Building you up

Chapter 4

Chapter 4Tia’s pov

I loved this job. The hours were great, and the pay was amazing. I was able to keep the house. I was so thankful to Skylar for giving me a chance. He was an amazing guy. I am so thankful to him. He sticks up for me when others say things. We talk a lot and he listens to me as if he cared.

I told him about Deacon that way if I had to leave, he would know why. He said it takes an amazing woman to do what I am doing. I couldn’t help but blush. He was so sexy. I wish I could get a guy like him. I know I never stood a chance. I mean I am not the type of woman a man like him goes for.

He always comes to my rescue though. When the guys at work put me down, he always puts a stop to it. If those men think they could intimidate me, they had another thing coming. I needed this job, and I wouldn’t allow them to take it from me. With this job I was allowed to give Deacon the life my sister and brother in law wanted for him.

That’s all I want. To honor their wishes. Maybe that’s why I find myself day dreaming about Skylar. He is helping me so much. That’s why I can’t stop thinking about him. At least that’s what I keep telling myself. Yet every time I saw him, I got butterflies.

This cannot happen. I can’t fall for my boss. I just have to get over this silly little crush. Things like this could never work out in my favor. I can’t afford to lose this job. Going after my boss would do just that.

I mean a man like him would never want me. So, I need to just distance myself. No matter how charming he is it will never happen. I just can’t allow it. Women like me never got the happy endings. He was not my prince. I didn’t need a prince any way I have been taking care of myself and now my nephew all on my own. I needed to give myself more credit on just how strong I was.

I am saving up every dime I can as well as pay off the house and the bills. I never know how long this job will last. I want to make sure I have money to go on, so I can take of Deacon. My biggest fear is having him taken from me. Failing at the one thing my sister and brother in law trusted me to do. I have failed at a lot of things, but this wasn’t going to be one of them. I loved Deacon and I would do anything for him. He was innocent in all of this and it killed me that he wouldn’t remember the amazing people that his parents were.

I used to wait until Deacon was in bed for the night and cry myself to sleep. I have felt like such a failure as if I wasn’t raising him the way my sister would. Then I finally realized I’m not because I am not my sister. She trusted me enough to love her son and I do with everything in me. Once I started to do the best I could and not trying to be someone else everything just sort of fell into place.

I think the fact that I have this great job with good benefits help, and the fact that Deacon is a very good baby. I just hate spending so much time away from him, but it has to be done in order to pay the bills. I make sure I give him extra lovins on the days we have to be a part for so long. I am just glad to have most weekends off. Skylar is a really great boss.