Always Mine *Cali and James*

is it hot in here?

James

Once the shock wears off, I realize that after Cali confessed her feelings, I stood here like a complete dumba$$. I need to go to her. She is probably thinking the worst right now. I know how she can get inside of her head and overthinks everything. I run inside and look for her. She is nowhere to be found, so I head outside. I find her in the front yard, sitting on the fountain and is looking up at the sky. "Cali" I say as I get closer. "Why did you run off?" I ask her and she shrugs. "It's embarrassing James. You are my best friend. We grew up together. I shouldn't have feelings for you," she says. I grab her hand and have her stand up and I take her spot by sitting on the fountain. She is now standing in front of me, looking worried and wiping tears from her eyes, yet she is still the most beautiful girl in the world. "Cali, you can't help who you have feelings for. What if I told you that you aren't the only one with these feelings?" I ask her as I pull her in and she is now standing in between my legs. "What?" she asks and I shrug. "I don't know when it happened, but I can't get you out of my mind Cali. I don't know what to do about these feelings. Everything is confusing for me," I tell her. "Same" is all she says. I pull her closer, holding onto her back and lay my head on her chest. "Cali, my feelings are all over the place. We both don't know what to do with them, but I do know that I hate seeing you with other men, f*ck, it pisses me off so much. I don't know what to do. I almost drankt oday when I saw you with that biker," I say, but she doesn't say anything. "I don't know what any of this means, but I can't lose you Cali. The same fear you have, I also have it, but I promise you that no matter what, this changes nothing. It is still us, you and I against the world like it always has been. Sh*t, maybe we can try this out. I don't know, see.." I say when Cali cuts me off by putting her finger on my lips. "James, this is not good. You can't be drinking because of me." she sighs. "It doesn't even matter though, you and I, we are different James. You sleep around and like to have multiple women. I want to be in a relationship. You have made it clear many times that relationships are not something you do. You have always been honest about who you are. You don't want a girlfriend, wife or even a family. Kids are not something you see in your future. We are complete opposites, although maybe that is also why we get along so well." she says, reminding me of everything I have said in the past. Sh*t, I have never dated anyone. It's never been my thing. I sleep with women once and that as much as anyone has ever gotten from me. I don't even know what to tell her, because this is all true.

Cali

James and I are completely different and I let him know that, at the same time, if all I can get from him is a night of s3x, I should go for it. The other day, when Dallas called me a little b!tch, I told her she would see and that I would prove her wrong. go after what you want she said and f*ck it, one night of passion is sounding good right about now. I know he can't give me more, even if he's trying to convince us otherwise. I know who James is.

If anything, maybe James can teach me to have s*x, to please a man, and then, after that, I can hook up until I find who I want to settle down with. I think about it and if this is the only way I can get him, and something out of this, then f*ck it. I will just go for it. Maybe it is the alcohol talking though. Maybe I should pull it back a bit, get sober and then talk about all this. One look at James though and I just want to go all of the way. What bad luck. Leave it to me to fall in love with my best friend, the one person who is off limits. My insides are saying screw love right about now though. He makes me feel all tingly inside. Maybe I can get him to agree to one night.

"James, what if we try this, just hook up once and things stay the same between us. Nothing changes. You give me what you can and we leave it at that," I tell him. He looks up at me and hugs me closer. "I can't lose you Cali. You mean everything to me. I'm not sure if this is a good idea, but I can't say no to you." he says, and I smile. Great. I hope I'm not getting in too deep. Guess only time will tell.

James

What I really want to tell Cali is that she consumes my every thought and I am not sure if a hookup will be enough. We have only ever been friends although that one time I got drunk on my mother's birthday, Captain John stayed with me and when I sobered up, he had a serious talk with me and when the topic of Cali came up, he made some serious points and right now they are all running through my mind. Yes Cali and I have always been best friends, but we have also been way more. She is my person and I am hers. After he told me that alcohol is not the way to go and he shared stories of my parents, he told me that me and his daughter have a special relationship. He also said he knows I used to sneak into her window for years, but he always trusted that we would do the right things and that I would never disrespect her and he is so right. I started sneaking in when she was getting bullied and then when my parents were angry and dad yelled at me, when my grandpa would hit me and leave marks on me and then when my parents died. For everything, I would sneak in her window and we would cuddle up in her bed and talk. She would rub my head until I fell asleep and then I would sneak back out in the morning, guess he always knew. He also made a point to tell me that he thought we loved each other and he thought there could be more between us if that's what we both wanted. He thought that Cali and I have always blurred the lines of our relationship, friendship, whatever we want to call it. He said that my relationship with Cali is probably why I couldn't have another relationship. He also said if he was wrong and Cali and I didn't see a romantic future with each other that we will have to figure out how to draw the lines of our friendship more solidly so we didn't continue to blur them. "I am not telling you what to do James, In fact, I do not know. I could be wrong about all of this and I am just putting my foot in my mouth, but the way you two are with each other just seems like true love to me, but at some point you have to decide what you want for real, because from where I am standing, you two have never been just friends or best friends, but you also have never been a couple either and that just makes things complicated." he told me and I have carried this with me ever since and now that I think about it, he was right. He always is. I will have to tell him. This will give him a big head. Being this way has always worked for Cali and I, but it isn't working anymore.

