Fierce Nervous Beta

Training day - part 2

After lunch the Alphas and Lunas headed in Alpha Cohen's office to discuss new treaty terms. We all headed back to the training ground for private sessions. Oliver and I walked hand in hand the whole way.

"How are you feeling today?" He asked. I looked up into his blue grey eyes.

"Good I think." He smiled down at me.

"Good." I could get lost in those eyes. They reminded me of the cloudy over the ocean before a big storm. If you stared at them for long enough you could see them swirling like clouds rolling through the sky. I hadn't realized we'd stopped walking until Oliver pushed my against a tree. I placed my hand on his cheek. Recently it has been so hard to suppress my feelings for him. I think it's because my 18th birthday is soon and I'll hopefully get a wolf who will not be able to stay away from her mate. He starts breathing heavily and I place my hand over his shirt just above his heart. I can feel him freeze under my touch. I shouldn't be doing this. It's not fair. We both know this can't go on for much longer. My birthday is in a month. A month until we become official mated. For Oliver that's the best thing ever but for me, it fills me with dread. He leans down and kisses me softly, like I might disappear. Before the kiss can go any further Connor ruin the mood.

"Get a room." Followed by Matt's catcall. I pull my middle finger at them and Matt bursts out laughing. The whole clan is walking down the path now. Oliver sighs and leans his head against the tree next to mine. I laugh softly next to him. I can see my dad hitting Connor on the back of the head. Connor walks past us and grabs Oliver by the back of the shirt. Connor and Matt then start ragging on Oliver about our kiss.

'You coming?' My dad links me, concern lacing every word.

'Yup. I just need a minute.' I link back. Everyone walks towards the grounds leaving me alone with only a tree keeping me upright. I can feel the pit form in the middle of my chest. Doctor Rogues said to sing Disney songs when I start to feel anxious. It's supposed to male me relax and feel comforted by the familiarness of them.

"The second star to the right" deep breath.

"Shines in the night for you" deep breath.

"To tell you that the dreams you have

Really can come true" deep breath.

When I collect myself enough to face the general public I head on a slow walk towards to training grounds. Kimmy is waiting for me in our little spot but she's staring at the other side of the field. Jackson is standing with the rest of 'The Golder Group' and the Alphas oldest sons. Poor Oliver is already training with my dad.

'She's looking at me.' Jackson links me.

'You should come say hi.' I suggest. Jackson then splits from the group and walks towards Kimmy. I reach her before he does. She turns to me in a bit of a panick.

"Oh my god. Jacksons coming over here. I can't believe you are lucky enough to be his girlfriend." Kimmy starts to get a bit jumpy.

My relationship with Jackson is weird. We're labeled as a couple but actually we're just friends with benefits and not even all the way. It started when we both turned 13 and we really liked each other so we started going out and became boyfriend and girlfriend (like you do when you're 13). The next year with the whole mate thing our relationship got complicated. Jackson and I were holding hands in the corridor and Oliver was sucking face with his girlfriend at the time, Alice (ugh). When Oliver caught my sent he went a bit crazy, especially because I smelt a bit like Jackson. A fight broke out, people had to intervene (Thank God Matt was still at school then), we were sent to the principals office and parents were called. It was all round a s**t show. My anxiety went off the charts with the whole incident so I stayed home for the next few days. I couldn't see or speak to anyone. When I eventually went back to school the first thing I saw was Alice all over Oliver in the hall. I started having a panick attack but I was so mad that I muscled through it. I saw Jackson by his locker which was right in line with Oliver and Alice. I walked past them, straight to Jackson and kisssed him. It was an awkward 13 year old kiss but a kiss non the less, my first kiss. This started a whole nother fight. Eventually Oliver and Alice broke up but me dating Jackson was always the perfect excuse. Jackson doesn't mind either because we can let off steam about our mate problems and the other one understands. It also helps with insight because we are in the same situation.

'I need to tell you something.' I link Jackson.

'Okay?'

'Oliver kissed me.'

'Lucky dick.' I laugh out loud at his comment. We let things slide when it comes to mates. But that comment was priceless.

"Hey Kimmy." Jackson reaches us and smiles goofily at Kimmy.

"Hi Jackson." A blush crosses her cheeks.

"Am I interrupting anything?" He asks but doesn't really care if he is.

"Kimmy and I were supposed to train today but I'm not feeling so great. Kimmy maybe Jackson could take your session today?"

