That's not who I am!

Chapter 4

JANE'S POV

I wake up to see Liam fast asleep in the chair next to me. Everyone else has gone.

"He never leaves your side unless it's a bathroom break or he needs a shower even then it's only half hour" A nurse says very quietly seeing I'm looking at him.

"Let him sleep" I say "I intended to, how are you feeling?" The nurse asks. "My head still hurts a bit. My body hurts to just not as much and I could do with some food" I say

"Your due more medication, I'll get it sorted. What would you like to eat a sandwich or some toast?" The nurse asks.

"Toast please" I say "Okay, I'll get that sorted as well" The nurse says as she exits Liam wakes up hearing the door.. he sees the nurse leaving then looks at me. Liam then smiles before he says "Hey baby girl, how are you feeling?".

"I'm okay, why don't you go get some decent sleep?" I say as Liam stretches before he says "I'll not be able to sleep knowing your here. I'd rather know your safe, I'll sleep when your away from this place".

I take Liams hand and his blue eyes soften as he looks at me again as I say "I'm greatful you care, I really am. But please get some sleep. Even if it means someone else stays with me to give you peace of mind".

"Baby girl, don't worry about me. Just focus on getting yourself better" Liam says and I know I'm not going to win this battle right now. Maybe Luke or Cara might be able to convince Liam with me.

"Okay," I say slowly sitting up Liam quickly stands up and helps me. I move over a little before saying "At least sit next to me for a bit, them chairs are not comfortable"

"No, I don't want to hurt you. Your body needs rest not me" Liam says "Continue arguing and I'll have security kick you out and barr you until you had a good night's sleep" I say trying to give my stern look as the nurse comes back in with a tray no doubt my medication in.

"Baby girl even the armed officers outside that door couldn't get me to leave. So what makes you think you can?" Liam says

"I've got your medication, I'll grab your toast once I've administered it" The nurse says.

"Thanks" I say holding out the arm with my cannula in before I face Liam again and say "Please Liam, I feel awful as it is. I'll only stress out even more. Just sit next to me and relax for a little while".

"I wouldn't normally condone such antics, but at the same time stress is no good for Jane" The nurse says and I knew I'd like her. But I like her even more now.

"Fine, but only until you want to go to sleep" Liam says and then he gently gets onto the bed to sit next to me. I smile and the nurse does her best not to smile. Once she finishes administering my medication she leaves saying she will be back with my toast soon.

"I saw my parents before I heard you all talking to me.. it was brief. It happened a few times but these flashing lights kept dragging me back. I think that's when I was coding. Each time my parents kept giving me little bits of advice or wisdom, Always ended it with they loved me. But there main message was I needed to learn to trust people again and I think you would like my mum for this next bit but the last time I saw her she said it was about time I left the past in the past and dated again" I say and Liam looks at me the whole time as I speak whilst giving me his dashing smile.

"They sound nice. But what does she mean by leaving the past in the past?" Liam asks.

"Something happened in uni, I never told anyone about it. I'm not ready to either. But it's the reason I refuse to date. Thinking back though I thought that was rough, it's got nothing on the s**t storm going on in my life now though" I say and I'm not really sure why I've decided to tell Liam this now.

"Well baby girl, your not in this s**t storm alone anymore and when your ready to share the past s**t storm details you won't be alone in that anymore either" Liam says.

"Thanks, I'm just tired ever since my parents died I don't feel I've had a break, I was finally starting to feel like my life was coming together and then all this happened," I say

"Everything will be okay, trust me" Liam says as the nurse comes back in with my toast.

Whilst I eat the toast, I look at all the pillows around and come up with a plan to get Liam to actually get some decent rest.

So once I finished eating I moved the plate aside to the bedside table then start to rearrange the pillows to get comfortable as I say "Liam".

"Yes, baby girl?" Liam asks watching me as I continue to rearrange the pillows. "You know how I always give off this big independent strong, I don't need no one imagine especially with you. Well, it's been a hell of a few weeks and I don't feel like I have the energy to be independently strong right now. So I'm not ashamed to ask if you will just cuddle up with me just for a little while before you run away from the bed again" I say "Baby girl you never have to ask for a hug from me. Just take it" Liam says opening his arms as I finish off getting all the pillows where I want them. I cuddle into Liam making sure he has no where to run and he gently wraps his arms around me and the pillow cushion walls I've made where only one arm of Liams is gently resting against my back without any real pressure.

