Saving The Broken Soul

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Abigail's POV :-

Do you ever feel that your life is not worth living? Do you ever think that you are the real reason behind everyone's sorrow? Do you ever see so much hate in someone's eyes that you want to kill yourself?

I did and still have the same feeling about myself. I am the reason that my mother is not with us anymore. I am the reason why Dad has become so distant with everyone and also I am the one who brings misfortune to this pack. I am not worth living but I am so much of a coward to take my own life by myself so like always I will go with the flow to see how much more is there to witness in the future. It's not like anything can change in a period because it's me we are talking about who has never gotten her father's love or appreciation for a second in her life.

From childhood onwards, I have been trying to remove the tag of worthless from my head but it seems like every time I fail to do that. I have always tried my best to make everyone happy yet there is something where I am lacking behind. However, this time I will be doing the right thing to bring happiness in my father's life. I know how much this pack means to him so if by sacrificing myself can bring bliss for him, then I am ready to do that. I just hope that now I can have a little place in his heart.

I am Abigail Wilson, the only daughter of the great alpha Thomas Wilson of the Mighty Crescent Pack. Everyone thinks I live the life of a princess because in everyone's eyes, there is nothing my Dad loves more than his darling daughter. But the reality is a whole different story. For him, I have only one identity and that is the murderer of his mate.

When my mom got pregnant with me, the doctor told her to that the pregnancy could put her life in danger as her womb was too small to hold a full-term baby. So she was suggested to get an immediate abortion so that her life could be saved. But she didn't listen to anyone, not even Dad and decided to enjoy her pregnancy like any other first time mother. Everything was going good but one day she fell down the stairs when she was in eight months of pregnancy. The doctor had to perform an emergency c-section on her. But at the end, my mom couldn't be saved. From that day onwards, I have become the bad luck for my Dad.

When I was little I couldn't understand why he never took me in his arms or sing me lullaby like other father. But year by year I started to learn everything and finally on my sixteenth birthday, he told me everything including how he never wanted to become a father especially of a girl child. He told me that I was the reason why he had to lose his mate, his love.

After knowing everything how can I think of my happiness when my father is living with so much pain. So, I have decided to do whatever he wants and also that's why I never tried to find my mate. If my father can't have his mate, my mom with him because of me then I also should never have a mate.

It's been four days since Dad has announced my marriage with Alpha Leonard Ruso of the Royal Majestic Pack which will be happening in the upcoming week. Although I have heard a lot about him but never met him before and I don't think I will be meeting him before the wedding day. Because apparently he doesn't have time for unnecessary things. It's not like I am going to play happy family with him because I am only marrying him because to fulfill my father's wish. So, I don't care if he wants to meet me or not.

There is a farewell party in the packhouse so every one of us is very emotional and with moist eyes, we are preparing for the day. Apart from that, the news of my marriage has already been declared to our relatives along with neighboring packs and many has come to congratulate me on my new life. Although every one of us has a smile on their faces to show happiness but in reality, there is no happiness in my heart.

When any werewolf turns sixteen years old, he or she gets to meet their mate but even though I am 22 years old, I have not met my mate till to. Not that I have any desire left to meet him because there is no need for it anymore. But I can’t blame anyone but me for the life I have chosen to lead, the life where I have chosen my father over my destined mate. I am marrying a person who is not my mate because I want my father’s acknowledgment. It may sound horrible and I know Moon Goddess will punish me for this crime but as a daughter, I am bound to accept whatever my father orders.

"Abi, please help me." Mia, my best friend yells while running inside the kitchen with Ryker, her mate on her toes.

"Why are you running like a headless chicken?" I ask looking amused at the two.

"Your dear best friend has painted my nails in rainbow colors when I was sleeping and now she is not accepting her fault." Ryker replies picking up Mia on his shoulder like a sack of potatoes.

"Noooo! He is lying." Mia screams making me close my ears before I glare at her which makes her shut up.

"You two get out of here and let me work." I tell them.

"Oh, come on bestie. This party is for you so you should sit down and let others work." Mia says still hanging on her mate's shoulder like a monkey.

"I am not a lazy bum like you so I am not going to sit and let others work when I m fully capable of helping them." I reply stirring the pasta in the pan.

"Learn something from her. I really don't know what you will be teaching our future kids." Ryker tells Mia who slaps him on his ass making him curse aloud.

This time I can't help but giggle while the other older females in the kitchen blush seeing the two. I finally control my laughter and shoo them away from the kitchen so that we can work in peace.

Just as I am going back to cooking I hear Dad calling my name so I ask one of the females to put the pasta in a bowl because it's ready. Then I walk out of the kitchen and soon reach the living room where my Dad is sitting with his Beta Alex, Ryker's father.

"Yes, Dad. How can I help you?" I ask softly.

"Your mother-in-law has sent this for you and want you to wear whatever is inside on the wedding day." Dad replies handing me a package that looks expensive from the outside.

"Okay." I say.

"Abigail, how is everything going in the kitchen?" Uncle Alex asks with a twinkle in his eyes which makes a chuckle.

"Everything will be ready in a few minutes and don't worry you will be the first one to taste every dish." I assure him knowing his love for any type of food.

"That's why you are my favorite." I giggle before bidding them goodbyes and go to my bedroom to see what's inside the package.

My bedroom is average size and has everything necessary to make it cozy. I love to make small things from scratches so multiple handmade showpieces can be seen in a corner of the room. There is a queen-size bed that is adorned with silk bed sheets. The curtains are also made of silk but they are Mia's choice.

