Kill Or Be Killed

Chapter 38

Chapter 38

Celestina's POV

The time has come and my birthday is today. Even though I wanted to still sleep because it is too early in the morning, the anticipation and excitement that I am feeling right now do not make me rest. So I got no choice but to get up and do my morning rituals. After fixing myself, I go to the closet where the dress that I am going to wear is resting. A simple pastel blue cocktail dress is worn by a mannequin. There will be no cotillion so I do not need a long dress that will touch the floor. A very simple dress with a classy details is enough for me.

It will be an intimidate party anyway, so I do not have to put so much effort with my dress and and makeup. I check every detail of my dress just in case there is a damaged part that we did not notice at first look. But everything is just so perfect that it is make me more excited to wear this dress. I cannot wait Zen to see me wear this. I blink several times because of the realization of what I was thinking.

Why am I even bothering on what could be Zen's reaction once he saw me in this dress? I shook my head to stop that thought. I took a deep breath instead and go back to the bathroom to have a wee. Just when I pass by the mirror, I stop walking because of the horrifying reflection I have. It is not my face anymore because again, the reflection I am seeing right now was the girl's face and I started to panic. I want to step forward to get closer to the mirror to see myself clearly because I was hoping that it was just a hallucination but I could not do even a single step. Feels like I lose all of my control in my body.

"You can still have your face and your body, but the control is in me. This was far from my plan but I think this would be better. After days of observing what is happening in your surrounding, I just found out that you vampire king's weakness and I know now how to control her," she says and my face is now back to normal. But the she still has a control in my body and I do not know how to take back my control.

What I am worrying more is the thing that she said she will use me to control Zen. And I know she has an evil plan with him. And I will not let that happen. I will not let her use me to do something that might put Zen's life in danger. I think Zen should know everything but how can I tell him if I could not even speak. Even just simply parting my lips is something that I cannot do. And this is bad. She just did what she said that she wil take over my body at my eighteenth birthday. She is a werewolf queen and I know that I got nothing on her. But I was just thinking that of all people, why me? And how she was able to take over my body?

I try to move my body but I did not flinch a bit. And I am afraid with all the plans she told me. I know that I might put Zen's life in danger and that is something I am afraid to happen. I saw myself smiks and I swear that was not my action. It was her move. And she smirks as if she can read what is on my mind.

"If you will ask me why it was your body that I take over, because you have my heart," she says and it really surprised me. At first, I did not take it literally. Until I remember what my dad told me about the heart transplant that I have been into. And he said that it was my mother who did the surgery. An idea that the heart they used to replace mine was hers. But of all the possible donor that my mother could find, why the heart of the werewolf queen? Does my mother even knew who was the donor?

She walks my body closer to the mirror just like my plan a while ago. She leans in to the sink with a bigger smirk in her face. I wait for the next words she will tell me.

"I don't know if you could still remember, but you have undergone a surgery. Just a little storytelling about me and your mother's backstory, we were good friends. Like really good friends. She used to treat me every time I got wounded in having a fight with those greedy vampires. She used to got my back and so am I," she says and I saw a little smile in her face. She is staring at my eyes and I know that she knows and she can read all of my thoughts. So even though I could not speak, she can still answer all of my questions because she is in my body.

And I remember the stories of elderlies about the werewolves. In their stories, werewolves used to protect human race. They were kind and very helpful. They fight against the vampires when they are beating up humans. But when the battle ended, werewolves got defeated because their queen got defeated by the vampire queen. And that battle was between this girl who is trying to take over my body and Zen who is the vampire King. And now I know why she wants to face Zen again. That is because she wants to have a revenge.

What I do not understand is the fact that she has to use me and my body. She has been beaten up, what's the use of having a revenge? I was not happy for the vampires' victory because when they won the battle, I heard that humans' lives became more miserable because there are no more as powerful as werewolves that have a chance to oppose them.

