Falling into Her

chapter 9

Lucas pov's

(FALLING)

I was surprised seeing her in our practice.Kung noon ay iritang irita akong makita siya sa hall but this time siya na palaging hinahanap nang mga mata ko.

Whenever she's around i felt so relax.

I never knew that those hates was turn me into this and that night happened naging dahilan iyong kung bakit sobra akong nababaliw sa kanya ngayon bagay na hindi ko lubos inaasahang magkaganito ako.

Diko napigilang magbago ang mod ko when I saw how Sean approaching her.Tss!hes really an asshole! pati ba naman si Jaymee? Is he even courting her?

I heard Gabrielle want to take Jaymee home and that asshole too.

No the hell way!

Kaya after our practice I directly go to the parking area.

i never wasted any moment,Hindi na nga ako nagbihis pa at agad dumerechu na sa parking area and look for Jaymee 's car.

When she saw me standing in front of her car ay agad namilog ang mga mata niya.Gusto ko lang naman siyang makusap about what happened and honestly gusto ko siyang iiwas kay Sean at Gabrielle.

Hindi ko alam pero habang tumatagal ay naramdaman kong nagiging possessive na ako sa kanya.I don't know pero ayaw ko talagang makitang may kasamang iba si Jaymee lalo na mga lalake!

This is so crazy! dahil ganun kalaki ang epekto sa akin ni Jaymee!

But Jaymee doesn't feel the same way.She even wants me to forget what happened.And that's really ridiculous because I am her f*cking first tapos gusto niya kalimutan lang namin nang ganun ganun lang?

No way! There's no way that I can take her away from me!i can't even erase her in my mind!

Ayaw man sana niyang sumama sa akin,pero napilit ko pa din ito.I don't know basta gusto ko lang siyang ilayo sa mga lalakeng lumalapit sa kanya!

I brought her in my secret place at nakita ko kung ganu niya nagustuhan ito but Jaymee was so hard to get she is so hard to impressed and she was keep telling me that I should stop those guilt for what we did.

I'm not even guilty for what we did! I really just missing her so much kaya ko siya dinala sa secret place ko.

At hindi kuna din siya pinilit pang mag stay and we decided to go home and I can sense that she really that uncomfortable being with me.

When we arrived, i saw Sean there and he's leaning in his car na tila ba hinihintay niya talaga si Jaymee. Agad ko namang naramdaman muli ang siklab nang init nang ulo ko.At agad lumabas SI Jaymee sa kotse at mabilis siyang kinausap ni Sean.

I really hate this guy,really!Bakit ba kasi sa lahat nalang ng bagay iisa lang ang gusto namin!

Nakita kong umalis na si Jaymee at tuluyan nang pumasok sa loob at naiwan kami ni Sean ngayon sa baba.

" So from bully to a lover ha? " he said na agad lang itong ngumise nang nakakaloko.

"And what's with you? bakit girlfriend mo ba siya?"i asked him na halos nakipagtagisan ako ng tingin sa kanya.

"Jaymee is too inoscent for your bullsh*t Lucas, I'm warning you! You stay away from her!" he said at agad naman nagpanting ang tainga ko at mabilis lumipad ang suntok ko sa mukha niya! na siya namang ikinatumba nito!

" Don't you dare f*cking tell me what to do!Lalapitan ko kung sinong gusto ko! At lalayuan ko kung sinong ayaw ko! So f*cking stop interfering my life or Jaymee's life!" I told him na gad naman itong bumangon at gumanti sa akin as I expected dahil never bagpapatalo ang isang Sean!

"Eh g*gu ka pala ihh!!You think i didn't know your f*cking intensions?Pinaglalaruan mo lang si Jaymee! You are trying to own her then what? Pagkatapos mong mag enjoy sa kanya You're gonna dump her?Huh? She didn't even deserve that kind of foolishness Lucas! So back off!!" he said as he wiped the blood on his mouth na agad ko naman siyang binawian as i punch him again.

Nagpalitan kami nang suntok hanggat sa nilapitan na kami nang ang mga security.

"you stay f*cking away from her!" he yelled.

" F*ck you!!you f*cking stay away from her!" I said to him full of pissed.

"Sabi na ngang tama na eh! Anu ba! Ang gugulo niyo talagang mga kabataan kayo!" the security said na agad naman akong umalis at pumara nang taxi.

Jaymee pov's

I'm getting ready for school again,Pero kanina pa ako paikot ikot actually nahihilo na nga ako dahil hindi ko talaga mahanap ang susi ko ng kotse ko.

"shacks! nasaan naba yun!" Ang wika ko sa aking sarili habang patuloy pa din ang pag hahanap ko.

Then I suddenly heard the door bell na agad ko naman itong pinagbuksan and I was so shocked seeing who was it.

" I guess you already looking for this." he showed me the key of my car habang nakangite ito.

"s**t uo nga pala siya ang nagdrive ng kotse kagabi kaya nasa kanya ang susi, nakalimutan kuna pala itong kuhanin sa kanya!nakaugalian kuna talagang maging ulyanin kainis!"

" Akin na nga yan!" hahablutin ko na sana nang bigla niya itong itinaas.

" Oops,Hindi pa kasi ako nagbreakfast eh can I have something to eat?" he said habang nakangite siya sa akin.At ayaw ko man pero sobrang naiinis na ako sa sarili ko dahil ito na naman ang puso kong parang tambol na dumadagundong!

" Anu ba! Sa canteen ka nalang kumain!Akin na kasi sabi yan ihh!" I said habang pilit ko itong inaabot sa kanya at ganun nalang namilog ang mga mata ko nang bigla niya akong hinawakan sa braso ko and he looked closely in my lips.

