Love Doesn't Exist

going back to my roots

Claire's pov

after a few more interviews with Te and Gus we go into a theatre with all the other cast and important people who made the new movie. when we get into the theatre we watch the new action movie that Gus has a roll in. at the end everyone goes into a another room where there's food and drinks. "I heard you have a daughter now?" liza koshy another famous actor says looking at me "yes liza this is Claire" Gus introduces us and I shake her hand "it's nice to meet you" I say smiling. "and you too" she says. then her and Te have a conversation so I go over to grab a drink. but I realize it's all alcoholic "Just take one anyway I won't tell." a deep voice says behind me and I turn around and see mike willson a teen actor who's a few years older than me. "umm what?" he smirks "how old are you?" he asks as he picks up two drinks "fifteen" is say and he shoves a drink in my hand. "here chill out" I sit the drink down "no thanks" I say firmly and he seems impressed. "well how bout you come back to mine tonight for the after party?" he says "no thanks" I say, he's kinda coming on sleazy now. he leans in too close to me and I can smell his disgustingly strong cologne. "come on honey I'd like to see what that dress look like on the floor" he goes to grab my arse but I grab his hand and grip it tightly squeezing it with all my might. his eyes Widen and his mouth drops open in pain and surprise. I lean in close to him this time and whisper "don't you f*****g dare touch me again without asking or lawyers will be invloved" I warn him my voice dangerously low almost growling, i stalk away. apart from that the rest of the night is a blur of meeting famous people. then finally at around 1am we get back to the hotel and I fall asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow. I wake up with make up smeared across the pillow. I check my phone there's missed calls from Jayden and Sam along with messages then I look at he time s**t it's 2pm. I sit up and ring back Jayden, he answers on the first ring "hello, Claire?" his eager voice comes through. "hey , I'm so sorry I got home late last night, I only just woke up and my phone was on silent." on the other end of the line I hear scuffling and muffled voices "you okay?" I ask "yeah, it's just that Sam, mike and tylor all want to talk to you" he says "put me on speaker" I say, after waiting a minute I hear all four boys talking. "shhh one at a time!" I laugh as I get up. I talk to them while I wash my face and then I get changed. "okay well I'll say good bye and see you guys soon okay?" I hear a chorus of okays and then I hang up. walking out of my room, with a cute black skirt and a tucked in oversized shirt, I see Te sitting on the couch watching the TV. "honey! look!" she says excitedly pointing to the TV. I gasp when I look at what she's so happy about. there on the TV is a big picture of me from last night and people are talking about me, mostly about how I look and how 'exotic' I am because I'm from Australia. "umm wow" I say "hey, do you wanna stay here for a couple more days to hang out together, I don't have anything I need to be doing at the moment" Te asks. "sure, let me just ring my friends and let them know" I say walking back to my room. "hey" jays hopeful voice comes through the phone "hey, so i know I said I'd be back by now but I'm gonna spend a few more days here with Te okay? she has time off to spend with me and she's usually busy" I hear silence "I'd that okay?" I ask "yeah, no of course it's okay you don't need to ask me if it's okay to spend time with your family" he says with a little disappointment. "I promise to text you, okay? bye" I say "bye" he says before we hang up.

jays pov

Claire's couple of days turned into the rest of the school holidays. which I'm bummed about but she kept her promise about texting alot. thw boys have gotten annoyed by how much I've been on my phone though. and like I told her, we ended up going home and I spent alot of time at home. tomorrow is the start of term so I'll get to see her at school, but then again maybe I will pick her up for school. now that we're a thing it should be fine. no I can't because the people there don't like me and te and Gus don't know about me, I wouldn't want them to hate me too. after the day goes by tediously slowly I lay in bed thinking about seeing claire again after nearly ten days. it feels like not long but also way too long at the same time. for hours I stare at the ceiling until late into the night I finally fall asleep.

when I wake up it's still quite dark outside because it's so early. half asleep I stumble into the shower and let the hot water wake me up. mmm claire, I can't help it my mind wanders thinking of her. hear laugh, her cute nose, her pink lips, luscious t**s and her beautiful p***y. f**k I look down and realise I have a hard on. I run my hand down my c**k and back up stroking it gently imagining Claire's hand is doing it. up and down, up and down. I grunt imagining claire watching me do this. i c*m on myself quite quickly, I'm surprised. I haven't c*m that quick since i lost my virginity. I guess that's what claire does to me. smiling I step out of the shower and go into my room with a towel around my hips. drying off I pull on a white Santa cruise hoodie and skinny blue jeans along with my Nike sneakers. spraying on some deodorant under my shirt, I also run my hands through my hair with the towel to dry it off. I open the fridge and have some cold pizza for breakfast then leave for school. when I arrive at school I'm glad I wore a hoodie because it's getting cold lately and today is no exception.

