Second Thought

Chapter 6

    I didn't know what to think or do. All I knew is how badly I wanted to get out of here. I started looking around for possible ways to escape. If I could escape, then I could have a normal life. A life that was worth living than the life I was living now. I couldn't stay here and be whatever it is that Alexander wants me to be. He wants me to live with him. He is insane if he thinks that is going to happen. I couldn't and I wouldn't do it. I could hardly sit across from him in the same room, let alone sleep next to him. I've always been in my own way and I don't like being told what to do. I want to make my own decisions and I want to fight. The only reason I haven't fought before is because I was trying to survive, waiting for the right time to make my escape. I know now that I must find a way out of here because I am tired of always doing what others want me to. I start my way over to the window, but it is locked from the outside and even if I were to make it out, I would most likely die from the fall. I then make my way over to the entrance of the room hoping that I can sneak out without being caught. If I did get caught, at least it would be a quick end. To no surprise, the door is locked. s**t. I sink to the floor and place my head against the door. Of all the years that I was tortured and all the years I spent locked up, it was nothing compared to the pain that I was feeling right now. I start to cry. Even of all those times Nova would beat the s**t out of me, I never let a tear flow. What was I going to do? I know that I cannot stay here with this man. He will use me and abuse me the way he sees fit and that just doesn't work for me.

    A silent knock comes across the door and I immediately stand and back up trying to find a place to hide. Before I could the door opened. In walked Liam with a worried expression on his face. He quickly comes in and shuts the door lightly. He stands in front of the door as his eyes find mine.

    "Serenity, I need to talk to you before tonight.”

    "What about? I don't want to go with your brother." My breathing gets harder and my tears start to flow down my face.

    "I know you don't. You must do as he says. If you don't make him upset, you will be fine. Everything will go much easier for you if you don't get on his bad side, ok?”

    "His bad side? I didn't ask for any of this. I don't want to be married, let alone be married to a man like him. I have fought my whole life thinking if I keep fighting, something better will open to me. Of course, I'm stupid to think so because it just keeps getting worse."

    "I know that it seems that way Serenity and I cannot begin to imagine what you have been through, but he's not that bad. I think with the right woman, he could be a better person. I can tell that you are everything that he is not and maybe that is just what he needs."

    "NO! I don't care what he needs or wants. Just kill me now and get it over with because I will not agree to be his. He will never have me." I watched as Liam took a step back totally caught off guard by my words. It was true. After all that I have been through, death wasn't something that I feared. I welcomed death and I have begged for it so many times. The life I lived wasn't even considered living and I didn't want to just scrape by anymore. It was all or nothing for me. I wanted to live, don't get me wrong but what kind of life would I have? It would be a life full of more torture and sadness and I couldn't deal with anymore of that. I wasn't going to survive this, and I have come to terms with it.