Kill Or Be Killed

Chapter 37

Chapter 37

Celestina's POV

I was the sitting at the front seat and the couple were the ones at the back. I do not think they would be wanting to sit where I am sitting anyway. The ride with Zen has been so quiet. None of us dared to speak. The only thing that we could hear is the engine of his car...and the low tap of his finger in the steering wheel. We have been stuck in this traffic already but with his gestures, he seems to be not that bored. I just do not know how long he is able to jam in this traffic. I hope we move on now.

The car is moving on but only little by little. Then we will be stuck again for a couple of minutes. I keep on looking at Zen just to see if he is feeling bored already. But looks like he isn't. I just hope that his expression is not fooling around. I also hope that I read him correctly so I do not wanna be confident. I only stopped looking at him every moment he started looking at me because he noticed my glances in him.

"So where do you plan to go first?" he asks me and I got a little nervous when I realized that I have not told him my plans yet aside from the fact that I want to join Viola and Roman in doing groceries. And I wonder what could be his reaction when I tell him the first place we need to go to is the church. I am pretty sure he will not go with me inside the church so they have to wait for me in the car.

Viola and Roman will surely not mind waiting for me. Who I am worrying was Zen. I do not think he is willing to wait for me for an hour or more.

"Church," I said as he started driving slowly again. The traffic is getting better and we are moving on faster. It is good thing because I now have a chance to take a glanace at him again because his eyes are now focused on the road. I never knew he is this responsible in driving even though he knows to himself that a simple car accident cannot harm him. Well, maybe he knows that we a just a normal people and can be harmed if ever he commits an accident. We will be the one who will suffer and he knows that fact that is why he is being careful.

I look at Zen to see his reaction but I see nothing from his face. He is just looking at the road normally like he has not heard anything. But it is impossible that he did not heard me because it is loud enough for him to hear me. Or maybe he heard me and he just does not have any idea what I was talking about. Does he even know what church is? Yea, there is a big possibility that he actually does not know what church I was talking about.

And I think that I need to explain everything to him already before he realized it with himself. He needs to know what church is so that I could still have more time to convince him to continue with my plan. Because he might back out when once he found out what church is.

"Church, Zen," I repeat myself just to get his attention again.

"Yea, I heard you," he says, annoyed. And I think that he was annoyed because I had to repeat myself like I was telling him that he did not heard me. But I was just trying to explain to him everything, though. "Just tell me the direction of the church that you want to visit," He said and I was shocked. Because with his questions, it was pretty obvious that he knew what I was talking about. Do they have churches too?

"You know what church is?" Zen looks at me for a couple of seconds with a frown in his forehead, as if he is confused on why I was asking that. Well, he could not blame me because I was just making things clear.

"Of course! What do you think of me, Celestina? A moron for not knowing what church is?" he said as he continue driving his car. I can't tell him that what he is thinking was right. I really thought that he does not know what I meant.

"It as not like tha, Zen. I did not say you were a moron for thinking that you do not know what church is. You know, I know that you do not attend masses. Vampires do no have any religion," I said and I was waiting for another scolding words from him and I am ready for it to hear.

"That does no mean I never knew about it," he says and I nod just t tell him that he was right.

"I know and I was sorry for that," I just said and none of us speak again. The next words I spoke were the directions for us to get into the nearest church. And just as I expecting, I will be the only one who be attending mass. I just found out Viola and Roman has no religion because their God is the vampire king. Well, if that is their beliefs, then I could not argue with that.

Zen reached the carpark of the church so I hop out the car because I can see from here that the mass inside the church will start momentarily. I just told them that they can roam around near the church so that they could not get bored. But Zen turned down my suggestion and said that they need to monitor everything around the church just in case they notice something unusual. Even though that was creeping me out, I just let them do what they want to do because I know that I cannot stop them from being paranoid about my safety.

When I am now currently walking in front of the church towards the entrance, the main reason why I am here came into my mind. And I remember the woman who was trying to take over my body. I feel myself if there is something strange will happen to me. Since I will be entering a holy place, I expect the woman to oppose my plan that is why I am feeling a bit nervous right now with the thought of what if she will suddenly appear here in a public place. Everyone might think that I am under a witchcraft.