I heave a sigh when I realize that I have to get ready for the party or Mia will insist on doing my makeup which I don't want at all. It's not like I don't like makeup but Mia is on a whole different level. She likes to experiment with her and also others looks. So, I try to stay away from her hands because I don't want to become a part of her experiment.

Just then my eyes fall on the package in my hands so without delaying I start opening the wrapper around the package. When the wrapper comes out, I find another box inside but from the outside its looks like a jewelry box. So, with cautious hands, I open the box and my eyes widen seeing a diamond set inside it.

No doubt the set is beautiful but for some reason, I don't want to keep it. It's making me feel like a gold digger to accept such an expensive gift from someone whom I only met once. So, with that thought in mind, I close the jewelry box and decide to call my soon-to-be mother-in-law. I take my cellphone from the nightstand and dial the number which I have saved a few days ago. However, the call is picked up by a little baby.

"Hewo? Who dis?" A little curious voice asks who sounds like a baby girl.

"I am Abigail. Can I talk to Mrs. Ruso?" I let out gently.

"Glama no ere." The baby replies cutely.

"Okay, then I will call later." I tell her.

"Why no talk wif me?" Awe, she is so adorable. I would have squish her cheeks if she was in front of me.

"Sorry, baby. I thought you might not be interested in talking to strangers." I reply.

"Oopsie! Daddy say no talk stlangel." She answers and I can imagine her little lips jutting out in a pout.

"Don't worry, I won't tell your daddy that you have talk to me." I tell her.

"By the way, what's your name baby?" I ask.

"Me ish Sarah." She replies cutely.

"Your name is very nice baby." I compliment because it's true that her name is as sweet as her voice.

"Tank you." She replies shyly.

"Okay Sarah I have to go now because my friend is calling for me. I will talk to you later, okay?" I let out when Mia walks inside my room.

"Okie." I can hear the sadness in her voice making my heart clench but it's getting late and I have to get ready for the party.

"Don't worry, sweetie. I will surely call you tomorrow and I don't break my promise." I assure her hoping it will brighten her mood.

"Tanks Gil. Bye Bye." She replies happily.

"Bye baby." I answer and disconnect the call before turning to face my crack-headed best friend who is looking at me like I am some ghost.

"What's with this face?" I ask getting up from the bed.

"Who were you calling baby?" She asks raising an eyebrow at me.

"Sarah." I reply looking through my closet to see what I can wear for the party.

"Now who the hell is this Sarah?" She asks with a scowl on her face.

"I don't know who she is. When I called Mrs. Ruso, Sarah I mean the toddler received the call and told me that her gradma was not there." I reply taking out a beige color romper along with a denim blazer out of the closet.

"Why would the baby call your soon-to-be mother-in-law grandma?" I groan because this girl can ask hundreds of questions at a time.

"It doesn't matter why Sarah call Mrs. Ruso because right now if we don't get ready then we have to face my dad's wrath." I tell her.

"Oh, my Moon Goddess! Come on you lazy girl, get ready." She yells out while rushing into the washroom making me shake my head. While she uses my washroom I put the jewelry box inside the closet securely.

After five minutes later she comes out wearing a short dress making me roll my eyes at her. It's so cold outside and this girl is wearing only a short dress which won't be able to get her warm. However, I decide not to tell her anything because when it comes to fashion, she doesn't listen to anyone.

I get inside the washroom and take a quick shower. I wipe the excess water from my body using a towel and then apply body lotion to keep my skin hydrated. Then I start doing my makeup which I like to keep natural and after everything I put on the outfit I have chosen. For hair, I let it slide down my back because I love the feeling of my long hair which reaches nearly my waist.

'I don't want to go to the party.' Emery, my wolf mumbles in the mind link.

"We don't have another choice, Em." I reply softly with a sigh.

"Yes, we have and you know it. You just don't want to do that." She retorts harshly making me clench my eyes shut. I don't like it when we fight because she is my other half and I love her a lot.

"Please not again, Em. Yes, you are right I have another option which is getting against Dad's decision but I don't want to do that. He has already lost Mom because of me and that's why he never acknowledge me as his daughter. So, when I have gotten the chance to make him happy I won't let go of this opportunity." I answer before cutting the mind link.

I wipe the tears that have managed to slip past my eyes before fixing my makeup and walk out of the washroom to find Mia sitting on the bed. Upon seeing me she gets up and hugs me as if sensing my distress. This time, I can't control my tears anymore. Heavy sobs break through my body because finally, everything catching up with me.

"Shh, calm down Abi." Mia tries to console me but she is also crying with me. She is the only one who knows the reality of Dad and my relation. However, I have told her not to disclose it in front of anyone.

"I don't want to do this, Mia. Emery is also angry with me because I am not waiting for our mate." I let out with a whimper.

"I really don't know what to tell you because as your best friend I know how much you crave for your father's love but on the other hand as a shewolf, I know how it feels to being loved by your mate." She says while rubbing my back. I pull away from the hug and wipe the tears with my palms.

"Let's go downstairs." I tell her.

"You can't just bottle up your pain like nothing is wrong. Please at least for one time, talk to your father and tell him what you want." She tries to change my mind but I shake my head at her.

"There is only one thing I want and that is his acceptance of me as his daughter." I reply with finality in my voice.

Life is nothing but a deal that every person has to make to survive the harsh reality of their existence. However, some people out there are exceptionally different and that's what makes them superior to others. Every person wants to achieve something that is beyond their limit although that never stops them from chasing the exotic thing.

But I don't want to be the superior. I just want to be the daughter of my father on whom he will be proud. So proud that he will say happily that 'she is my daughter' which I have never heard him say about me.