"I know you are asking why am I having a revenge? Because being with your body since the moment my heart transplanted in your body, I have witnessed how much power we could hold being he most powerful race in this planet. I had to wait till you turn eighteen because that is the time my blood will take over your body. I will not harm you. I still value my friendship with your mother." I still have my question in my mind on why does she needs to use my face when she can simply use hers? I do not think that it just because she values her friendship with my mother. I know that there is a reason on why she has to stay behind my face.

"Zen is obviously in love with you," she said as the answer in my question. And it also a confirmation that she can actually read my mind. And I think that it is better because I am not capable to move my lips to speak for myself. But what she just said really shocked me. And I think she is talking nonsense already. I laugh at my thought after hearing those words from her.

Where did she even get that idea? How could she say that Zen is in love with me? That is too impossible. Zen? The vampire king? Will be in loved with a commoner like me? I want to take it as a joke--or a sarcasm but I can say in her tone that she was serious about what she said. And I want to laugh at her--only if I could.

"You know, Celestina, Zen is your follower because he could not resist you. And I will use that love for you to control him," she said and it really makes me mad. But I could not do anything to object because even though I would not admit it, I know to myself that she has now all the power and control in my body. "I know he could not hurt you, and I will use that to hurt--or kill him freely." Her last words really got me shiver.

There is no way in this world that I will allow her to use me to kill Ze. Once I will be given a chance to talk to Zen, I will tell him everything and I am also willing to tell him that if he has to kill me just for him to be safe, then he must kill me. I also have no idea on why I am so willing to sacrifice my own life for a vampire who caused much misery in this world.

"You are probably in love with her too, you just haven't realized it yet," she said with a mocking chuckle. Bu what she just said really had me thinking. And it scares me a lot. I just hope that whatever she is trying to say was wrong so that Zen will not hesitate to hurt me once she started her plan on killing Zen. He must not consider my safety this time. He must might her back even though she is in my body. I would rather die than kill someone. Zen has never shown me bad so I could not harm him.

And no, I hope she was wrong that I am in love with Zen too. I am not just into violence that is why I would rather be dead than hurting someone.

"From now on, I will take in charge in this body. I can do whatever I want to do. And you cannot do anything about it," she says then went out the bathroom. I hope I could at least read what she is thinking like what she is doing to me. But unfortunately, I could not read her mind so I have no choice but to wait for her next action so that I would know what could be her plan.

She went again to the the dress that I am about to wear. She touches it like she is really looking forward to wear it. Well who wouldn't? Every girl who could see this dress will surely want to wear or at least try it.

"I could not even imagine how much Zen will stare at me with admiration in his eyes the moment he sees me wearing this," she utters and I know that she is intentionally saying it for me to hear it. And she know that I cannot do anything even though how much she tries to provoke me.

"Don't you dare touch Zen!" I scream mentally since I know that she can hear me. But I heard her laugh and I know that she will not listen to me.

"What do you mean touch him? Like lay a finger on him...or touch him romantically?" She even giggles and I know that she is doing it on purpose. But what she just said really bothers me. And I do not know what would I do if she ever did neither of what she has mentioned. "Could you afford see me hurting him--with your own hands...or would you rather see me flirts with him?" she says and God knows how much I wanted to hurt her. Too bad for me because I just can't. I feel like a disabled and useless being.

"I know that you do not want to see me do both but I want to try one. Or I can try both." She laughs and all I can do is to curse her on my mind. She even claps my hands and I know that she was just trying to piss me off. And if that was actually her plan, then I must say that she succeeded because it was very effective. And even though I do not want to admit, I think she already knew what to hit in me. And I am afraid that she might use it against me.

"Don't you dare!" I tell her but she just smirk at me. Why would she even listen to my words if she has all the control in my body?

"Do not worry, Celestina girl. I will not do it in the same time. I will do the flirting first." I wish I could protest but I cannot. I really hate this b*tch and I get a chance to punch her in the face even just one time. "Flirting first. And then soon enough...I will do the killing."

I hold my breath after hearing what she said. Zen has defeated her once, I just hope he can defeat her again.