CHAPTER ELEVEN PEARL POV I walked slowly and lifelessly on the roadside, barefooted. I had long thrown away my heels. My life was meaningless. There was literally nothing to live for and nothing ever went the way I wanted. I was tired of living, I felt the urge to jump into the road and get crushed by one of the moving cars but only one thing held me back. My grandmother, I had to see her. She was currently in the hospital and I had no idea how she was faring. I didn't even dare to ask Ivan. Ms Alcott had thrown me out of the church and it was already night time. I was lost and I did not know my way around. This was a new environment. And Ivan, he just left me to my fate. I cried helplessly as I felt the urge to find him wherever he would be and drive a knife into his heart. I hated