Irreplaceable you

Secrets

Derek's POV

“Is there anything you want to tell me?”

Jasmine said with a look, I know she was already irritated and I don't want to add to it, the only thin I could do was dodge the question.

“Babe I'm really sleepy, can we talk tomorrow?” I called her quiet remarks made me looki up to see her face turning into a mean scowl, no, you do not lie with Jasmine, it doesn't end well.

“Babe, seriously there is nothing to worry about,”

“I'm with you I'm here, ok?”

“Ok” she uttered leaning on her toes to kiss me, before going to be bathroom

Making me let out a sigh of relief.

I changed not having the strength to join her before I went to bed.

Though I was already drifting I felt when the bed dipped and her head came to rest one my shoulders.

This was going to be ok, I hoped.

*********

The Monday after that was hectic as I has to hand in our assignment from the other professor, since the project with Jamie was ongoing I hadn't seen much of him, we were still meeting at the studio today so I had to hurry, after the party our meeting had been awkward as I hadn't dared look me in the eye.

But today we were good to do our project and I needed answers,

This time he was shockingly early already setting up the molds for the statues. As I entered, I saw his back turned to me as he had earphones and didn't hear me walk in,

I went up to him to tap him but practically gave him a scare as he jumped by the intrusion marching one of the paintbrushes on the floor, almost slipping, bit I caught him by the waist before he could fall.

A good way of being civil, but it was bad since our faces were so close I could practically count his stated freckles, before my thoughts came back and I distanced myself from him.

“Sorry about that” I uttered as I saw him flush red before facing me completely,

“Oh, no worries I'm sorry I didn't hear you come in” he let out, taking out the second earpod before we started the mold.

I won't lie I did not understand s**t about molding but Jamie looks perfectly fine handling it, I could hear him giggle from time to time from my mistake, but I was sure he was trying hard enough not to laugh at me, till I got frustrated.

“Well thank you for laughing genius” I said sarcastically earning another round of laughter that shook him off the seat, the familiar happy tone ringing in my ear.

“Ok, sorry Derek, here, let me help” he called before coming behind me, I guess out of old instincts, he didn't ask me as he came from behind me and held my hand to the clay machine blending it to create the perfect mold.

I couldn't concentrate as my head was filled with his scent and heat right close to me, this is insane I thought, I had to stop this.

I then shifted quickly from him, searching his eyes, as I could see the instant realization that what he just did was wrong.

“What was that?” I asked already tired of the eye contact, secret gaze, now this.

Jamie Alistair was maddening, it was hard to be in his presence and not succumb to him, but I can’t be played again, I can't be left behind.

“I'm-I'm sorry Derek, I was just trying to help you.”

“And what you pulled at the party, was that trying to help me too? Come one Jamie let’s not kid ourselves, we are over, you left I have a girlfriend now.”

“I didn’t mean any harm” he called quietly already hurt at my out burst.

“I’m sorry” he called before taking his bag and leaving.

At least he did his part, but now I’m just left alone to Finnish mine which I couldn’t, so I just left it and went home to sulk,

******

My friends were already there playing game in my apartment as they just shrugged when I walked in with low hellos, before sitting down with them.

My heavy sighs alone was sure to make them stop their game as the looked at me,

“What’s wrong dude you sound like you got hit by a truck” Luca Calle unfazed as he chomped on some chips,

With Cole looking all the more concerned.

“It’s him again,”

“Jamie?, what happened this time” Luca called

“We kinda had a moment back at the art lab”

“Yooo!, did you guys kiss?”

“What?! no”

“I won’t be against I mean he’s your first love and all,”

“Dude that’s was not what happen” I explained, with Lucas claims already making a headache,

“It’s Jamie, the person who broke my heart and left without a word even if I wasn’t with someone right now I would think twice before kissing him, ” I talked with annoyance ,

“Oh sorry man.”

“But... why don’t you try taking to him, from the talk I had with him a few day ago I don’t think he came to cause trouble, he was still our friend you know” Cole suggested making me turn, not really expecting that, but he was the closest to Jamie in school.

But I couldn’t help but feel hurt, he knew what being in love with Jamie had put me through.

“You think if I’d ask him he’s just going to tell me?” I asked hysterically, already pissed , from their insensitive opinions

“Dude I don’t mean”

“- We are talking about Jamie, who just waltzed back into my life, taking classes with me and is friends with my girlfriend, .who by the way I haven't told that Jamie Alistair is my freaking ex I told her about!”

“What? “

The voice made the three of us stiffen as we turned to the door to see jasmine, looking shocked at my outburst.

“What did you just say Derek?!”

“Jazz I”

“That Jamie Alistair is your ex?”

This was not bow I wanted get to find out

Fuck.