Perfectly Imperfect

Chapter 3

Destiny POV

As I walked into the hallways, I was determined to make this day a good day. I walked to my locker and sadly Tysun and the rest of them were there. I took a deep breath and walked over to them. As soon and Shaun saw me he moved in front of my locker.

"Please move." I said quietly.

"Oh you talk." He teased.

"Well God did make me with a mouth and he obviously didnt make me mute." I said a little louder.

"Seems like he also made you with a smart mouth." He said.

"Can you just move."

"No." He said. I sighed loudly.

"b***h nigga." I mumbled while walking away. I felt myself being pulled back and slammed against a locker.

"The f**k you call me?" He asked.

"Nothing..."

"What I thought. Take yo fat self out my face." He said pushing me which made me fall once again. His trick was starting to getting old. I got up and walked away from them. I went into my class and luckily my teacher was there.

"Umm Ms?" I asked while walking up to her desk.

"Yes? Oh, I didnt see you in my class yesterday. What's your name dear?" She said looking at me with a genuine smile. She was very pretty. She looked like she was in her late forties, had a slim body, mixed skin tone, with long brown hair.

"Destiny Philips." I said.

"Oh. Well its nice to meet you Destiny. Im Mrs. Nichol."

"Nice to meet you too." Soon the other students came in and I took a seat in the back. I watched as Tysun came in by himself. I guess we had creative writing together. He looked at me an sat in the closes seat to him. "Alright class. Good morning. We have a new student today. So I just wanna ask her to just introduce herself and why she decided to take this class. Destiny please come up." I sighed and got out my seat. I could hear the snickers and laughing as I walked to the front. "Okay full name, age, hobby, and why you chose this class."

"Destiny Philips, Im 18, my favourite hobby is-"

"Eating." Someone said. The class burst out into laughter. Except Tysun and this other girl. It took a whole lot to not allow the tears to fall from my eyes.

"Quiet down class. And whoever said that and whoever laughed, see me after class. Which means everyone except Tysun and Khianna needs to stay." Mrs Nichols said. "Continue sweetie."

"Umm. My favourite hobby is writing and Im taking this class cause I like writing and expressing myself and feelings." I said before quickly walking back to my seat. I sat down and looked out the window.

"Alright class." She started talking about writing and stuff so I rested my head on the desk and blocked everyone out. "Now I'm going to pair you all up and you are going to create a dialogue or storyline with the two characters I give you. So partners. Ummm, Tysun and Destiny. You two have a man on the ledge and a psychologist." I quickly rose my head off the desk. I didnt want to work with him. I watched as he walked towards the back of the class and took the seat next to me. I didnt say anything to him. I could feel his eyes on me so I just laid my head on the desk again.

"You gonna have to talk to me sooner or later. So quit being so rude and f*****g speak." He said harshly. I quickly got up and went to the front of the class.

"Mrs Nichol can I be excused from class. Im not feeling well." I said.

"Oh, okay Destiny. Just come back later on to pick up some papers. Also this is a graded assignment so you and Tysun will have to find time to work on this." She said. I nodded and left the class. I went to my locker, got my wallet so I could get a bottle of water and packed my books in my bag so I wouldn't have to come back to my locker at all. I turned around and bumped into something hard. I looked up and saw Tysun.

"Listen Destiny, you really gotta stop this. Its annoying." He said. "Just talk to me."

"Fine. I dont want to do this project with you and I know you dont wanna do it with me. So here is my email, and just send it to me. Since you dont want to be seen with the loner, we can do it online. You wouldn't need to see me, you dont have talk to me. You can start it." I said writing my email on a loose piece of paper. I shoved it in his chest and walked away from him. I walked into the office and asked to be excused for the day.

Tysun POV

"Imma see you guys later kay?" I said closing my locker.

"Aiight man." Shaun said.

"Bye bye." Brianna said. Tayanna already left due to the fact that she had an appointment. I got my keys out my pocket and unlocked the door to my car. I got in and drove to my apartment. I got there within ten minutes since I didnt live that far away from school. I parked my car and headed inside. I placed my book bag down on in my room and pulled out my laptop. I decided to get started on my homework before doing anything else. I got started on my English and then did my Physics and Chemistry. Your boy taking the big classes.

