ho oppa gave me a small nod. They all were fine.

I walked back to my seat. Nam-joo, Joo-ho and Ho yong changed their outfit for the next song. After a little touch of makeup they went up on the stage. While others were getting ready for their next performance. Ho yong started the song and then later joined Joo-ho and then Nam-joo.

"What is the name of this song?." I asked Baek kyung who stood behind me looking at the TV.

"School love affair." He said, running his hand through his hair.

"I like it." I told him as i bobbed my head.

"You haven't heard of it?." It was Seo-joon who asked me that.

How come he got bold all of a sudden?. But i liked it.

"I am actually not a fan of you guys." I said awkwardly, lifting my shoulders up.

"Oh that's okay. You like their song, then make sure you tell them." Baek kyung said softly and passed me a smile.

" I surely will." I said and looked at Seo-joon.

Baek kyung excused himself and went towards Luca. Seo-joon stood there looking at the TV.

"Next is your performance?." I asked him, breaking the ice.

"Yes. Baek kyung, Tae hyung and Tae ri and i going to sing our song Dimple illegal." He said, a long stand of his hair fell upon his eye and he did nothing to move it away.

I kept looking at it. It was distracting as it made him look more unreal and handsome.

"Oh. I have listened to this song. It's really nice." I compliment him and he smiled in return.

He had pure happiness in his eyes as i talked how i loved their performance before and how their fans cheered for them.

I guess we were progressing?.

"Come on. Its time." It was Tae oppa who tapped Seo-joon's shoulder from behind.

Seo-joon waved bye at me and went away. They all were covered in black clothing, which made them look more appealing and beautiful. I gave them a thumbs up as they went up. Baek kyung smiled brightly at me. He is such a cutie.

I passed a water bottle to Nam-joo as they came down from stage.

"Thank you." He said and took a seat.

"You guys were amazing there. I loved your songs." I told them,

"Thank you very much." Joo-ho said with a large smile on his face.

Ho yong nodded his head. I went back to screen and watched them perform. Seo-joon did a hip thrust and my eyes widened, surprised and i bit my lip preventing myself from smiling. Tae-ri winked at the camera and the crowd went wild. Then the main part came, dancing so smoothly and beautifully, i was mesmerized by them. They surely were very hot and beautiful.

Then came Seo-joon part and the camera was capturing him from down and he looked down at it, hairs falling on his eyes as he stare down into camera with his one hand into his pocket. Looking so damn good in black, he looked marvelous. My heart beats fast by just looking at him the way he moves his body, the way he smiles at the camera, the way his hair dance along with him. All so beautiful like him.

Wait. My thoughts skid to a stop.

My eyes widening and my hands getting all sweaty. They do when i am nervous. My mind was all messed up. I couldn't think straight.

Please move on.

You have to live.

You can't stay like this.

Move on.

The words kept rewinding in my mind like reverse gears. My throat was dried, palms sweaty as i looked up to the TV screen. Seo-joon was dancing in the center. He bit his lip in between dancing made my heart flutter.

"Aren't they handsome?." A hand fell on my shoulder snapped me out of my trance.

"Um. Yeah." I said looking back, finding the owner of the hand. It was Nicole.

"Their dresses are good. They look really hot, aren't they?." She said winking at me.

"Um. Yeah. "I agreed with an awkward laugh.

"Okay enjoy. I have to go back." She patted my back and walked away humming.

I looked back at the screen and they were done singing. They were coming back. I stood there and looked at them descending the lift and grabbing a water bottle from staff member.

Baek kyung saw me looking at them, he excused himself and came towards me.

"How was it?." He asked while drinking water.

"You know it. You guys were amazing. I guess amazing is a small word." I said smiling at him.

He chuckled and thanked me. I passed him a tissue paper as a drop of sweat followed his hair line.

"Thank you." Passing me a grateful smile. He looked back.

"Seo-joona!." He called him, he was sitting on a sofa drinking water. He looked at Baek kyung and then at me. Baek kyung gestured him to come over. Grabbing a mini fan from staff member, he came towards us.

I looked closely at him. And my god. I can't describe you how really beautiful he was. It was like all best sculptors from around the world sit together and decided to make Seo-joon. That's how good-looking he is. His jawline so perfect.

"Please will you look at Seo-joon's ankle. He twisted it during performance." Baek kyung asked me while looking at him

"No, no. I am fine." He said, shaking his head and hand in front of us.

"No. You will get checked it out." Baek kyung insisted and Seo-joon sighed and nodded his head.

"Please sit down here." I pointed at a chair near me.

I sit down on the floor and asked him to take his socks off. He bit his lip in shyness.

"Its okay." I smiled up at him.

"They may be smelly." He said in a small voice.

Cute.

My heart warmed up for him.

"It's okay. It's not a problem. Relax and take it off. You don't have much time". I reminded him and he nodded his head and take it off. He looked at Baek kyung and he nodded his head at him smiling.

They started talking as i inspected his ankle.

"When you feel pain tell me immediately." I told him. He looked at me and nodded his head.

I moved his ankle in different angles but no pain.

"It's totally fine. There is not even a swelling. He is alright." I gave him a thumbs up.

Baek kyung sighed in relief. He truly cared about Seo-joon. As i was about to get up, a hand appeared into my vision. I looked up and it was Seo-joon. I took his hand which tightly en clasped around mine and pulled me up. I stood up and thanked him. Nodding his head, he wore his socks quickly.

"Thank you." He said and went away with Baek kyung to changing room.

I sighed, looking at his walking figure.

What have you done to me?.

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