The Sigma Wolf

Chapter 26- Lost.

Ajax

I was exiting my place when I witnessed the cozy encounter… Alan held hands with Susie… they whispered their goodbyes, and then he kissed her… f*****g HELL! The pain inside my chest was almost unbearable. My wolf growled, and I immediately returned to my place, trying to calm the fury and agony that invaded me.

It was just a f*****g kiss, but I knew right then and there that I had lost her forever. I knew she was infatuated with the bastard, and instead of coming clean, I chose to keep hiding who she was to me. After she ran away from me like a scaredy-cat, I decided to keep some distance, giving her time to get around things and maybe talk it over… Unfortunately, I was too dumb, and now it was too late.

I wanted to go to her place and barge in there, mainly to rip the bastard apart, but I knew that most certainly would hurt her and, in the end, she would end up hating me. I picked up my phone and dialed Gio… “Man, can you come over?” He sighed,

“On my way,” were the three words he muttered. A minute later, he walked inside our place alone. And I was thankful for that because he barely stays a few minutes away from his mate.

I was sitting on the living room couch, my body slumped forward, my hands holding my head, while my eyes couldn't stop from dropping tears onto the plush carpet. He patted my back and sighed,

“You saw them, right?” He said, and I just managed to nod my head. “I knew you would call me over because she said she had a boyfriend…” Gio informed me, and my head snapped up.

“What?” I growled, and he lifted his hands in surrender. It was not his fault, but I couldn't help but be very angry about the entire situation. I thought we had a connection, I thought she had felt it, and I thought she was confused. So why did she decide to erase me without even giving me a chance?

“I'm lost…” I managed to say, and he sighed,

“You knew it was a possibility… hiding the mate bond would risk losing her…” Gio finished, and I nodded,

“But we kissed, and I felt her… she wanted me as much as I wanted her…” I sighed, and he patted my back. I hated that he was doing it because I felt as if he felt pity for my self-created situation.

“Give it time. I don't like him. There is something that does not add up…” he said, and I sighed.

“Did I tell you, Mr. Costas gave me a folder with future Luna candidates?” I sighed, and he gasped. My agreement with my father didn't include forced dates while I was studying.

“What the f**k?” He sighed, and I nodded,

“Maybe you should date them and see if they can help cope with what is happening…” Gio suggested, and I shook my head.

“No, it is her, or no one…” I said stubbornly.

“Well, somehow you managed to push her away… instead of reeling her in…” He sighed. “Give it some thought. Maybe you can spike some jealousy in her and make her realize what a waste of time it is to date Alan…” Gio said, and I nodded.

“You must be missing your mate, and I want to drink…” I said, and he sighed…

“Alright, man, I will keep you posted if I find anything else…” Gio said and I nodded.

Should I date other women and show her what she is missing? But doesn't that lead them on? Making them believe I am interested in them? I sighed and stood up. I opened my backpack and retrieved the yellow folder. I pulled the papers out and gasped. The first choice in the ist was Gracie… No f*****g way, I will comply with this dumb idea, but on the other hand, taking her out and humiliating her could be a good way of getting back at her for what she did to Susie in the movies…

Decisions, decisions….

Susie

The kiss was below average. There was no spark, no fire, no lust, and definitely no tingles. While his lips moved over mine, I could only think of the breathtaking kiss Ajax had given me days ago. I wanted to repeat it, and I even craved more.

Why do I feel this way? Alan has been the love of my life, and suddenly, Ajax is flipping the entire thing around. I should be elated, but somehow, I am mourning something that was never meant to be. Why?

This is the dream of a lifetime, coming reality, but somehow, I don't want it anymore. Should I talk to Alan? Or maybe I should wait and see how things progress… after all, one kiss and one date are not enough to determine a successful future ahead. But then, why did I feel I could have an amazing future next to Ajax with just two outings and a kiss? I am certainly overthinking.

Then, there was also the fact that when he kissed me, I heard a growl. One that made me tremble and shiver, not in excitement but in pain. I felt pain and betrayal… odd feelings when I should have been elated that, finally, I was being kissed by the love of my life.

“Alan and I are official!…” I said, trying to muster my biggest smile. Maggie dropped a plate, Di and Gio's jaw dropped, but the oddest reaction of all was Mike's…

“What the f**k are you talking about?” he growled, his reaction close to being feral.

“Hey, I thought you would be happy for me…” I sighed, and he closed his eyes, masking deeper feelings; he smiled at me, an empty smile at that, and then sighed,

“Sorry, I was just shocked…” he said, and I rolled my eyes.

“Don't be so thrilled about me…” I patted his back, and he nodded.

“Of course, I am… I wish you the best…” He sighed. “Now, if you excuse me, I am still recovering from the mean hangover…” He chuckled, and I nodded.

“Weird…” I asked, and Maggie and Di shrugged their shoulders. I realized that Gio was not there,

“Where is your mate?” I asked, and Diana sighed,

“Ajax called him; it seemed urgent…” She said, and I bit my lower lip.

“I am tired. So I will go to bed.” I gave them a soft smile and went upstairs to my room. Ajax… just bringing his name to my memory makes my chest hurt… I am sure what was supposed to be a very happy and special occasion is turning out to be bittersweet. I should be out of this world happy because it happened; Alan and I are in a committed relationship… but why do I feel so sad?

After taking a shower and wearing my most comfy pajama set, I decided to step onto my balcony… I sat on the cocoon swing I had there and tried to relax. I stared at the sky, and the moon shined brightly above. “Moon Goddess, please, why do I feel this way?” I sighed and then broke down crying…

The air carried the scent of sandalwood and forest, a scent I had scented before and one that soothed my soul… I had no idea where it came from, but it was like a blanket covering and protecting me from heartache.

Mike

My reaction was atypical, and of course, it should be. Alan moved forward with his plan and didn't even tell me about it. When Susie announced they were official, pain invaded me, and despite knowing it was all a ruse for his father to pass the position onto him, the pain was real.

Susie saw right through me despite trying to mask it. I managed to excuse my odd behavior, blame the hangover from last night, and then return to my room. Immediately, I dialed his phone…

“What the f**k?” I said between gritted teeth,

“No good night, my love, nothing?” Alan replied, and I sighed.

“I was just taken aback…” I said, and he chuckled,

“She didn't even hesitate… she jumped right in… I am sure that with time, my father will be convinced, and soon my Alpha ceremony will be underway…” He said triumphantly.

“How about her heart?” I asked, now sobered up; his plan sucked…

“She will find his mate and get over it… Plain and simple…” He dismissed the entire idea that he would end up breaking her heart.

“I am not so sure about it…” I mumbled, and he sighed,

“Love, I am doing all this for us… so please, don't judge the process,” he pleaded, and I sighed… “Now, get your ass into Pupeteers… I have a room with your name in it,” he said, and I sighed. I just blamed my terrible reaction to a hangover, and now they will see me going out again… f**k!.

“I will see you there… Text me the room number…” I said, and he chuckled,

"That's my lover…” He praised me, and despite feeling sick and awful about what he had just done to my friend, I decided to indulge in a night of passion and lovemaking with my mate. After all, he is doing all of that for us.