That's not who I am!

Chapter 5

JANE'S POV

"Stop fussing, I'm okay" I tell Layla after she asks how I'm feeling for what feels like the millionth time since I got moved out of the ICU. I've only been in this room a hour but she is worried laying on a bed being moved has tired me out. "I'm just checking, you look pale and well you nearly died. You can't blame me freaking out" Layla says and she is right I can't blame her but if anyone else asks I may lose my mind. "Okay, but just relax already" I say as luke says "Well, I've set up the ipad. You git some awesome gifts in that hamper" and I did. They went all out for sure. "Thanks" I say as I take the ipad and lay it on my legs. The door knocks and then opens. In walks a old looking man who I've not seen before.

"Jack, is this official or none official business? Since your not in your uniform" Cara asks. "Hi Cara, it's both since technically it's my day off but this is rather important. However I also promised Mt wife dinner afterwards so I don't have time to change. Forgive me, I heard Miss Nelson has woken up and I do need to speak with Miss Nelson" This Jack person says looking at me. "It's Jane and you are?" I say not recognising him at all. "This is the police commissioner Jane. He is now leading your case" Cara says smiling at me.

"Yes, but I'm not here about that particular case today Jane. Cara do not kill me but I do need to speak with Jane about a different matter" Jack says looking at me and I wonder what he needs to talk about. I'm suddenly confused.

"What do you mean?" Liam asks followed by Luke saying "Just tell us already".

"I need to speak with Jane alone or have her grant permission for me to speak before you all unfortunately and even more unfortunately time isn't on our hands. The judge is holding off as long as possible to prevent it being all over the news. Jane, I need you to think back to a few years ago where something bad happened. I know your know what I'm talking about, I'm guessing you have done what many victims have done and decided to just try forget about it. I've no idea if you have told anyone you may have you may have not. But something did happen and I suspect you don't have the fall facts about that day at all. I'd recommend you keep someone here with you for support but it's your choice who stays and who doesn't while we talk about this and I fill you in what we have found out. I can tell you two people have been arrested for that" Jack says as panic takes hold of my body. He can't be on about when I was raped surely but its the only thing I can think off and I can't figure out how he found out. I didn't tell a soul. And two arrrests there was only one person who did that. One monster.

"Jane, what's going on. What's he talking about?" Layla asks taking my hand.

"I'm not sure" I say before looking back at Jack his fave giving nothing away but his eyes look like they hold pity for me.

"I think you do, you would except one arrest. But we gave two people arrested. Like I said there's more to the story you don't know. It's really important I talk to you, but I need you to decide who can stay" Jack says my heart sinks as I say "You said it's going to reach the news?" and I fell sick to my stomach.

"Yes, I'm sorry but one of the arrests is Joe Nelson, your brother. He is already big in the public eye therefore the second there's wind of his arrest and he gets pulled before the judge tomorrow it's going to go big. So I'll ask again who do you want to stay?" Jack says "In that case everyone may as well stay if its going to go public. But I don't understand why he has been arrested for what I'm thinking off" I say

"What are you talking about?" Aaron asks.

"Yes, will someone tell us already?" Liam says as layla let's go of my hand my I grab it needing her to not leave me right now.

"Okay, in that case I need you all to be patient and stay calm for Jane's sake" Jack says looking around at everyone. When everyone agrees he looks back at me as he moves closer to the bed but stays standing at the foot of my bed and then smiles at me before he says "Jane I just want to check you understand this is about when you were raped and I can still continue" Jack says laylas grip on my hand tightens as she says "Your lieing, Jane would of told me" followed by Aaron saying "Excuse me?" at the same time Liam and Luke both say "Who did it". Then Cara follows it up saying "Keep yourselves in check and allow Jane to talk or you get out" By which point she is sat the other edge of my bed holding my hand.

"Yes, but I don't understand why my brother is involved he wasn't there" I say looking at Jack only not wanting to see everyone else faces just yet.

