In his grasp 2

Stupid Lauren!

The sea air was refreshing as I took deep breaths that filled my lungs. Ryan was sitting right next to me, comforting me as I cried. “Please don’t cry Lauren, he is a d**k and he doesn’t deserve you if he’s going to treat you like this” he said trying to calm me down. “I fell for it... again!” I sobbed and laid into his chest. He held me tighter and I couldn’t help myself but melt into his arms. “He got me back in his grasp yet again” I continued. He pulled me off of him gently to hold my face and look me deep into my eyes.

“Lauren, he is an arsehole and a cheat. Like I said before; your funny, smart, beautiful and deserve someone who won’t take advantage of you”. I gazed into his eyes and smiled as I remembered him saying it in the exact spot we are in now. He stroked my cheek to wipe my tears that fell and leant in closer to my face. 

“I will always be here for you. No matter when, no matter what, I am here” he whispered and continued to look deep into my eyes. He gently laid his lips onto mine and applied the smallest amount of pressure and I pushed against them. I kissed him harder and the passion between us grew as our lips entwined together. My heart was beating extremely fast and butterflies were flipping in my stomach. We stopped slowly, not moving our faces and opening our eyes. He suddenly looked regretful as I realised he still had Ashley. 

“Oh Ryan, I... I’m so sorry! I completely forgot about...” I stuttered with embarrassment and he looked down in shame. “I’m really sorry” I repeated and he shook his head.

“It was my fault, I should have thought”. I felt a pain shoot through my chest. I really hope this doesn’t ruin anything between us. 

“I was upset and I didn’t think” I excused and he looked back up at me. “Lauren it’s fine, honestly” he grabbed my hand and kissed it. 

“Maybe one day”. Those words were painful to hear and I pressed my lips together to try and compose myself. I looked at the time and sighed. “I know this is cheeky of me but I don’t suppose you could drop me to the garage could you? I need to collect my car and I don’t really want to ring Joe” I asked. “And I also don’t want to have to explain to Molly, she will probably try and chop his balls off”. Ryan giggled and smiled. “Of course” he said standing to his feet and holding out his hand for me. I grabbed it and he pulled me up. 

The drive to the garage was awkward and silent. I was feel extremely embarrassed and wanted to turn back time. That stupid Ashley has to ruin everything! If she wasn’t in the picture then Ryan wouldn’t be feeling guilty right now and we wouldn’t be sitting in this awkward silence. Minutes past and stared out the window just praying he would say something.

“I meant what I said Lauren”. I looked at him and flashed a smile at me. “Every word” he continued as he concentrated on the road. I blushed slightly and looked down at my hands to hide it. “Always” he repeated and I raised my head. “Ditto” I replied and he giggled slightly. We pulled up at the garage and Ryan pulled his hand break up. “Are you going to be okay?” He asked with genuine concern in his tone. I smiled at him and nodded. “Thanks Ryan, your a great friend” I replied clarifying that I understood we were just friends. His eyes lowered and then he smiled at me. I got out of the car and waved him off.

After getting my car and paying for the damages I drove down the lane to a lay by and got out. I pulled the lever on the chair to flip it forward and grabbed a blanket and my coat that was in the boot. I scrunched up my coat into a ball and laid it onto the side of the door to make it more comfortable to lay on. I placed my head down and covered my body with the blanket. The doors were locked the keys were in my pocket and the car was hidden by the bushes. I was safe and at least I had my blanket in the boot to keep me warm. I grabbed my phone from my pocket and unlocked it. There were texts from Joe asking me where I was and missed calls too. 

I rolled my eyes and shoved it into the holder of the door. I closed my eyes and tried to get comfortable. I just want to sleep this off and try to figure out what I was going to do.