THE GOVERNOR'S WIFE

4.BREAK UP

Chapter 4

STELLA’S POV

“Don’t you think that you have already said enough,” He said when I caught up with him right after he ran off.

“I have wronged you and I am sorry. Please, find it in your heart to forgive me,” I begged him feeling so much guilt.

“I waited for you Stella, I have always been waiting for you,” He quivered and tears formed at the slit ends of his eyelids.

“I am so sorry. It was one mistake that I deeply regret. Please find it in your heart to forgive me.” I tried holding his hands but he pulled away.

“Kiss is something special. You cannot just do it with anyone, rather a stranger. Who knows, maybe you have been cheating on me while in Uni,” He implied.

“What!” My eyebrow jutted up in surprise and I could feel a surge of anger flowing in my system.

“How could you say something like that?” That was me speaking.

“I thought you knew me Caleb,” My lips trembled in anger.

“Yes Stella, you are right. I knew you very well but now I am clueless about you. The Stella I knew could not just kiss a random person in the train,” He said before staggering away.

I remained there huffing and puffing. I wanted him to forgive me and believe me just like the old times but it was proving to be difficult. I know I had hurt him a lot but I just thought that he loved me so much to forgive me for the mistake. I loved him and I honestly regret my actions.

“What happened?” My mother jumbled my thoughts up.

“Nothing mother, I will just go in and settle in my room,” I forced a smile and tried to walk away but he held my hand.

“Don’t lie to me Stella. You are not the type of kid who lies. You are bold and honest and that is why you are going to tell me what really happened,” She was kind of bold and I didn’t have any other option but to sit with her in the coach and talk about what happened.

“Why did Caleb leave already yet you guys have not seen each other for years?” She started with the questions.

“Well, he is going to come back,” I tried lying to her.

“Don’t lie to me Stella, I want the truth from you. I can simply look in your eyes and tell that you are lying to me,” She implied.

“Okay,” I huffed.

“Go ahead, tell me what is happening. I am the only person you have left. Your dad passed leaving the two of us. We should be closer more than ever,” She suggested.

“Okay mum, the thing is that, I think I am breaking up with Caleb,” I announced.

“What! Why?” Her jaw dropped.

“I kissed someone twice in the train as I was coming to see him. I was honest with him but he proved adamant to forgive me,” I let I out of my chest.

“What have you said,” Her eyes were in thunderstruck.

“I don’t know what happened to me but I can’t change that mum, I am helpless,” I stifled a laugh.

“Seriously Stella, how comes you couldn’t just be careful. How can you stay all those years without a boyfriend and then come and mess when you are almost done with being in a long distance relationship with Caleb for you are finally coming back home?” She was in shock.

“I don’t know mother. I love Caleb. “I repeated.

“I really don’t know what to say to you because what you did surely is not good. Maybe you should give him time to heal from what you have just said to him,” My mother explained.

“Yea, I think that will work,” I forced a smile.

“I think it will,”

“Should I go now?” I implored.

“Yea, of course,” I could feel her eyes throwing daggers at me as I headed to my room.

I tried organizing my room but I was unable to because I lacked the psyche. I wish that I had not kissed Erman. He is the reason that I am in this mess right now.

In frustration and fatigue, I decided to take a nap.

Caleb was my first in everything. We had grown to love each other but when I went to study out of town, we decided to have a long distance relationship. Caleb was my best friend at the same time my boyfriend. That means that he was the only person I was close to. I didn’t have other friends.

I have continuously loved him for all those years. I really don’t know what happened today. I missed him a lot and I hoped that he would come back to me for I really don’t know how to live without him. He is my support system and he has been for all this years.

He was there for me when I was one of the leaders in the student council of our Uni. He was there to advise me and when I felt like quitting and after his pep talk, I would come out stronger than ever.

After the death of my dad, he was the one holding my hand. He practically spent sleepless nights with me as I moaned my father who was and has always been my hero.

The weight of how I messed all this good times we had together overcome me and I felt heavy in my chest region. For a moment, I felt like I could not breathe, like someone had stuffed stones in my airways blocking any passage of air.

My lips parted then closed. For someone else I looked like a fish in water but I could not help it. Tears started streaming down my cheeks like water from a faulty tap.

I tried to push them away but the more I did the pushing, the more tears rained from them.

My heart ached me and I could feel myself hyperventilating. The last time I felt this way is when I was told of my father’s death. This pain was so intense and I thanked heavens when I finally managed to sleep.

My mother woke me up to eat something later on and the first thing I did was to check my phone to see if Caleb had called. Unfortunately, there was no missed call from him or anything and that made me feel bad.

I texted him my apology and went to join my mother for dinner. We ate lamb stew with vegetable rice as we talked about random things which majorly had to deal with Campus.

My mother had also missed me for all those years and even without saying it, I knew that she was happy that I was finally home.

We watched TV after the, meal after checking my phone to see if there is a text from Caleb but sadly, he didn’t get back to me.

I tried calling him twice without picking up and when I tried for the third time, my voice went straight to voice mail.

This made me feel bad and I decided to go over to his place. I could not take it any longer. I borrowed my mother her car keys and she gladly helped me.

I drove off and headed to her place. Her mother was the one who got the door for me.

However, instead of letting me in like the old times, she looked at me and I could see the pain in her face.

“By now you should know and understand that you have deeply hurt my son. He deserved neither of that but you were too selfish to see that. Please let him heal from all this. I have never seen my son so broken like this till today and all this is thanks to you. Please leave us for good. I never want to see you here again,” After saying that, she locked the door on my face and I didn’t have any other option but to leave.

I felt like someone had spread gasoline over my heart and then set fore on it. At the same time, I felt angry that this is happening to me.

I had lowered my ego to beg him but then, it is crystal clear that he wants nothing to do with me.

I drove home and decided to let him be. I was not going to push him to be with me ever again.

I was heartbroken for like one week but my mother urged me to pick myself up and to move forward no matter how hard it felt.

People learn from their mistakes and that is the price I had to pay for kissing another dude. After Caleb went MIA with me, I decided not to date again till I figure my life out.

Honestly, deep down I was wishing for Caleb to come back to me but that didn’t happen.