The undercover wolf (#4 of the Spike pack)

Tyler’s P.O.V. I remember it all so clearly. Every single detail was still so vibrantly in my head, it was just as if it had all happened just a second ago. While it had already been months in reality. Months since, my whole life had been turned upside down. For too long, I had been angry, living in darkness, in anger, in sadness, in despair. Up until now, right this second. I had lived inside the Spike pack my entire life. Living on the outside borders of the pack, I didn’t spend too much time with other pack members, and the closest neighbors that we had had two daughters. So, most of my childhood, I was more to myself. I only started liking girls when I was older, probably around 15 or so. And when I then saw my neighbor again, Tamara, I had liked her… a f*****g lot. She was my first crush. Dark blonde hair, tall, brown eyes, that girl was a f*****g vision. Me, being a boy f****d up on hormones, yup, I was all over her. Even though she really didn’t want me back, I was too blind to see it back then. Whatever she asked me to do, I did it, no questions asked, ever. One night, during a party of the Spike pack, things had gone south, badly. I was asked by Tamara’s father to keep an eye on her, being so in love with her, I had done just that. But things had gone south like I said, badly, too f*****g badly. And it had ended up with me being all beaten up, and Tamara giving birth to a baby a couple of months later, the result of her rape. A rape that I should have prevented if I would have been stronger. It had all been my fault and I bloody knew it, I saw it in Tamara’s eyes, every time I went over there to check up on her. I had told her one day, basically begged her, to become my chosen mate. I would have claimed her as mine, we could have taken care of the pup, together. I would have done that for her, I loved her that much. But once again, she had pushed me away, claiming that I was a fool for saying such things to her, that she would never step in the way of my true mate. And a couple of weeks after giving birth to her child, a baby girl named Nikki, Tamara had OD’d on pain meds… her sister finding her inside her bedroom, leaving the both of us alone in our grief. Our hurt. Thanks to the Moon Goddess, Bec, Tamara’s sister, found her true mate. Not just any mate, but a freaking soon to be Alpha. Which was good, because I knew she would be taken care of for the rest of her life, but it also meant that Bec would move away from the Spike pack, needing to be in her new pack, the Grey pack. Which hurt me, because I would not only be losing a friend, but baby Nikki as well, the only link that I had left about Tamara, my first big crush, my first big love. But I knew I needed to stay inside the Spike pack, I had made a promise that someday, I would kill the fucker who had hurt Tamara. Who had hurt her, when I was still too young and weak to protect her the way that she had deserved? Once I became of age, I immediately signed up to become a warrior in the Spike pack. I got trained by the Beta, and I saw myself becoming stronger by the day. Knowing bloody well what I was training for. I wasn’t training to get myself higher up the ladder, I was training to become strong enough to be able to kill the fucker who had hurt the girl that I loved once. And slowly but surely, I knew I was getting close to where I needed to be. And now, here I was, running over towards the Grey pack in my wolf form. I could have taken a car, but I loved running in the wild. My wolf Titan was a light brown wolf. In the summer, his fur would get lighter and almost to a dark blonde, which was the exact same color as my hair. People often called me ‘surfer boy’, not because I had ever stood on a surfboard a day in my life, but because of my looks. Blonde messy hair, blue eyes, tanned from always being outside. Now that my body was trained, I guess I really looked the part. Not that I cared, there was nobody for me to look good for anyway. I knew the ladies liked me, I was no saint and no virgin either. I needed to find some form of release from time to time, but that was it and as far as it went. Simply because I didn’t want anything more either. I wanted to be on my own. I had loved someone once before, and look where that had gotten me. Rejected and all alone because she had died. I wasn’t good enough then, I had gotten my heart broken and no way in hell was I letting that happen again, ever. I was good on my own, I would never hurt myself or break my own heart. Me, myself and I. That was all that I needed. And my wolf Titan, of course. I almost made it towards the borders of the Grey pack, my wolf senses guiding me like a personal GPS system. Telling me exactly where I needed to go. I had gotten the invitation that Archer and Bec would have their Alpha and Luna ceremony tonight, welcoming them both as the new Alpha and Luna of the Grey pack. I knew for a fact that I couldn’t miss this big event, so I had accepted Archer’s invitation. Knowing it would make Bec happy to see me again. Over time, we had grown to be like brother and sister. Both taking care of little baby Nikki, Tamara’s baby, who now Archer and Bec were raising as their own. And I smiled, knowing that that kid had an awesome future standing right in front of her. Archer for one, was an amazing guy. That kid couldn’t have asked for a better father. She would turn out just fine, when having him to protect her, and Bec. Once the borders popped up in my sight, I saw the first warriors as well. The Grey pack was well guarded, no way you could ever get inside without someone letting you pass. And I was