Fierce Nervous Beta

Gina’s drinks, Blake’s Pills, My Mozambique Party

There's a soft knock at my bedroom door before Kade walks in. I pause Peter Pan and wiggle over so he can sit on my bed with me. He takes his shoes off and climbs under the covers.

"You okay?" He asks while stroking my hair.

"No. You?"

"No." He huffs out and reaches for the remote to turn Peter Pan back on. I grab the cookie jar on my bedside table and we both take a peanut butter cookie. Neither of us say anything till the movies done. Kade switches the TV off when 'The End' appears on screen. He then turns to me looking grave.

"I f****d up Kat." He whispers. I sit up and look at him to let him know he has my undivided attention. "With Lizzy. I thought she might, maybe, possibly, somehow, be my mate. It wasn't a strong feeling so I ignored it and her and hoped it would go away. But it didn't and when she found her mate, I was destroyed. My wolf wouldn't talk to me. I felt like there was this hole in my chest. Whenever I even think of her my heart beats faster and I feel happy. I don't know hats happening. What's going on Kat?" His voice is so hurt. Oh Kade.

"You're her second chance mate. I'm sorry. I'm trying as hard as I can to get her other mate to accept the rejection or Luna Dawn will break it. I'm fixing it Kade but you need to go and talk to Lizzy. You need to tell her what's going on." My voice isn't strong. It isn't a leaders voice. It's broken because at the moment I'm broken. He just nods at me. "Now. You need to go talk to her now. She needs hope. You need hope. Hell, I need hope. Just go talk to her." He gets a gust of courage and stands, making his way towards the door. He stops in the door way.

"Thank you Kat." He says with a smile on his face and hope in his voice. And again I'm left alone with my thoughts. My ankle's fully healed like Doc said it would be. I walk out onto my balcony and look at the ocean.

'Can I take moms boat out?' I link my dad.

'It is perfect weather for being on the water.' He links back.

I slip my costume on and grab my wetsuit. I head downstairs and make sure the boats ready before linking The Golden Group and my other family. 'Anyone up for some snorkeling?'

Everyone except Lizzy and Kade say yes. Gavin walks over to hitch a ride while everyone else is meeting us at the estuary for launching. Before long we're out on the water. Gina and Matt stay in the boat to do whatever Gina and Matt do. Connor and Leila brought their own boat out and haven't said a word to anyone except for Leilas rude greeting to Gina at launch that we all laughed at. Jackson and Kimmy are snorkeling down at the reef and pop up for air every now and then. Gavin and I are floating on the surface with a beer in hand. And Oliver is in the boat doing some work stuff. My moms MP3 player hooked up to a speaker playing old music like Seventeen by Simone Webbe.

"Okay. I'm coming in." Gina announces and takes her dress of so she's just in her costume and jumps off the boat and all but on me. I scream and she giggles endlessly.

"Do you really wanna play like that?" I ask her. I then dive down and pull her leg so she comes with me. When we resurface we both giggle and grab some goggles so we can snorke on the reef.

~

The sun is already setting by the time we've got the boat out of the water.

"You coming to the party later?" Gina asks me while getting in her car.

"Of course." I tell her. Her and Matt pull away while she waves to me. Leaving Oliver and I standing alone. There was an awkward tension between us. He hasn't spoken to me at all today. We both just stood and watched Gina and Matt drive away.

"You need a lift back?" I asked and walked back to my moms car.

"We need to talk." He turned to me with a serious look on his face. I nodded.

"Okay."

"Yesterday in my dads office…" he trails off

"Listen, you weren't supposed to see that. My dad's the only person other than my mom who's seen me have a panick attack. It's scary for everyone involved so I try keep as many people as possible away from it. I haven't had one in a while and that one was pretty bad." I pause before saying what I really need to say. "That's what I'm protecting you from." His head snaps up and he locks eyes with me. Those pretty eyes that look like raging storm clouds when he's angry. Why's he angry?

"You don't need to protect me!" He walks towards me and pins me against the side of the car. "My entire life purpose is to protect you. To make you happy. To love you. Stop worrying about me. I can handle it. Maybe I can even make it better. You deserve the world. Let me give it to you. Let me do what I was always supposed to do. I promise I'll protect you and love you." He leans down and presses his lips against mine. The kiss is passionate and possessive. I melt in his arms. I wrap my arms around his neck and kiss him back. He pulls away and I feel empty.