"That sounds good." Kimmy bites her lip and Jackson looks fit to burst with happiness.

'Thank you.' He all but shouts down the link. I smile and walk back to my house to have a moment alone. On the way Matt catches up to me.

"You okay?" He asks. I plaster a very convincing smile onto my face and turn to face him.

"Yup. I just need the bathroom and something to drink."

"Just checking." He smiles back.

"Thank you Matt." I squeeze his arm before heading to the house.

~

I'm exited for the baby session but it flies by too quickly. Kimmy plays a cute last song.

'My shiny teeth and me

My shiny teeth that twinkle, just like the stars in space

My shiny teeth that sparkle, adding beauty to my face

My shiny teeth that glisten just like a Christmas tree

You know they'd walk a mile just to see me smile

My shiny teeth and me'

Matt and I go into a laughing fit after this song. It brings back memories of Fairly Odd Parents when we were little. It takes me back to ice lol lies in the pool and evening cuddled up on their couch. I'm so lucky to have a family like them.

Finally for the dreaded session. Connor immediately grabs me to be his sparing pair. He shoes this every session and every session I put him on his a*s. He's arrogant and needs to be nocked down a few pegs. We start easy until he makes a stupid comment.

"You are so sexy in those tight pants. I bet what's underneath is even sexier." He whispers so only I can hear. Arrogant a*s! I'm done playing games. I make a move that lands him face down in the dirt. I can hear a sting of curses leave his mouth. What's worse is Alpha Dixon and his companions have come to watch. He gets up and we start sparing again. Connor is angry now. He tries to land an excellent blow that would have me on the floor but silly him, I taught him that move. I just move out the way and he falls face first into the dirt again. You know the saying about getting back up again, well Connor is taking it very literally. We start sparing again and Kimmy plays a great song. I start singing and dancing to the music.

'Ain't tryna be cool like you

Wobblin' around in your high heel shoes

I'm clumsy, made friends with the floor

Yeah, ain't tryna be cool like you

Wobblin' around in your high heel shoes

I'm clumsy, made friends with the floor

Two for one, you know a b***h buy four

And two left feet, you know I always drop

First thing a girl did was a bop

I'm the whole damn cake and the cherry on top

Shook up the bottle, made a good girl pop' Connor landed on his back but was quickly up and angrier than ever.

'You ain't even here to party

Ken in the club tryna pipe a Barbie

I don't wanna go, go, go with the flow

Back bend 'til I touch my toes

I don't wanna row, row, row the boat

Wrist full of rocks and I hope I float

Big up yourself 'cause you know they don't

I chew, chew, chew 'cause they hope I choke

I'm a b***h, I'm a boss

I'm a b***h and a boss, I'ma shine like gloss' Connor was on the floor again and Alpha Cohen ended the sparing.

"I told you she was good." Alpha Cohen said to Alpha Dixon.

"Can't believe I ever doubted you." Alpha Dixon replied. What was amazing about our back was that no one saw me as a girl. I am a warrior. So me beating Connor wasn't a girl beating a guy it was the future Beta besting the future Alpha.

'Next time, don't be such a dick.' I link Connor. He glares at me.

'Oh and you'll never see how sexy I am underneath.' I throw his words back at him making him scowl at me. The training time is over now so I decide to put my ear phones in and do some archery to unwind from today's events.

'I could set this song on fire, send it up in smoke

I could throw it in the river, watch it sink in slowly

Tie the pages to a plane, and send it the moon

Play it for the world but it won't mean much unless I sing this song to you'

'So little time

Try to understand that I'm

Trying to make a move just to stay in the game

I try to stay awake and remember my name

But everybody's changing

And I don't feel the same'

I didn't realise how late it was until I couldn't see my target because it was so dark. I packed my bow and arrows away and made my way back home. Chris would be gone by now, back to the city and his art job. Dad would be out doing patrol so it would just be me. I really shouldn't be alone tonight.

'Hey. You busy?'

'Never if you need me.'

'Wanna watch a movie? We can get pizza.'

'That sounds great.'

I then spend the rest of my evening watching a movie and eating pizza snuggled up with my mate. I always feel peaceful when I'm with him. Somewhere durning the movie I drift off into the kind of peaceful sleep I only have when I'm with him. I fall asleep to Kung Fu Panda and the smell of the salty ocean breeze on a summers day while lying with my head on Olivers chest. Why can't everyday end like this?