I can't describe how I feel right at that moment!Hindi ko alam bakit ako nkakaramdam nang ganun.Ang bilis nang pintig nang puso ko na halos nanginginig na ang laman ko sa kuryenteng dumadaloy sa mga kalamnan ko sa pamamagitan nang simpleng paghawak niya sa akin!

Tss!why I even felt like this?

At ganun nalang akong natigilan when I heard him saying..

" I like you Jaymee." he said as he stared on me intently.

And what he just said?he liked me daw? Nakakatawa talaga siya! As if maniwala ako sa prank niyang to!Tss! utot mo Lucas! Like mokong paglaruan kamo!

" Stop this bullsh*t Lucas! it's not funny!" I said to him na agad naman namilog ang mga mata ko when he suddenly kissed my lips at agad ko naman siyang tinulak!

" Bakit mo ginawa iyon? ha? is this a part of your pambubully ha?Anu na naman ba to Lucas? " I'd asked him

" Jaymee no! it's not what you think!I really like you!And yes I admit I don't like you before, I even hated you that much,It's damn crazy ! And kahit ako ay hindi ko din maintindihan ang sarili ko!All I know that after what happened to us,Hindi kana maalis alis sa isip ko! I don't want to but f*ck! palagi kitang hinahanap hanap!Hindi ko ginusto ito Jaymee but damn! You're f*cking driving me crazy! And everytime I saw you with someone else,para akong mababaliw sa kakaselos!I don't even like what I felt right now!But I can't help it! I can't f*cking control my heart! because it's just you that I always wanted to! And ...I'm so damn miss you baby! I miss you so much!" He said na agad naman niya akong hinalikang muli and this time he deepened that kiss at unti unti nang gumagapang ang kanyang mga kamay sa private part ko.

My mind told me to push him away,that everything is a lie! But my body wants him so much! Yes I want him too! I miss him too!

At ang hirap traydurin ang sarili mong katawan dahil sobra akong nadadala sa sensasyon na hatid ni Lucas sa akin.I want him too...

Pero agad kong naisip ang mga pinaggagawa niya sa akin bagay na nagising ako sa labis na pagkalunod nang kayang mg halik at haplos.

Kaya agad ko itong pinigil.

No! hindi na pwedeng maulit ang pagkakamali naming yun! I don't know what's with him in his sudden changes but all I know is he is a jerk!

" Stop this Lucas please..." I said at agad naman siyang tumigil at niyakap ako.

" I'm sorry baby,I'm so sorry..I'm just missing you so bad" he said

" Jaymee.. I think...Im falling for you." he said as he keep staring in my mabilis akong nag iwas nang tingin as I hold my tears to fall down.

I don't even get it,bakit sobra sobra niya akong pinatitripan!

" Lucas, thats not love either!Maybe that just some kind of itch that you want to scratch on! Madaming mga babae jan na nagkandarapa sayo! You can have them all! Wag nalang ako please!Wag akong paglaruan mo! At uulitin ko,what happened to us was a mistake!" I said habang pilit kong itinatago ang mga luha ko sa kanya.

" That's bullsh*t Jaymee! And what makes you think na kati lang itong naramdaman ko para sayo huh? You're damn making me crazy Jaymee! Na kahit ako ay hindi ko maintindihan ang sarili ko kung bakit nababaliw ako sayo nang ganito! Kaya stop judging what I feel because you don't know me!!You think ginusto ko to na magkagusto ako sa isang katulad mo na isa sa mga binubully ko ha?You dont have any idea kung paanu ko sinusubukang pigilan ang sarili ko! Pero sige fine! if that's what you really want!Then...then maybe you're right! let's just..just forget what happened!" he said habang nilalapag ang susi nang sasakyan ko sa table at agad itong tumalikod.

Naiwan niya akong nakatulala at nakatingin sa kanya habang naglakad ito palayo sa pad ko.I can't even sink his words in my head at namalayan ko nalang na may mga luha nang dumaloy sa pisnge ko.Mabilis ko itong pinahid gamit ang mga palad ko.

Bakit pakiramdam ko ay nasasaktan ako nang husto? what he just said was made me hurt...I can't believe what he just said that he's falling for me.Pero bakit parang may kirot sa puso ko? why is it there something inside of me,hoping that the word he likes me,is true.

Ang labo naman.This is what i want,yung tantanan niya ako.Yung tigilan niya na ang pagbanggit about sa nangyari sa amin.But why it seem so wrong? That seeing him leaving it mades me cry na halos bumibigat ang pakiramdam ko!

Am I even falling for him too?

"Sh*t no way!Hindi pwede!he's not even my type!" Yan ang sabi nang utak ko but my heart keep insisting that he's just him!

Lucas Ford is known as babaero,bully,gagu, lahat na nang pangit na katangian ay nasa sa kanya na.At isa ako sa magapatunay nun dahil I was his victim too!

But why of all people sa kanya ko pa naibigay ang sarili ko and dahil dun pati naramdaman ko ngayon ay nahihirapan na akong aminin sa sarili ko kung anu ba talaga siya sa akin.

Pati sarili ko ay niloloko ko na! Dahil I am so scared to try! Ayaw kong masaktan! Ayaw kong umasa tapos malalaman kong isa lang pala itong palabas lahat! Part of his bullying!

It keeps insisting in my mind that he is nothing to me,but why does my heart always looking for him?why I even felt this pain?

Bahala na! But I have to crash this feeling!Kelangan kong labanan ito!Kelangan kong iwasan siya at hindi ko susundin kung anu man ang nasa puso ko because he might just playing games with me at ayaw kong mapasubo,ayaw kong magmukhang kawawa sa huli at higit sa lahat I don't want to be hurt by him!