f*****g impressed by what I saw. Good job Archer Very well done. I shifted into my human form, knowing I needed my human voice to communicate with them. Since I wasn’t a Grey pack member, it also meant I would not be able to mind link to anyone other than my own pack members, which I hardly ever did, since I didn’t have many friends inside my own pack. The one that I did have, found her mate and moved away. Ever since Bec had left, I hadn’t mind linked at all. I liked being by myself, so it wasn’t like I was missing out on it either. I stepped over towards the warriors, but keeping a safe distance, the last thing I needed was for someone to think I was a threat, and they would kill me off before I had the chance to say anything. I raised my hands, telling them I meant them no harm. “I got an invitation from Alpha Archer, to come to the Alpha ceremony tonight.” I called out to them, seeing how one of the men nodded back at me. “Can you tell us your name, sir?” He called back at me. “Tyler Warden.” I answered, seeing how the man nodded again. “Welcome Tyler, we were expecting you. Please, follow me.” The warrior called out to me, to which I nodded and did as I was told. I was handed over a pair of shorts, since well… shifting made me stand there butt naked in front of them. So I quickly pulled them on, before I followed the warrior who had called out to me first. “I will lead you to the pack house. We have a room ready for you as well as clothes for the ceremony.” He stated, as he kept walking next to me. He kept on having small talk with me, but I didn’t hear a single word he said. I was only able to see. FUCK ME! My mouth had dropped open, as I couldn’t help but look around. This place was something else alright, this place was f*****g amazing! Lands and lands as far as the eye could see. Grass as green as… f**k, I couldn’t even compare it to anything else. Mountains rose in the air and I could already see my wolf Titan running up there, taking in the fresh mountain air, running to the top, just to see the views from up there. Shit this place looks like f*****g heaven! Bec sure did good for herself! I made it to what I guessed was the pack house. It didn’t look like the pack house inside the Spike pack at all. The Spike pack had a freaking mansion, rising high into the sky with floor on top of floor. This pack house wasn’t high, but f*****g wide. All made out of wood, it looked… cozy, nice, warm… it felt like f*****g home to be honest. I followed the warrior inside, he opened the front door and took a left turn, pointing at a door and telling me that that was the Alpha’s office, and opened up the door right next to it. I looked inside, seeing that it was a bedroom, and I nodded at the warrior. “Thank you.” I smiled at him, seeing how he nodded back at me. “The Alpha and Luna’s house is, when you step outside, the first house on the left. The Alpha is expecting you. I believe you have about forty minutes to get yourself ready.” He told me, to which I nodded again. “I’ll be there in time. Thank you again.” I smiled, as the warrior turned around and left, before I shut the door. Finally, being able to be alone again. I looked around the room, it looked like a freaking hotel room of a very fancy and expensive hotel. Big double bed, nightstands on either side, there was a bag of clothes lying on top of the bed and a tuxedo hanging on a clothing rack that stood on the right side of the bed. On the left side, there was a door. I opened it up to look inside and, sure enough, it held a bathroom. Shower and sink, even a new toothbrush and shampoo were standing ready for me. Shit The Grey pack sure thinks of everything. Talk about hospitality... And without thinking twice, I turned on the shower and jumped underneath once I had gotten rid of my shorts. I didn’t want to make the new Luna wait after all. Especially when I was the surprise her Alpha had up his sleeve for her. I looked at myself in the mirror once I was done. I was wearing the tuxedo pants and the shirt, but all hell could freeze over before I wore that jacket as well. Hell no, I had rolled up the sleeves to my elbows, and for all I cared, this looked fancy enough for me. I did not do tuxedo’s because, once again, I didn’t need to look neat for anyone. Give me jeans and flannel shirts every day of the week, but that was as fancy as I would go in terms of clothes. I was making this one exception for Bec, and it would be the only one I would ever make. I left the jacket hanging on the hanger, as I made my way out of the room and pack house. I had no need to stick around here, and was quite anxious to see my friend again. It was her big night, and I wanted to be there for her, and being able to see baby Nikki again, had been high on my to-do list as well. I wasn’t sure if I would ever want kids of my own, but that little chubby baby sure made my heart melt. Probably because her mother had been Tamara… I shook my head, trying to shake the thought away, as I made it towards Archer’s house and heard people talking inside. And I grinned widely, as I heard Bec’s voice. “Ready to go?” I heard someone ask, so I quickly grabbed the doorknob and pulled the door open, seeing that Bec was standing inside the hallway, but her back was turned towards me. “Were you really going to go, and become a Luna without me?” I asked out loud, seeing how Bec turned around, by hearing my voice, and her face lit up like the fourth of July, as she screamed and ran straight into my arms, as I finally greeted my little sister, who was about to become the biggest woman in the pack. And I secretly hoped that one day, I would be able to fit in here as well.