Healed by the Scottish beauty

Chapter Four - Breaking down

Nicola’s P.O.V

Samuel was quite all the way to my place and I couldn’t blame him, the call he has with his wife seemed very heated and not in a good way. I can’t believe she suggested an open marriage. Yes I get that is what some people want but he clearly doesn’t if he ran away to Paris to get away when he found out about her affair but then again I can’t say anything because I don’t anything about their marriage…not really.

“Samuel are you OK?” I asked as we headed into my apartment building

“No, not at all.” He said and I could see the tears brimming in his beautiful eyes.

I led us into my apartment as quick as we could, getting a very strong feeling he was holding back how he was feeling because we were still in public. As soon as we stepped into my apartment, he broke down.

“I don’t know why she would do this.” He sobbed “I gave her everything, made sure no two days were the same, let her do as she pleased when she pleased. I loved her with my entire being, put her first before anything. I let her go away for weekends with her friends anytime she wanted…I am wondering now if she was away with him. Everything used to be amazing between us.” He said burying his face in his hands.

I felt my heart breaking for him all over again as he sobbed next to be. I moved in closer to him, wrapping my arm around him. He rested his head on my shoulder and just had a complete breakdown. I could tell her really did love her with his whole heart so why would she do this to him? I have never understood humans and their behaviour. Never understood why we hurt the people, get hurt by the people we are meant to love most? Do we just not want to happy?

“Samuel I am so sorry you are going through this and hurting as much, you don’t deserve that.” I said rubbing his back.

“I clearly done something wrong…something to deserve it if she is having an affair.” He said

“Samuel you cannot blame yourself for this. Sadly human nature is f****d up. It was her choice to have an affair, if she wasn’t happy then the decent thing for her to would have been to tell you that, not go behind your back the way she did.” I said

I always made sure to be completely honest, there is enough lies in this world.

“I guess…I thought we were happy.” He said “I don’t know what hurt the most the fact that she was having an affair or making me believe we were trying for a baby when the whole time she was still taking birth control.” He added

Seriously who the f**k does that? That is such a low blow, if she never wanted kids then she should have told him that, not made him believe they were trying when she had no intention of getting pregnant. I don’t know this woman but what I do know? She is selfish and a liar, Samuel deserves better…anyone deserves better than that.

I never knew what to say, instead I just continued hugging him until he pulled away.

“Sorry I should probably go, already made enough of an i***t of myself.” He said wiping the tears away going to stand up.

“Um where do you think you are going? You owe me dinner?” I said looking at him

“You still wanna go to dinner with me after the way you just seen me?” he said surprised

“Yes, why wouldn’t I? You are hurting Samuel and I would never judge you on that, judge you for breaking down, it is better that keeping it all bottled up.” I said “But if you aren’t feeling up to it we don’t need too.” I added

“No I want to, just wasn’t sure you would after seeing me the way you did.” He said

“Well then, dinner is still on…you aren’t getting out it that easily.” I giggled

I see a smile creeping on his lips since the first time at the café.

“That is better…” I said hugging him

“What is it about you? Even after what has happened today you still manage to make me smile?” he said

“What can I say I am awesome? It is the Scottish charm.” I said winking at him

“Yes it must be.” He laughed “Honestly though whatever it is…thank you.” He said

“Anytime! Now let me get freshened up and we can go find somewhere for dinner.” I smiled

“Do you have a laptop I can use to email my father to let him know my phone will be off until further notice?” He asked

I nodded, grabbing my laptop and signing into it for him, handing it to him and leaving him too it and went to get freshened up and changed. I slipped out of my clothes I had on, pulling on a skirt and a top, nothing too fancy but nice enough for dinner. I let my hair down from my tie, running a brush through it and put a little mascara on. I looked at myself in the mirror, nodding. That would do. I headed back through, Samuel closing my laptop over.

“You done?” I said

“Yes, thank you for that.” He smiled “You look very pretty.” He added

“Thank you.” I said feeling my cheeks heat a little

“Ready to go?” He asked

“Yes please, I am starting to get really hungry.” I laughed

I grabbed my bag, the two of heading out. I linked my arm through his, deciding to take him to my favourite restaurant for dinner since he doesn’t know Paris. It was about a twenty minute walk from my apartment but that was OK I loved walking around Paris, it was such a beautiful place. He seemed a little better than earlier or well he was acting like he was.

“I don’t need to eat like snails do I?” He said as we walked

“No Samuel you do not…” I laughed “There is a lot more things to eat than snails here you know, they do things like burger and chips, sorry fries as you know them.” I added

“Thank God for that.” He said

“You American’s…” I said teasingly

“Hey! We can’t all be as charming as you Scottish folk.” He laughed prodding my side playfully.

“We can’t help us Scottish folks are so charming, it is in our blood.” I giggled

God I missed Scotland, will need to try get back even for a weekend to see my parents and my friends. Samuel and I chatted until we arrived at our destination and luckily we manged to get a seat. He placed his on the small of my back as we headed to our table, pulling the chair out and letting me sit first.

“Thank you…” I said sweetly to him

“You are welcome.” He said before taking his own seat.

Hopefully good food, company and a few drinks will help him forget about his problems even for a little while.