I finished my homework and decided to watch some tv. I turned on the television and flipped through the channels. Then I remembered that Destiny gave me her email address. I took it out and looked at it. When she gave it to me she was a little harsh. Saying that I didnt want to work with me got to me cause I was kinda looking forward to working with her. I wanted to know why we fell apart as friends. I decided to use this as an opportunity to talk to her. I pulled out my laptop and opened up my email.

Destiny POV

I got home and laid on my bed with my laptop. I already finished my homework and now I was bored. I out my laptop and started surfing the web. Soon I got notification from my email. I opened it and saw that I got a message from someone.

T_Riverz@h*********m:

Destiny, this is Tysun. I really dont feel like typing on a computer so heres my number. Text me. We need to talk. 7189362200

I rolled my eyes and closed my laptop and laid on my bed. I was tired and allowed my eyes to close.

**************

I walked through the hallway and luckily I was by myself. Everyone was already in the cafeteria. I opened my locker and got my phone and my wallet. I closed it and headed to lunch. I walked in and everyone was chillin with their friends. I walked to the lunch line and grabbed turkey sandwich and a coke. I paid and looked for somewhere to sit. I made eye contact with Brianna and she got up. I mentally rolled my eyes and walked towards an empty table. I sat down and opened my drink.

"Okay whats going on with you?" I heard Brianna say while standing in front of me.

"What do you want?"

"For you to talk to me. Why aren't you speaking to me. I thought we were friends."

"Ha! Friends? Well you thought wrong cause me and you are no longer friends." I said.

"What did I do?"

"You made your choice. You want to hang with the popular people and s**t? Go ahead. Dont worry about me. You are just another fake ass b***h. So go back to your friends and leave me the hell alone."

"How the f**k am I fake??!??" She yelled getting everyone's attention. Oh Lord.

"Why the hell you gotta yell all the time. Im not about you and the drama you cause with me. I dont know why you think we are friends. You call me when your bored or when you need me. You dont want to be my friend. You just use me. So now you cant do that no more because Im so over you!!" I yelled. I got up and walked towards the doors if the cafeteria. My only mistake was walking pass Shaun. He smirk and tripped me once again but this time I bumped into Tayanna.

"You fat b***h get the f**k off me!!!!" She screamed. I quickly got off her and heard everyone laughing. I quickly ran out the cafeteria and through the hallway. I noticed that I had a big stain on my shirt. What a bad idea to wear the white shirt today. I was once again humiliated in front of everyone. I reached my locker and opened it. I looked for a tissue or something to wipe off my shirt but sadly I didnt have any.

"Here you go." A voice said behind me. I slowly turned around and saw the girl from my creative writing class. She was my height with a lighter complexion than me. She had a good size to her. And she was soo pretty. Something I could never be. She had her hair in a messy but very cute bun. She wore a pair of nerd glasses but they kinda looked real. She held out a school shirt and some tissue. "I saw what happened a few minutes ago. Come on. Lets go to the washroom." She said. I didnt know whether to trust her but I followed her to the washroom. I changed into the shirt and luckily it fit me. It was kinda snug but Ill survive. I stepped out the stall and she stood there looking at me.

"Um, thanks." I said.

"No problem girl. What happened in the cafeteria was f****d up and just rude." She said shaking her head.

"Im use to it I guess." I said quietly.

"Well thats not right. I transferred here cause I thought this school was one of the good schools in this town but I guess I was wrong." She said getting mad. She took a breath and looked back at me. "Where are my manners. Im Khianna Jameson." She said holding out her hand to me.

"Why are you being so nice to me?" I asked. I was never the person people spoke to just like that. Even if they were new. They usually just walked passed me or something. This was actually very strange.

"What do you mean?" She asked pulling her hand back.

"Im fat and ugly. Nobody talks to me. Not even new people. They usually pass me by. You're pretty and stuff. Why are you nice to me?" I asked.

