Chapter Two
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Chapter Two
We stood and watched as the coffin was brought in to the church, It was a lot, I had to look away, the tears that filled my eyes burned. And the lump in my throat felt like it was choking me. I grabbed a tissue from my pocket and wiped my nose and then the tears finally broke over my water lines.
'Are you ok?' Ava asked me quietly. She was upset, but she wasn't crying. Ava always was stronger than me. She was older, and she always looked down on me. Called me weak. She was such a b***h growing up, but she was still my sister.
I kept opening and closing my mouth like some sort of retarded fish. I couldn't speak so I just nodded. She took my hand and squeezed it.
The vicar started reading though his speech and telling us things about grandma that even I didn't know, which was weird, but I remembered all the stories she told us when me and Ava were younger. She wouldn't read us story books, she would tell us stories from her life. Her travels, holidays, what she remembers from when she was little, it was special.
Of course, Ava was older so she was never that interested in knowing much, but I was. I found it so fascinating. She gave me a shoe box full of photos and mementoes of her life not long before she passed away. I haven't been able to bring myself to look inside it yet.
'Now, can you all please stand and sing Pearl's favourite son with me'. As he said that, the piano started playing and every one started singing altogether. It was too much. I couldn't handle it. I let out a loud sob and bolted out of the church.
As soon as I was out side and alone, I broke down and cried so hard. I was hysterical.
I couldn't believe grandma was really, truly gone. I wiped my tears away but more just replaced them. I heard the church door open and an arm went around my shoulder.
'Are you ok Tilly?' It was Ava. I looked up and saw that her boy friend Chad was with her too. I always liked Chad, he was cute and sweet and so kind.
'No! Of course, I'm not ok! How are you so calm!' I practically screamed at her, she rolled her eyes and dropped her arm from my shoulder.
'Don't be so over dramatic Tilly, just because I'm not a blubbering mess like you, doesn't mean I'm not upset'. I couldn't believe she was behaving like this! No.. wait, this was Ava, yeah, i could believe it.
'That's enough babe, your sister is upset. She had a right to be'. I heard Chad scold her. She said some thing but it was to quiet for me to hear exactly what.
'You now what Ava, go to hell!'. I screamed before storming off. I was furious! She was so self absorbed and selfish. Even today it had to be the ''Ava show''. b***h!
I walked up the little hill that over looked the church and the cemetery, there was a bench up here under the tree, so I sat down and just put my head in my hands. Crying quietly. I felt so lost. I looked up at the sky, hoping in some way Id feel a bit closer to grandma, but all I saw was dark grey rain clouds.
It wasn't going to be long before it started raining, again.
I looked and saw Ava and Chad walking up the hill towards me and I rolled my eyes. Couldn't they just leave me the f**k alone?!
'I'm going back inside. I'm not missing my last chance at saying good bye to grandma Pearl because you can't handle life!' She snapped but turning around and walking away again, but Chad stayed with me.
'Aren't you going with her?' I asked with out looking at him. He came and sat down on the bench next to me and sighed.
'Nah, have a feeling you might need the company more. It's a hard day for you, huh?'
'Yeah... Yeah, you could say that'. He patted my knee.
'I'm sorry, I know you adored your grandmother and she was such a lovely woman'.
'Yeah, she was, but I guess that's the thing about death, it doesn't care who you are' He nodded
'That's apart of life though. She was loved and she will be sorely missed'. This time, I nodded.
We stayed, just sat in silence for what seemed like forever. It was nice sitting in silence but also having the company. I never understood why some one as sweet and kind as Chad was with someone like Ava. It was like the were complete opposites.
I always thought he was cute, from the first time she brought him on for spring break last year. They had been together for a while so he obviously liked some thing about her, what exactly, god knows, but there was clearly some thing.
I kept stealing little looks at him out of the corner of my eye, but he didn't seem to care, infact, every time he caught me staring, he would smile.
'Thank you, Chad'. I told him honestly and sincerely
'Why thank you?' I shrugged.
'Just.. thank you'. He smiled and put his arm over my shoulder and the silence continued, but it was ok, we didn't need to talk any more..
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