"I'm here, when you're ready. I'm here and ready." He walks to his car that I hadn't notice was there. I lean against the car door in an attempt to regain myself. I run my hands through my hair. I can hear his car pull away. Oh f**k you Oliver Finley. That was not fair. I'm going to go to the party and get so wasted I'll forget this happened.

~

Any and everyone was here in the pack house for the graduates party. High school was finally over and now I was standing in the middle of my graduation party and just wanting to get drunk. I see Gina and Matt at the bar and walk over to them.

"What'd you like doll?" Gina shouts over her shoulder.

"Anything to get me drunk quick." I shout back. She hands me a glass of something and I chug it. Gina knows me so well so hands me another glass that looks the same as what she's drinking. She then links arms with me and we head to the couches were people are doing some kind of drugs. We plop down and of course Kade is in the middle of everything.

"Here. One of those and two of these and watch the walls begin to breathe." He pushes 3 pills over while quoting Nickelback. I placed the pills on my tongue and washed them down with my drink. I learned a long time ago not to question what Kade handed me because it worked and I probably wouldn't take it if I knew what it was. You'd think I'd be more cautious after last time when the whole Golden Group woke up in some fancy hotel in New York with a room filled with drunk strippers, a vegan w**d dealer named Siobhan and a few very famous actors and singers while the 6 of us were lying in a shallow bath of the best milk chocolate. The weirdest part of that story is that everything was paid for but we still don't know who paid for it. Kade looked me right in the eyes from across the table.

'You were right.' He linked.

'I always am. What specifically was I right about?' I link back. What ever those pills are they work quickly and well.

'Me and Lizzy. She wants me when her and Mrs whatever are no longer.' He smiles at me from across the table but he looks a bit fuzzy round the edges.

As the music blares, Gina and I take over the Dace floor. When Aleo Black’s ‘Make Way’ comes on we freak out. For this part Gina and I step down onto chairs and then to the floor for each make way. We then dramatically move through the crowd like we are truly performing. No one protests because they must be enjoying our non sober antics.

'Make way for me, make way for me

You know I'm gonna be legendary

Make way for me, make way for me

You know I'm gonna be legendary

Are you ready? Make way for me, make way for me

Better make way 'cause I'm coming through (legendary)

Are you ready? Are you ready? Make way for me, make way for me, legendary

You know I'm gonna be legendary.'

We continue entertaining and getting high and drunk the whole night. We even belly dance to Cobrastyle. Our most loved performances were to Mustang Sally by The Commitments; Rock Your Body by The Black Eyed Peas; Hotel Room Service by Pitbull (this one got the whole crowd dancing very inappropriately) and GDFR by Flo Rida (probably because we kissed when those lyrics came on) which then lead to a Flo Rida marathon with Low, Right Round, Whistle. Whistle then led to Jason Derulo's Wiggle and Talk Dirty. Some we play Love Shack by The B-52's. After Love Shack I grab Gina and Lizzy on my way over to Kade, Gavin and Jackson.

"Let's go to Mozambique." I shout over the music.

"Hell f*****g yes!" Kade shouts and downs a shot. Gina waves our passports pack in the air. We decided it would be useful a while back. Not that we need it when traveling from pack to pack. All 6 of us make our way to the planning strip and plane parking on territory. Gavin doesn't drink and has a pilots licence so we are soon in the air and on our way. I know a friend in Mozambique who owns a little place that is stunning. I pick up the phone and he is exited for us to get there.

The flights long but we keep busy with booze and pills. We're not allowed to smoke anything because it might affect Gavin's flying. We land on my friends territories landing strip and like out the plane. It's dark when we land and she looks drunk already too.

"BEE" I tackle her in a hug.

"NINA" She's just as aggressive with hugging me. "Lets PARTY!" She shouts and raises a cup. We head to her stunning 'shack' which is more like a stunning cottage on the beach. She uses it as a club called 'Love Shack' and the party's already raging when we arrive. Gina grabs my arm and we head into the mix. Honestly it's a miracle I remember my name at this stage. The rest of the night is a blur of drinking, taking pills from Kade and dancing with Gina. I vaguely save Gavin kissing Bee to my memory. This did exactly what it was supposed to do.