"I can explain that, but I'll start with after you were attacked. We had a letter come in anonymously. It stated they were sick of you being a victim to the public when they didn't know you were the first victim. It stated you had been a victim to crime that was in debt of Joe Nelson drug debt and that he originally wanted to exchange you as the debt to the drug dealer. But the drug dealer didn't want that, however someone else wanted you. They paid the debt and in exchange raped you as the p*****t because they wanted you. Your brother had recorded it. We even had the details where to find the footage on a USB stick. That gave us enough evidence to arrest Simon Hardy. He gave us to be able to arrest your brother Joe. He is currently being interviewed and will be charged by the end of the day, he will be before the judge tomorrow. We will need your statement at some point when your feeling better. But right now I'm just here to inform you of this" Jack says

"Your lieing" I say as sickness churns my stomach. "I'm so sorry Jane, I really wish I was. I had a update just before I came in here. Joe is laughing and said so what he didn't commit the crime even if he knew about it. I have no doubt he did this" Jack says and that does it I grab the blanket and start throwing up all over it trying to avoid anywhere else. Someone passes me a bowl pretty quickly which I take as I hear everyone at the same time asking if I'm okay or trying to offer comforting words.

LIAM'S POV

"No if its going to hit the papers tomorrow then we need to get Jane moved beforehand" I say standing in a empty room across from hers. "You can't just move her such a distance so soon" Dr Vanguard says

"I have a idea" Layla says and we all turn to face her. "Go ahead, it can't be worse than any of ours" Jack says "The maternity hospital is directly opposite. The reporters and everyone thinks she is in this hospital. why not just move her across the road where they have most stuff already?" Layla says. "It's not a bad idea, it can work and we can easily move Jane straight back over if anything happened" Dr Vanguard says "We would be better off moving in the middle of the night. I'll keep officers on the door here and undercover officers with Jane. It will make it harder for anyone to figure it out" Jack says. "We will have our men to" I say "I just want to know how quickly until we can move Jane back with us" My mum says

"Three days but there will be hoops and hurdles to overcome like having a doctor to hand the whole time and I'm willing to do that personally" Dr Vanguard says "I'm in as well" Mick says and I hadn't realised he had came in. I'm so stressed and pissed off how did I not notice he came in.

"Okay, it sounds like we have a plan" My dad says "Yeah, but most importantly what are we going to do about Jane overcoming all of this. I haven't seen Jane ever cry like that" Layla says as she starts to pace. "We will make sure Jane is okay, I promise" My mum says. "I agree, Jane definitely has alot going on and I don't think she is coping with it all. It's like she has been tipped over the edge now" Luke says "Alot, how did I not know she was raped! How didn't I know that I'm her best friend" Layla says spiralling. Luke walks over and hugs her as my mum says "Because Jane hid it well, me and Jack can both tell you how well victims can hide stuff. All we can do now is support her. I should of figured it out. All the signs were there, She doesn't date, she took longer to come around and open up infront of the men in our family. I should of known to" "Don't nest yourselves up, Cara you know as well as I do even with evidence some will still deny it. But presenting Jane with this knowledge she finally admitted it. She strikes me as someone who could just prevent it didn't happen and move on so long as people didn't know" Jack says

"I know that Jack, but I see Jane like a daughter. I should of done better" My mum says. "Okay enough beating yourselves up. It won't help, all we can do now is go forward. now we have come up with a plan let's work with it" My dad says.

"Okay, well I'm going to sit back with Jane hopefully she hasn't woken up yet" I say reaching my limit of being away from her.

JANE'S POV

"Jane, I need you to wake up sweety. I need to do some tests and then we're going to move you across the road. To help keep you as safe as possible" Dr Vanguard says and I know she knows I ain't sleeping because no doctor dives in like that. She knows I'm faking it. I just can't be dealing looking at everyone looking at me with there pity and sadness. It's all to much, they know I'm damaged goods and related to a sick monster. Just the thought makes me feel sick I think as Dr Vanguard says "Jane, I know your awake. I know it's alot to handle right now. What can I do to make it easier. Talk to me and we can deal with it together" and it makes me angry deal with it together. They don't have to deal with it, I'm living this nightmare. I open my eyes as I say "You should all just go away, who wants to deal with any of this. You all don't have to deal with it, you should all go. Don't tarnish your lives with me. I'm not going to bring any of you any good. You should of let them kill me when they had the chance!"

"Thats enough Jane, I know your hurting but you are not f*****g dieing for anyone. I need you!" Layla shouts then she bursts into tears before she says "I'm sorry, I shouldn't of shouted but you don't talk about dieing do you hear me".

"Baby girl, just tell us how we can help. I swear nothing bad will ever happen to you again. You need to trust me on that okay" and I turn and face him as I look him dead in the eye and say "Why are you still here? you know now I'm damaged goods now so just go" but he looks me back in the eye with just as much stubbornness and determination as he says "I ain't going anywhere and don't talk about yourself like that! Your not damaged your a warrior, your amazing and your perfect! So the sooner you see that the better life will be. In the meantime I won't have any issues letting you know that every damn second of every day"