since I'm early and stressed I park and have a quick cigarette in the car and listen to some music. when I've finished I flick the butt of the cigarette out the window and get get out. walking across the road to the school I look around for the black Jeep that drops off Claire. I don't see but I keep walking not too worried because I'm still quite early. once I get inside I wait by the lockers and gradually all the guys come it's three minutes before the bell and I still can't see her. what the hell did her flight get delayed or some s**t, where is she? I look over the crowd of people looking for her coloured hair, but even after having the advantage of being taller than most people I can't see her. I pull out my phone and text her -where r u??!!- someone taps my shoulder "not now!" I growl. "well that isn't a very nice way to greet me" a soft joking voice says "wha-" I turn around to look at claire but I'm left speechless. no wounder I didn't see her. "wow" Sam and mike say in unison. they're right she's beautiful. shes wearing casual ripped jeans an oversized t-s**t with a leather jacket. but that's not all her coloured hair has been turned a beautiful glossy dark chestnut brown. "do you like it? when you were asking about my natural hair colour it got me thinking, so while I was with Te I went and got my hair done again and showed them a reference photo from when I was a kid" she smiles holding up her phone to show me a photo of your younger self with the chestnut hair except its alot more messy in this photo and she's got a a lot more of a childish face. "wow claire you look amazing it looks good!" I say watching her she let's out a sigh of relief "oh thank God I was worried you wouldn't like it since you've only ever seen me with coloured hair" she says worriedly. I pull her in close to me and give her a kiss on the neck and then lips when we pull apart everyone in the hall way has stopped and is looking at us "OH MY GOD EVERYONE IT'S CLAIRE!!" Someone yells and everyone crowds her asking questions about the event she went to and about Te and Gus. "BACK THE f**k UP!!!" I yell at the incoming crowd and the rest of the boys puff out their chests and yell insults at anyone who will look at them. "get on with your lives!" I say and everyone keeps walking. in all the chaos it hadn't registered that the bell had gone. me and the boys chaperone claire to her first class so that people will leave her alone but by her second class that none of us were in I receive a text from her -omfg I can't stand it people are just looking at me all the time out the corner of their eyes- I reply -call into the office sick and I'll take you back to my place?- she answers with -yes I'm leaving now, be waiting in the usual spot-. since no one would expect anything less of me I just get up and walk out of class walking out to the front of the school I wait under a tree for her. less than fifteen minutes later she's running towards me, when she gets close enough she launches herself into my arms and holds me tight. I bury my face in her hair and breathe in the scent of her. I look down at her and she leans back a bit to look up at me. "we gonna get out of here?" she asks bringing a smile to my face with her accent. "of course" I say turning with my arm around her we walk to the car park and head to my place.

after singing through half a CDs worth of songs we pull into my driveway and get out of the car. and before I can get to the door to unlock it Claire's already there waiting like a kid after a long road trip. "come on your so slow" she jokes as I get out my keys. that actually reminds me "well actually I was thinking about maybe getting an extra.set of keys cut for the house" I say but claire dosent take the hint "what for? in case you lose the first set?" she giggles as I let her inside. "ohh I'm impressed" she says looking around at the house which I've kept clean. "umm yeah and no the extra keys wouldn't be for me" I say suggestively as we walk into the lounge room and sit down with her on my lap as usual. "they'd be for you" I say and her smile falters for a second "oh" is all I get. "umm want to elaborate on what you're thinking?" I ask "well why would I need keys?" she asks. I shrug "so you can come over when ever you want even when I might not be here" she thinks for a little while as she uses her pointer finger to draw soft patterns on my chest. "I umm" she letsnout a nervous laugh "I almost thought for a second there, that you wanted me to move in" she says. "if you wanted to..." I say she shakes her head "jay we had our first kiss like two weeks ago" I smile "but we've known each other for more than six months" I say cheekily and she blushes. "did you really like me from the start?" she asks "yes I actually did, right from the very start. the way you held yourself even though you were so obviously in the deep end the way you walked down that hall on your first day. I thought to myself, now that is a women. she looks like she could tame f*****g lions. and I also couldn't believe how down to earth you were. you were so unexpected in so many different ways. and when you unloaded that gun I thought it was f*****g sexy as hell" she laughs "the first time I heard you laugh I thought you must be a freaking angel, I was like how could someone be so smart and so beautiful inside and out. most girls can look pretty but inside they're jealous and ugly." I sigh "you are just such an amazing person that struck me from first sight" claire smiles "it's nice to know" she says still running her hands up and down my chest. she looks up at me "I'm really f*****g horny right now" she says looking up at me through hooded eyes. "tell me something sexy" she purrs sitting up in my lap so we're face to face. "did you get lonely without me?" she asks and I see where she's heading "you have no idea, considering I'd been waiting months to get out of the friend zone and as soon as it happens you have to leave" she nods and bits her lip to stop herself from smiling. she blushes bright red and I know what she's thinking "did you...?" she asks looking into my eyes I nod "before school I did too" she kisses my neck and sighs "were you thinking of me?" I smile as I massage her boob through her shirt and bra. "yes I was imagining you were right there doing me" I groan picturing her lips around my c**k. f**k. I shut my eyes and when I open them next I realise she's looking nervous again. "can I?" I nod and she un buttons my jeans while we kiss, letting the fly down I help her pull my boxer briefs down to let my c**k spring free, he's so erect it's almost touching my stomach. she looks down and a mix of emotions wash across her face. "you um.. you ever seen a d**k before?" she shakes her head still looking. "it's kinda scary" she says quietly. I have to clear my throat to talk. "you don't have to do anything you don't want to, remember?" she nods "yeah" her voice comes out weak. she slowly reaches down with her hand and rubs the tip. a little bit of pre c*m spills and and she jerks back astonished. "umm sorry" she says "it's fine, do you want me to put it away?" she swallows "no" I sit there and watch her look at me finally she makes eye contact "it's so big how would it ever fit" her soft anxious voice says and I almost laugh "it can fit, I promise and it's quite average in size really" I try to assure her. but she places both hands on my shaft and rubs her thumb over my tip making it quiver. "f**k" my voice pitches into a moan and she looks up smiling at me. she continues to very slowly rub her thumb along the tip and back then she uses her other hand to slightly pull and rub the rest of my length. f**k. I feel myself grow more and more tense by the minute until I gasp and c*m squirting my jizz all over her hands, my shirt and my jeans. "that's a lot" claire says looking at the mess we made I chuckle and kiss her "it's cause of you" I say and her eyes Widen. I pull my shirt of and throw it on the floor, I'll pick it up later. "wanna come up to my room? I can get changed and then you can have your turn, of you want" I ask her as she looks at the semen on her hands. I hop up and grab some wet wipes to wipe her hands. "here" I say cleaning her up. "you didn't have to" she says looking up to me smiling. she grabs my hand and drags me up to my room