I took my steps slowly just so I can prepare myself from her. But I have entered the church already and I have not felt her presence again. I still have all the control in my body. And I think that she is not comfortable in this place that is why she is not showing up. I think that this was a good idea. I hope that as I get out from this church, her presence in my body will be washed out too. I will no let her take over my body because this is mine. And I hope that when I pray for her to be gone, her presence will eventually gone.

I did not get a hard time to get into the church. The mass started and everything that I feel was just normal. I could not rejoice enough because these past few days, everything I felt was also normal but I know that there are still a threat of that girl. And I am afraid that this place is just another ordinary place for her.

Until the mass ended and everthing went normal. I joined the sea of people heading their way out. I got bump into them because the exit is now crowded and seems like everybody is in a hurry. I just could not stop for a while and wait for the crowd to slowly subsiding because that would surely take much of my time. And I could not afford that because Zen is waiting for me outside this church

But even though it was not my plan to stop, my feet automatically stopped when I heard a whisper in my ears. It was just a whiper but I did not feel any air near my ears and I can't help but wonder on where did that whisper came from. I was about to continue walking and thinks that was just a misheard since I did not even understand what the whisper said but then I heard another whisper.

"This is useless..." I cannot be wrong and I am sure on what I just heard. And I am afraid that I knew what does it mean. It was also a girl's voice--a familiar girl's voice. And I know that it was sounded like the voice of the girl who was trying to take over my body. My knees started to shake and I know that it was not a hallucination.

I can't be stopped here for another couple of seconds because the people at my back are now complaining because I started blocking their way out. And I do not want to cause any hassle to them so I got no choice but to move forward. I continue walking out not realizing that I am already in front of the frontseat's door. My mind is filled with that thought and I already do not know what to do to calm myself down.

"Are you alright?" Zen asked me when he open the door because I was just standing in front of it. I hurriedly hop in the car and look at the sun visor mirror just to check if my face has shifted to someone's face again. And I heave a sigh of relief when I saw that my body is still wearing my face. Because if not, I will never know how can I explain it all to them. "What's wrong?" Zen asked me again. I took a deep breath and brush my hair with my fingers before looking at him and flashes a smile.

"Yea, of course," I said and I just hope that he will not notice the smile that I faked. He looks at me for a couple of seconds until he face the steering wheel again. And that was just the time I ralaxed myself. Zen started driving away from the church and just like what we planned, we go on a grocery to buy things that will be using onmy eighteenth birthday.

It was just a mini party but since it will be the most important birthday of a girl, I want everything to be perfect and go according to plan. We bought goods as fast as we could and I hope that we did not forget anything. When we were done with the groceries, we plan to go back to the mansion so that we could eat lunch already. We cannot eat or lunch out since we are with Viola and Roman. They wil surely not join us even though I know that they are tired and straving already because they will not be comfortable because of Zen.

And I will not let them wait for us outside the restaurant even though I know that they are starving. So for them to eat already, I decided to have our lunch at the mansion. They can eat already once we arrive and let Mira to prepare our foods. Zen did not do say any violent reaction and agreed on my plan to just go back to the mansion. The ride went fast because Zen took another route to avoid the traffic.

It is a good thing that when we arrived at the mansion, our food is ready and all we need to do is to sit and eat. It was just a quiet lunch with Zen so we finished our food fast. He did not stay long and leave the mansion already.

Just when he left, Viola and Roman asked me or what are my plans on my party and I tell them everything. They were both happy when I told them that my dad will be here too that is why I want everything to be organized since I know how perfectionist my father is. Good to know that they understand everything that I said. They get everything easily and I can entrust my party to them.

Even though I just found out that my birthday will be the first party that they will organize. But I can't untrust them because their excitement is like an assurance that they will do their best for this party will be successful. It is not an extravagant party so I know that they can handle everything with just a simple guidelines.