Kill Or Be Killed

Chapter 35

Chapter 35

Celestina's POV

Zen remains silence and I have no idea on how long he will be this quiet. I really want to see his face so I could now see his reaction but I know that I cannot. Even though how much I want to know what he is thinking, I know that I could not because f the distance that we have. And all I can do is to wait for him to speak again.

"Is that so, Celestina? Then getting you from your father is a possession to you?" he asked and I was about to open my mouth to speak again and I just stopped when the realizations on what he said hits me.

"W-what?" I asked him, trying him to speak again just for the confirmation if I heard him right. But he did not speak up again I do not know how he would. So I got no choice but to continue speaking again because if I would not, our conversation will not resume unless I will be the one who will continue the topics because after the silence that he gave me, I do not think that he will continue whatever he just started. I just hope that he will give me the confirmation that I will be asking from him. "I said that if you only want to be with someone. That is the time that I can call it possession. But my situation with you is understandable because I know that my dad was indebted to you." I just hope that Zen will agree on what I was saying.

I know what he really meant but I do not want him to clarify that thing because I am not ready.

"Do you really think that is the reason why you are here?" he asks me and I have heard this question before from him. But the only difference is that before, I was really clueless. But now, I have all the answer in me and I was just in denial.

"Yes, Zen. What else could be the reason?" I said with a little laugh at the end of my words. But I can clearly hear that little shake in my voice because of the tension I was feeling in our topic.

"You said it is a possession for you if someone is forcing himself just to be with you. But guess what, Celestina? Call me possessive or what but you can never change the fact that I will always want to be with you," he says and it makes me speechless.

I was actually expecting him to say those words because I can already feel it. But hearing it directly right in front of him was something can caught me off guard. Well, who would not be so shock? What he is doing right now is actually a confession. I do not know if he is aware about that fact but Zen is actually saying those words without any hesitation.

"You can't just say those words, Zen," I said in the tone of scolding him. But I do not expect him take my words seriously because I cannot control the little stutter in my voice. Even though how much I try to talk to him normally, my heart and my voice are not cooperating.

"And why not, Celestina? Was it wrong?" he asks me and I can sense a tiny hint of mockery in his tone. Of all the confessing words I have heard, this is definitely the rudest one. Instead of being gentle with the way he talks to me, he is so confident. And I do not know how to feel about it. The only sure in my emotion right now was the shock in my system.

I am not assuming anymore because he is now somehow saying directly that he wants to be with me. And the only thing that is needed right now was my reaction. But how can I react with this one? I am expecting him to confess this but I was still in disbelief. Because I am asking myself now, why me? How did he end up wanting to be always with me?

Does he like me? Of course, I know that the answer is yes. But why is that? What makes him like me? There is nothing special to me for the most powerful creature in the world will be wanting to be with me. Not just to be with me, but always to be with me.

"It wasn't, Zen. But you could at least took it slow," I said and I heard him chuckle. He can laugh about this one but me, it is making me restless.

"I took it slow, Celestina. Trust me, I did. As slow as it took ten goddamn years," he says and it makes my heart skips a beat. I do not know if I should believe him because how could that even be possible? We have only known each other for like a week? I think that he is just blabbering. But I know to myself that is not his thing. He is only saying facts. Fooling around is not something Zen will do.

"You are kidding, right?" I said with a little chuckle. But even though I chuckled, the awkward and the tension I am feeling right now is very evident.

"I know that you already know the answer in that question. But fine, if you will really ask me if I was just kidding, the answer is no. There is no reason for me to fool around," he said and that is what I actually expect.

"But Zen..."

"Hush it, Celestina. You do not need to say anything. I was not expecting for your answer, anyway." I hope it is really that simple. I hope that it did not make things complicated. But what he did and what I heard from him was really something that can make me hard to face him again. "Goodbye, Celestina. I will be the one who will be with you tomorrow." After saying those words, he hung up.

And it makes me even more panic when I heard what he said. And yes, I will be meeting him again tomorrow. And yes, I am now freaking out.