I stand up, still holding her. "You are so beautiful" I whisper, getting closer to her lips. I just need a taste. She wraps her arms around my neck and I am about to kiss her when someone calls her name. She quickly pulls away and shakes her head. She looks at me with a horrified look on her face and walks away towards her sister and her band mates who are now coming out here. Damit Dallas, she's lucky I love her so much if not I would be angry right now. I walk back behind them, making sure no-one gets close to Cali, especially because she has been drinking. I decide to stay here and take care of her.

Cali

When I heard my sister call my name, it was like someone splashed cold water on me and woke me the f*ck up. Was James about to kiss me? James and I can not happen. I can't go there with him, can I? We did agree to one night. Can I do this? I do not know I can't survive a heart break. I don't want to ruin our friendship. I have my sisters, but he is my only real friend. The only other person who means anything to me. It's a scary situation to be in. We walk to the back and I pull Dallas to the side. I need someone to tell me that this is wrong. "Dally, what would you say if I told you that James and I agreed to have s3x, just one night and nothing will change between us. We will still be best friends after this?" I whisper. She smiles brightly. "I would normally say don't do it. You aren't a one night stand type of girl. You want the fairy tale and happy ever after, but ever since mom died I am more of the you only live once sister. That is my advice to people now. I say go for it. If you want to f*ck James, then just do it. He's hot. You are both adults and people can hookup and be friends. Why not? I say go for it. Just always stay true to yourself. If you do it and it isn't for you then that's okay too. Who knows, you two might f*ck and love it and then get serious too," she whispers back. I swat her arm. In my dreams. "Don't call him hot Dallas" I say and glare at her. "Sorry, you know he is like a big brother to me, but I know he looks sexy. He is not my type though." She says. "Who is your type then? Beau?" I ask her and she shakes her head. "No way. I'm over him," she says "Tyler" I whisper and her eyes widen. "Cali, he is my best friend and is with Adeline" she whisper yells. I chuckle "I know. I am just messing with you" I tell her, but she totally blushed. "I need to cool down" I say and go to the pool. I pull off my dress and jump in the pool with Dallas and her friends, but I can't get the conversation out of my mind. James was down for hooking up.

I swim to the edge of the pool and James is standing alone and looking awkward so I reach my hands out and call out to him. "Jamie, come here" I say and he walks closer to the pool. "Get in with me" I say and he smirks. He takes his clothes off and jumps in. He grabs me by my waist and pulls me towards him. I can feel his hard and very erect p***s and oh my gosh. It feels huge. "Cali, are you okay?." he asks me I nod. "What would you say if I told you that I don't know if I can stay away from you anymore?" At this point, I am not sure if I want him to. James has me feeling things I have never felt before like turned on. No man has made me feel this way. My ex definetly didn't. "Jamie, I don't want you to stay away. I have missed you this past week." I say. "I have missed you even more Cali, you have no idea. I need you. Every part of me needs you. Especially when you call me Jamie," He pushes up and oh my. "One night James?" I ask him. "Whatever you want sunshine" he says "mouth" James tells me, pointing at his mouth. Is he asking me for a kiss? "Come here" he says, but I am already here, in his arms. He comes closer until his lips are on mine. His tongue slips into my mouth and my tongue finds his. His hands roam all over my body. F*ck did it get hot in this pool? I forget about everyone around us and just focus on him, his big hands on me. I want to feel them more, but outside of this pool. His mouth on mine makes me realize that yes, I will take the one night of passion with my bestfriend.

"F*ck I am so f*cking h0rny now." I hear someone say loudly and I pull away from James. I look over and Dallas is splashing water at some guy who is with them "What? Can you blame me? Did you see that kiss? They were sucking each other's faces off. That was hot, wasn't it?" he asks and Dallas shakes her head. "You need to learn when to stop talking" she tells him. "Lets go. I don't want anyone seeing you like this. I'm not in the mood to go to jail for k*lling someone tonight," James says and oh boy I heat up even more.