"Look, Im new and everyone seems nice I guess but I saw you in class all quiet and stuff. You seem interesting and like you need a friend-"

"So you're talking to me out of pity. I knew there was something to it. Thank you for help but I dont need people to feel bad for me and talk to me because I look lonely." I said walking out. I went to my locker and grabbed my books for biology. As I headed to my class I felt my hand being pulled back and I turned around to see Tysun. "What??"

"Look, what Shaun did was uncalled for. And-"

"Why the hell do you care?? Huh?? Why do you NOW care. You wait three f*****g years to care?!? f**k you Tysun!!"

"I always cared. Dont you ever say I never did! You were my best friend!"

"Were best friends!!"

"I just want to know why we fell apart."

"You want to know why??? Cause you changed!!! You became popular and LEFT me!! You were aware that being popular was NEVER my thing. But you went ahead and joined them!! You made fun of me and the times I needed you, you were never there for me!! Do you not remember what you called me two days ago?? A fat ass b***h!! That hurt!! I dont understand why you would even have the nerve to say that to me!! Ive accepted the fact that you will never be my friend ever again so why dont you just go back to your friends and leave me alone!!" I yelled in his face.

"Im sorry Destiny. You know I didnt-"

"Sorry my ass. Just leave me alone." I said walking away from him.

Khianna POV

I stood there dumbfounded. I wasn't feeling bad for her. I actually wanted to be friends with her. I sighed and walked out the washroom. I wasn't going to stop trying. Oh hold up, lemme introduce myself. My name is Khianna Lanelle Jameson. Im 17 turning 18 in exactly one month from now. I have a nice brown skin complexion. Not to dark and not to light. Just right there in the middle. I have long thick black hair. My body? Well its pretty good. I got a slim waist with C cup boobs, flat stomach, a cute booty thats big enough for my liking. Im a pretty chill girl but getting on my bad side and you will not like it.

Tysun POV

""Damn, that girl needs to lose some f*****g weight." Tayanna said.

"Man the way she fell. I cant get enough of it."

"Well you need to stop." I said.

"Man you catching feelings for that ugly b***h?" Shaun said.

"You know what? Im tired of y'all. Im out. Talk to me when y'all learn to respect people." I said walking away from them.

***

School was finally over and I was at my locker getting my things.

"Baby what was that at earlier?" I turned around and saw Tayanna.

"What are you talking about?" I asked.

"The way you were like talk to me when y'all learn to respect people. What the hell was that?" She said. I was about to answer her when Destiny walked up.

"Can you please move from in front my locker?" Destiny asked Tayanna.

"Im talking to my man. You can wait." She said.

"Nah. You in front her locker you need to move." I said. Tayanna looked at me as if I did something wrong.

"When did you decide to stand up for this fat hoe?" Tayanna said.

"Like I said before when you start respecting people, talk to me." I said once again.

"If you think that Imma respect that b***h, you f****d up."

"Guess we're over then. Deuces." I said. Tayanna turned around to Destiny.

"If you know what is best for yourself, stay away from Tysun." She said before walking off. Destiny sighed, grabbed her bag and started to walk off.

"Destiny wait." I said.

"What Tysun? What is it? You want me to say thank you? Okay fine. Thank you Tysun for sticking up for me but now she's gonna be on my case from now on." She said.

"No thats not it. I just wanna talk to you okay? Like I'm being real. And we gotta work on that assignment for class. So why dont you come over to my place." I said. She looked at me then started laughing.

"Nigga you crazy." She said but soon she realized that I was serious. "Oh, you're serious. Well we can talk but only about the assignment and at my place."

"Fine. Follow me to my car." I said grabbing my backpack.

Destiny POV

I followed him to his white 2013 Mazda 3. He opened the door for me and I got in. He closed the door and jogged to the drivers side and got in. He started it up and drove out the school parking lot. I looked out the window and watched as the houses went by.

"Can I ask you something?" He said breaking the silence.

"No." I said. I was still mad at him. I had three years of anger built up in me for him.

"Why not?"

"Cause I told you, all Im talking to you about is the assignment." I said getting irritated. He stayed silent for the rest of the drive to my house. He reached my driveway and turned off the car. I got out and headed to the door.I unlocked it and headed inside with Tysun following me. He looked around probably admiring the way my home looked.