"Comfortable baby girl?" Liam asks as I smile at my mini-victory and close my eyes.

"Yes, this is really comfortable and the bad news is if you move especially the arm under the pillow under my neck you could trigger my head pain. So effectively you're trapped until I decide to move. Get some decent sleep. I don't plan on moving for a while" I say. Liam laughs a little as he says "You play dirty, but I can't say I hate it. If anything it's the opposite".

LIAM'S POV

"Jane, you need to wake up so I can adminster the next lot of medication" I hear the nurse say which wakes me up. I feel Jane stirring in my arms as she says "Okay, I just need a minute". "Baby girl the quicker we get it done the quicker you can get some more sleep" I say.

"I know. I just need a minute then I'll move" Jane says as I rub her back gently the hospital gown slightly revealing her bare back to me allowing me to run my fingers against her soft bare skin. A moment later Jane says sleepily "Liam, you won't run away the second I move will you? I know this started out me wanting you to get some decent rest. But karma seems to of struck because it is the safest I've felt in what feels like forever" and it's so adorable I think I just fell in love more with this woman. I lift my arm as I say "Baby girl, get comfortable I'm not going anywhere". With that Jane turns around taking the pillow between us with her as she keeps it to her stomach but her back becomes flush with my body she holds out her arm with the cannula in, to the nurse. Once the medication has been administered I gently lay my hand on the pillow. Jane holds my hand with hers as she says "Night" yet I know sunrise will be soon. I keep my word though as I say "Goodnight babygirl" and close my eyes going back to sleep.

The next time I wake up is when Dr Vanguard comes in to check on Jane. No sooner she has left happy how things have gone over night my parents arrive and Luke and Layla are not far behind with breakfast. That's when I decided to go have my morning shower whilst also getting someone on the case to discover what the hell has happened to my women in the past. I may have stayed calm last night knowing she needed that then but it didn't mean I wasn't angry and ready to tear the world apart to find out what happened.

As I walk back into Jane's hospital room she is sat up in bed and her boss mick is sat talking to her. a huge hamper basket is on the bed. All my family are either sat or stood around as Mick talks about the hamper his wife shopped for. Jane looks up and our eyes connect as she smiles before turning back to Mick and says "Your all so great. But you really didn't have to go through all that trouble for me. Honestly, I'll be okay"

"And, we all wanted to. Suzie even went and made the board of directors all contribute. There's loads of goodies in there and plenty to keep you occupied whilst you recover" Mick says. "I think it's all great and we all know how you hate to be laid up. Your have things to keep you distracted from going stor crazy" Layla says as I go stand next to my dad and luke.

"Excaulty that, I'm so glad your okay. I'll try pop back on my lunch break" Mick says standing up. "And you say I'm all work and no play" Jane says "I know, but we are swamped and I'm my favourite midwives down now" Mick says "I did tell you both to move with me" Layla says "My wife would kill me and you know it" Mick says laughing as Layla stands up and hugs him. Then he turns to Jane and pats her hand as he says "Seriously though, if I didn't have tbe family I would. You should definitely start over but in the meantime you know where I am if you need anything". Jane smiles as she says "I know, you told me already a dozen times. Don't worry, I'll be fine. Make sure to keep everyone on there toes, I don't need a encore of a revolving door of visitors just yet" which Makes everyone laugh or smile as Mick says "I've been doing just that. But you have to approve the guest list first anyway, there's a few so pissed because they can't get past security". "That's our bad, we wouldn't approve anyone except Mick" Layla says. "Well you can tell everyone I'm fine and I'll come see everyone as soon as I'm able to. I won't just disappear" Jane says which makes me and luke look at each other. We both giving the same look of not if we can help it. We don't trust everyone at all.

"Okay, well I really do need to go now. But I mean it call if you need anything" Mick says heading for the door. "I'll be fine, have fun" Jane says "Such a joker" Mick says followed by a wave and "Bye" to everyone and we all either say "bye" or wave back.

"Well now that Mick has gone you want to have that wash now or check out the gift basket?" Layla ask Jane as she sits on the edge of Jane's bed and I go take the seat Mick just left. "I don't know. It's probably just all your standard stuff" Jane says.