Second Thought

Chapter 19

                                                                                    Serenity's POV

    Alexander talked the doctor into letting me leave the hospital and we were now back at his home. I do have a nurse that is set to come in once a week to check on me. I am on strict bed orders. We just returned home today so I have a week before a nurse will come check on me. I'm in a lot of pain, my head hurts the worse with a constant throbbing feeling. The doctor did give me some pain medication, but I haven't taken it yet because I want to try to stick it out without having to really use them. I've only been home a few hours and I'm already bored out of my mind. Alexander set up a television in the room, but I have never really been into watching it. Now, I guess I really don't have a choice. I flip though the channels until I find a show called Friends. Honestly, I wasn't really paying much attention to it, but it seemed okay.

    My door opened a little and I saw Liam poke his head in. I really wasn't looking forward to seeing him. The doctor told me to take it very easy but all I wanted to do was to scream at him from the top of my lungs. He lied to me and I couldn't help but to think he was just using me as a distraction to keep his mind off his wife. His eyes scanned the room and I knew that he was looking to make sure Alexander wasn't in here. Alexander was constantly at my side and it was getting to be a little much, so I talked him into showering and taking a nap.

    "Hi Serenity. Is it okay if I come in?"

    "Sure. Don't worry, Alexander isn't in here. I told him I needed to be alone and that he needed some rest and a shower."

    "Oh, okay cool." He headed over to the chair that was sitting directly beside my bed and he took a seat. "We kind of need to talk Serenity. There are somethings that you don't know about and I feel like I should finally talk to you about them."

    "You don't really need to say anything. I heard it all."

    "What do you mean you heard it all? What did you hear exactly?"

    "I was in and out of it, but I did catch a few conversations between you and Alexander. I heard him talk about your wife before everything went black again."

    "Serenity, you have to understand why I didn't tell you that I was married. My wife left me; I can't even say she will ever come back. It has been months since I have even heard from her. I am sorry for not telling you, but I didn't never really know what to say. I knew you would have questions, questions I couldn't even answer myself. I know that you are probably upset with me and I completely understand if you are."

    "Liam, I'm not upset. I'm pissed. Angry even. I feel like you just used me as a distraction. I thought Alexander was an asshole, but I was clearly wrong. I don't care if you haven't spoken to her in years Liam. You are married and you can't just go around ready to sleep with any woman that is willing, to keep your mind off your wife. I don't have any questions for you because there is nothing, I am even curious about. You’re a liar and a cheater and clearly not the man I thought you were."

    "My wife cheated on me with my brother! Did you even catch that part? Alexander betrayed me in the worst possible way. He destroyed my life in just one night. I wasn't thinking straight when I slept with that woman. I was so focused on revenge that I didn't care. It was wrong, I know that now. I wish I could take it all back. Honestly, Erina is the love of my life and I would be lying to you again if I told you anything different. I was trying to open myself up to try and find love again and then you come along. You’re so different from any woman I have ever met. You were my chance at finding love again."

    "Please just stop. You know I thought I was falling for you. I mean you were always there through all the bullshit with your brother, but you just used me. You said that you needed me, and I longed to hear you say that but now I know what you truly meant. I was a distraction and you needed me because I kept you from thinking about her." I got up from my bed, fully aware that I wasn't supposed to be up. I just needed to get away from him. I felt so much anger for him that I if I stayed in the room with him any longer, I was going to lose it. I stormed over to the bathroom door and slammed it. I heard footsteps getting closer, so I locked the door. Turning over to the tub, I started running bath water. On the edge of the tub was a bottle of vanilla bath wash. I used it to create myself a bubble bath. Soon, the smell of sweet vanilla filled the room. For the first time since I came to this house, I felt at ease. I stripped off each piece of clothing carefully and climbed into the boiling water. I stretched my body, filling the tub and splashing water out over the sides. I reached for a small towel and draped it over my eyes and rested my head on the back of the tub. Shortly, I was dozing off to sleep.

    Blackness surrounded me. I was surrounded by complete darkness, alone and scared. What was going on? Where was I? The only feelings I had were pure loneliness and pain, a lot of pain. The pain was overwhelming, and I had never felt anything like it before. It was getting hard to breath. Before I knew it, my breathing stopped and I was clutching my throat, begging for my breathing to come back.