"Nice house." He said.

"Thanks. You can go sit in the living room while you wait on me."

"Where are you going?"

"Dont worry about it." I said. I walked up the stairs and to my room. I took off my uniform and changed into my sweats, my parental advisory sweatshirt and my black fuzzy boot slippers. I grabbed my books out my backpack and headed back downstairs. I saw Tysun sitting in the living room watching tv. Im guessing he heard me because he looked up at me. "Do you want to work in here or do you want to go in the study room" I asked him.

"We could go in the study room." He said grabbing his book bag and following me. We walked down the hall and I opened the door to the study room. We sat down at the desk and started working on the dialogue. It was pretty easy. We finished within two hours. "Damn, why do you know so much on what a doctor would say to a guy on the ledge?" He asked. I shrugged my shoulders. "Well this is pretty legit. Seems like I'm actually ready to kill myself."

"Mhmm." I said closing my book. "Well, you can go now. My moms gonna be home soon."

"Nah, I think I wanna stay and say hi to her. I haven't seen her in years." He said. I mentally rolled my eyes.

"Fine. You can go back into the living room." I said.

"Why cant I stay with you?"

"Cause I dont want you too." I said getting up and heading to my room. I closed my door and laid on my bed. I sighed and wished that the guy who I liked and thought I was a complete loner was sitting in my house. I just wanted him to leave.

Tysun POV

I watched as she got up and walked out the study. She had a banging body. Thick in all the right places. I got up from the study room and back into the living room. I decided to stay so I could see Ms Phillips again. I switched the television back on and watched the game. Soon the front door opened and a woman humming came in. I knew it was her. I heard her place some bags down on the ground and decided to help her. I got up and headed towards her. "Need help?" I asked since there were like a million bags plus two boxes of pizza.

"Oh yes. I can sure...who are you?" She asked looking up at me. I smiled.

"Come on, you dont remember me?" I asked. She shook her head. "Ms Carol, I use to come over all the time." She looked at me closely and had a surprise expression.

"Tysun?"

"Its all me."

"Oh my gosh!! You've gotten so big and handsome!! Give me a hug!!" She said. I hugged her then helped her take the bags to the kitchen. She invited me to stay over for dinner and I couldn't pass up a deluxe pizza. "So Ty? What were you here for?"

"Oh, Destiny and I had to do an assignment so I came over to do it."

"Oh thats nice. I hope this year goes well for you guys. Especially Destiny. She's been so depressed lately. All summer she didnt do anything. Except try to commit suicide." She said.

"Whatchu mean?"

"I dont know what happened. To this day she wont tell me. I just remember sitting down watching the news and looking at a live report of her standing on top of the tower downtown wanting to jump and her psychologist telling her not to jump. It kills me inside to see her hurting and I cant even help." She said. I didnt even know that happened. "Do you have any idea why she's like this?" She asked. I shrugged my shoulders. "Alright. If you do, please tell me so I can get her help." I nodded my head. "Destiny!!!!! Come down for dinner!!!!!" She yelled. We waited about ten minutes and she still didnt come down. "Ugh, can you take this up to her room?" She said handing me a plate with four slices of pizza on it.

"Sure." I said. I grabbed two slices for myself and I walked up the stairs and saw a door with Destiny's name on it. I knocked and waited for an answer. I didnt hear anything so I opened the door. I saw her with her headphones and some book she was writing in. She looked up at me and took of her headphones.

"What?"

"Your mom asked me to give this to you." I said. She nodded and took the plate.

"Ill be back." She said. I sat down on her bed and looked around. I noticed her book and it was still open. I picked it up and looked at it. Destiny always wrote and allowed me to know how she was feeling so I didnt find a problem with it. I flipped through the book and most of the pages were filled with huge letters saying "im done" or "kill me". Basically things that would cause anyone to commit suicide. Luckily I found a page that had writing on it.