"hurry up then" she says as she lays back on the bed. "give me a second." I say then go into the bathroom to take off the rest of my clothes and put on some clean underwear.

when I get back she has taken off her shirt and jeans showing off black silky undies and a red bra. "dam baby girl you look hot!" I say as I pounce down onto the bed next to her making her squeal. "I'm still insecure about my body though and I don't wanna take off my undies completely" she says shyly. "of course" she relaxes into the Doona a bit more and turns her head to smell the sheets. "just like you" she sighs looking back up into my eyes. I lean down and kiss her, moving together we end up with our limbs tangled together. all I can feel and all I want is her, any part of her, touching me. she giggles "you gonna give me what I want now?" she asks panting. in answer I reach down my hand while I suck on one of her t**s. her undies are soaked through and my hand goes under the fabric slipping between her folds. "mmm" she sighs gently almost delicately. "yesss" she pants looking down at me. I rub her clit slowly lightly making her shiver "mmm, don't be a tease! harder!" she complains smiling. "yes ma'am I say doing what she asks I increase the pressure more and more until I'm playing her like an instrument. moaning and panting she squirts. "holy f**k!" I say leaning back watching the liquid spurt out of her. she blushes and jumps up to get up off the bed she wobbles and nearly falls but I catch her. "what wrong?" I ask looking at her blushing "I umm, I err I'm sorry I got your bed so wet" she says looking at the puddle she had created on the bed. "baby don't be embarrassed, it's hot as f**k. it's a compliment. for a women to squirt like that means she must've felt really f*****g good" I assure her and she rubs her legs together while her jucies leak down them. "can I clean you up? she nods and I go to grab a towel but when I bend down to dry her off she steps back "uh you know what I think I want to shower" she says shakily. "hey, are you okay?" she nods "no, yeah I'm fine really it's just I feel so weak and my legs are like jelly. it's weird." she says. "aren't you used to having orgasams?" she shakes her head "but don't you?" she shakes her head again "no, not really I always felt disgusted when I tried and it never felt good. but when you do it. it's like fireworks" she sighs and just about melts. "I'm gonna have the shower now" she says walking out into the ensuite shower. once I hear the water turn on I change the bedding and wash the old ones. when she comes back out of the little bathroom she has the black towel wrapped around her with a second one in her hair. "umm can I wear your clothes?" I can't help smirking like an i***t as I open my drawers and wardrobe "anything you want" I offer. she picks out sweat's and a hoodie then goes into the bathroom again to change into them. this time when she comes out she looks cute in the way over sized clothes and her half dried hair up in a messy bun. "where do you want me to put my dirty clothes?" she asks "just leave em in the bathroom I'll wash them later after the bedding" I say as I make my bed. suddenly I feel arms wrapped around me. "hey what's wrong?" I turn around so she's hugging me properly "nothing I just felt like we needed a hug right now" she says getting emotional. she clings onto me like she thinks she's going to lose me. a lump swells in my throat and a word comes to mind. love. I'm in love for real, this is real. I hoist up claire around my hips so that her arms are around my neck and her legs around my middle. she's like a little kid hanging onto me. and we stand there, just holding each other.