Her Secret Smile (#2)

Chapter- 11

11. "Too much love is really bad for the heart!!"

Roshini walked past them like they are not existing in front of her. Her expression was cool and normal. But inside she wanted to yell at them badly.

Nidhi noticed Siddharth and Aishwarya in a confused way, she knew he is having a secret feeling for Roshini but why he is talking with Aishwarya all the time? For a moment she felt whether her assumptions are false? But she doesn't know anything and it is only up to him.

Siddharth still talking with Aishwarya, gazed Roshini passing by. His face reflected a kind annoyance, he seemed to be talking with her but in reality, he is not even listening to anything that Aishwarya was speaking. When she has gone out of his sight he felt so restive like he did utterly a wrong thing.

"Shall we talk later, I am having some work," he told to escape and she allowed him reluctantly.

After Siddharth left for his class, Aishwarya went into her class with a great smile like she achieved something big. She was sitting behind Roshini and Nidhi's desk, it is very easy to listen to her blabbering.

Her friend asked about what she was talking with Siddharth this past ten minutes, for that the answer she told just shattered Roshini's heart into million pieces.

"Lovers have many things to talk, why you are asking that?" She giggled.

It just increased Roshini's anger to the hell, no one can explain how chaotic emotions she had at that moment. She stood up immediately and strolled out of the class. Whether to cry or to get angry or to be chill, she doesn't know how to react.

For all these days, she had a feeling that Siddharth was only for her, she never cared about others who had feelings for him but now to think that he is no longer belong in her heart gave a feeling that is unexplainable. She felt a part of her heart was missing.

She washed her face to erase the emotions that are hanging on her visage. She felt like crying but can't. In a disastrous struck way, she came out of the restroom. Surprisingly Nidhi was waiting for her outside.

She can understand how it will pain to see someone we love to be with another person. But she didn't show like she knew that fact.

"What happened Roshan? Is there any problem?"

"Nothing, just felt sleepy so I washed my face," she lied.

"Rosh, don't feel about anything. Everything will be alright," she told.

"Hmm," Roshini is not in the state to analyze what she is actually meaning.

When they are walking back to the class, Roshini didn't turn to the side of Siddharth's class which she does every time. The classes went, as usual, she seemed very calm and was listening to all the lectures keeping her broken heart aside.

During the lunch break, they went to their usual place to have their lunch. Nidhi decided to talk with Roshini about this so that she can feel some relief but still having no words to console her heart.

They remained silent and had their lunch, Nidhi talked about some random things to change her mood and Roshini smiled for her jokes and soon became normal.

During the afternoon, their class tutor informed them to leave for the ECE department since they are conducting some cultural program there, the permission to attend that was asked by their seniors and now they are also going there.

Roshini was not interested in going there, she knew he will be there as well. She doesn't want to see him. But due to Nidhi's compulsion, she went with her.

Like her guess, he was standing there with his friends when they entered the hall. He looked Roshini with a smile but she soon shifted her gaze like she didn't notice him.

Siddharth's face immediately turned sore. He became silent and sat with his friends in the eighth row. They were sitting behind Roshini and Nidhi. Beside them, Aishwarya and her friends were sitting. A total mess!

Ram said something to Gautham in his ears and he giggled looking Aishwarya and Siddharth. He became furious to know that his own friends were teasing like everyone.

"Stop it, Ram," he told like a warning and Roshini clearly hears what he is talking.

"Why? Do you know how happy I am for you both," he chuckled.

"Ram!" he gritted and looked at Aishwarya, she gave a blushing smile to him.

Siddharth then turned his gaze to Roshini, she is busily talking with Nidhi and smiling like she is alright.

Without knowing what to do? He simply looked at Roshini. Her yellow salwar was great on her. Her perfectly braided hair and bangles greatly attracted his eyes. 

This is not the first time he is admiring her but today she is looking extra beautiful. Day by day she is drawing him so close to her.

The function started with a devotional song, sang by a girl. Then the group dance competition started. Roshini felt so bored. Siddharth's friends were all whistling and dancing along with the song.

Most of them were dancing to the music off stage than watching it.

Nidhi seemed to be enjoying and Roshini just looking blankly at the stage.

After two performances, Roshini got up telling that she is leaving for the library and Nidhi preferred to stay and watch the performance.

Siddharth, watched her leaving the hall. He can't sit thereafter she left but he remained calm as always.

Roshini didn't go to the library instead her legs moved to the playground. 

She went to her favorite spot and sat there with almost tears welled in her eyes.

Roshini took her mobile and headphone, she turned on her playlist hearing songs in a high volume she closed her eyes and laid on her lap. It may be a temporary escape to avoid situations like this but how long she can do this.

After Roshini left, Siddharth called Nidhi.

"Where is Roshini?" he asked her in a curious tone.

"She went to the library," Nidhi smiled and turned.

Aww, Roshini you are in his heart, I am so happy for you she thought and grinned.

She again turned to him, "Why you are asking?" she asked to confirm her doubt.

"I... need to talk with her," he replied.

"She must be in the library, you go and talk with her if you want, okay?" she urged him.

"Oh," he sat there for some time, but soon he stood up to leave. His friends were not even minding him and busy enjoying the program.

He came out of the hall and took his bike to reach obviously to the library.

He parked and went inside and searched for her everywhere.

But she is not there. In disappointment, he stood before the library. The sky turned dark and a chill breeze stroked him.

He thought were she will be for a moment. He smiled as he found her. He didn't waste another second. He took his bike and drove in the direction of the playground.

Roshini raised her head when she heard a huge thunderstorm. The place seemed so quiet except for the oozing sound of the wind.

It is over don't think about him hereafter and concentrate on your work. He is nothing to you, she said that again and again.

Promise Roshini that you never ever turn to his side. It is dangerous, she assured herself to follow her mind. But her heart was telling something different. It is not obeying the rules and still those lingering feelings for Siddharth turning her stupid. She is fooling herself again.

Oh god, what can I do to get out of this she thought and slapped her forehead.

When she was in her thoughts her phone started to ring, it was Nidhi.

She attends the call to know what she is having.

"Hey where are you?" she asked in excitement.

"In the playground," she replied.

"Oh, if anyone came to see you?" Nidhi asked and that confused her.

"No, why?"

"Just I asked. The function is still going on, come and join me, Roshan."

"No, I will wait for you at the playground. I am feeling so tired Nidhar," she reasoned and Nidhi also accepted that.

Soon the rain started and Roshini doesn't know where to go and hide. To that, she doesn't bring her umbrella today.

She ran to the tree nearby and stood under that. It was raining beautifully, the smell of wet sand was better than any other perfume. The view of the grey sky is a masterpiece for her. Gazing the dancing trees and the buzzing wind where the true bliss lies.

Roshini took a huge breathe and smiled. It was the worst day of her life. One-sided love is stupid, its a waste of time, and it always sucks at the end. She learned all these things in one day. Great!!

When she was in her thoughts she felt someone's presence around her. She looked to see Siddharth on his bike, he got down instantly when he noticed her. He was fully soaked in the rain. His shirt was perfectly covering his toned muscles. He was stunning in her eyes, no one attracted her like Siddharth, no one made her heart to pound this way. Why him? What you did to me Siddharth she questioned. 

But the biggest question is why he is here?