Dear Diary,,

Sometimes I wish I was never born. No, thats a bit extreme. I wish I was a different person. I hate who I am. Im such a disgrace. Its so hard to walk around knowing that people are thinking mean things about me. I wish I could stay in my room all the time. I dont understand how I got these fat genes. My mother is such a beautiful woman. How does she make something like me? I just dont understand. I'm just this blob walking around. No one understands what I go through on a daily basis. I dont have anyone. I wish my bestfriend was there for me but he's not. He already left me. I was devastated. He left me for the in crowd. I wish he didnt. I wish he could have at least make sure I was okay in school. I cant blame him for being accepted into the popular group. He couldn't be denied. His caramel skin tone, hazel eyes, full lips, perfectly straight pearly white teeth, they couldn't deny him. But they denied me. Multiple times, and he was there to witness them and he even pushed me away. But I never thought he would ever, to my damn face, tell me that Im a fat ass loner. That s**t is killing me. He was always the one to tell me that Im perfect the way I was. But I guess I got too ugly and fat for his liking. But honestly Im so done. Im tired of being friends with anyone. I wish things could be different but thats not the way things are.

"Why are you reading my book!!!!!" I quickly dropped it and looked at Destiny.

"I...I uh..."

"Leave!!!" She yelled.

"Destiny no. I need to talk to you. We need to talk."

"Get out my room!!" She yelled again. I got up and walked towards her.

"Desti, please." I sad calling her by my nickname for her. Her face soften from her anger and she looked at me. "Can we talk?"

"I dont remember the last time you called me that." She said quietly. She closed the door behind her then sat down on her bed. I sat down beside her. There was an awkward silence but I decided to break it.

"I know why you were so good at our assignment. Why would you think of jumping off from the tower?" I asked her.

"You'll never understand. So there is no point in even saying anything."

"Destiny please."

"Why do you suddenly care?"

"Its not suddenly. I always cared but-"

"You just pushed it to the side and did nothing. Thats exactly what you did."

"I know. And Im sorry." I said. I really was sorry.

"Why? Why would you let this happen to me?" She asked.

"What you mean why did I let this happen. I didnt do anything."

"Yes you did!! You always told me things to help me get through the teasing and s**t!! You were always the first one to stand up for me and get them to stop! But as soon as we stepped into high school and all the girls started to crowd you, it was bye bye Destiny!! Im surprised that I even got through three years of high school!! The bullshit you put me through has made a dent in me!! You may not realize it but you control what I am at school!! All your teasing with Shaun from the past years made me this way!! I know Im fat, ugly, and unwanted!! Y'all NEVER had to emphasize it!! I see it everyday!! Dont you think looking in the mirror hurts? I didnt need your help to make me feel bad about myself."

"Destiny you dont have to try kill yourself just be-"

"Tysun, you dont know what Ive gone through! I just wanted to be done! You're Mr. Perfect!!! Everyone wants to be your friend, and your good looking!! You dont get teased about your face, your legs, or any part of your body!! I do!! I get harrassed everyday by everyone. So yes I do want to kill myself!! Jumping off the tower would have made things much more easier." She screamed with tears falling down her face. I wrapped my arms around her and sighed.

Destiny POV

As he wrapped his arms around me, I calmed down a bit. But I was still hurt.

"Can I asked you something?" He asked.

"I guess." She mumbled.

"Would you really kill yourself?"

"Yes."

"But thats even more pain."

"I dont feel physical pain anymore."

"What do you mean by that. Everyone feels pain."

"I dont." I pulled up my sleeve and exposed the scars I had.

"Oh God." He said grabbing my arm. "Destiny why?? Why would you do this to yourself!!" He yelled.

"Stop acting like you care." I said to him while getting up. He grabbed my hand and made me sit down.

"Stop saying I dont. I know that we aren't close. But trust me, I do care. Why do you think Im making these efforts to talk to you. Destiny, Im sorry for the way Ive treated you." He said. "I never once meant it." He said looking me in the eyes.

"Then why did you say it?"

"I dont know. But just know Im truly sorry." He said. I nodded and sat there. I didnt know what to say to him. I couldn't forgive him as yet.

"You can leave." I said.

"Destiny-"

"Please just go." I said. He sighed and got up. After he left my room I finished my pizza and looking up a the ceiling. I was so tired I closed my eyes and sleep took over.