Mr. Complicated
1381 Words
“I don’t.” I don’t know if he was convinced with what I just said because I myself isn’t. But I try my best to look him in the eye and not back down from his scrutinizing gaze. There was a fire in his eyes something that made my knees tremble.
Don’t back down. I should never give him the satisfaction nor the slightest chance to play with my heart again.
I leaned my back to the wall for support and crossed my arm above my chest, still not averting my gaze.
I don’t love him anymore. And even if I do, he doesn’t deserve my feelings. I’m good. I’ve moved on. He’s just playing with me. He would never feel the same.
I chanted those words at the back of my mind the way I used to chant it before. It became a habit because I had to constantly remind myself over the past two years that he will never reciprocate my feelings. I’ve chanted it more than I could count;
Whenever I feel lonely;
Whenever I miss him;
Whenever I feel like I want to go back to the pack and make a bigger fool out of myself and beg him again to love me.
I’ve succeeded before. I won’t fail now.
“You said it yourself, Sir,” I intentionally stressed over his title. “You don’t go into personal relationships with your employees. I’d like to keep it that way as well.”
“Hmmm… I did didn’t I?” He acted as if he was thinking but I didn’t buy it. I’m sure he remembered because Sean is one freaking genius. A hot sexy guy with a smart brain to top it all. No one can blame me if I fell for him hard.
Even if you fall for him again?
No! I won’t.
I was too busy arguing with myself that it barely registered to me that he already crossed the space between us and is already leaning his hand on the wall beside my head. He smirked before he leaned closer and whispered to my ear.”I can always make an exemption. I’m the boss after all.”
The moment his hot breath touched my skin, I felt like being hit with a lightning bolt. Sparks crawled from my nape to every nerve ending I have. My toes curled inside my flats and my stomach churn in knots. My sweats beaded on my forehead and I felt them roll down to my hairline.
Hot! Hot! Hot!
On reflex, I slide to the other side as fast as I can but I wasn’t fast enough. He stopped me by putting his other arm on my other side. “Now there’s nowhere to run.” He gave me that lopsided smile that made my heart go on overdrive.
“I’m not running away.”
“Aren’t you? Then why did you leave the pack without a word?”
“I… Nana gave me her permission!”
“But I didn’t.”
“I didn’t have to ask you.”
“I am your alpha!” His voice boomed inside the room and for a moment I was shaken.
“Was. You ‘were’ my alpha, but not anymore.” His jaw tightened with my defiance that I can easily say how pissed he is right now.
Stupid mouth! Why can’t I keep it close?
I didn’t know where I got the courage to talk back to him like I just did. But I refuse to back down. It’s not because I wasn’t afraid of him. On the contrary, I feel like I’m going to turn to a melted marshmallow any minute.
He took a moment longer to process what I just said before his eyes surveyed down to my neck to where my mark should be.
s**t! What if he snaps my neck.
He squinted his green orbs before he pulls away from his arms and straightened up. Then, he lifts his hands and smirked at me. “There. That’s right. Learn how to fight back.”
He turns around and walked to the table leaving me wondering about what just happened.
When I turn to him, he’s already seated and looking back at me with a raised brow. “What are you standing there for?”
“I-I… I’ll go out then. Enjoy your meal.” I turn around not wanting to stay any longer inside his office
“Wait. I didn’t tell you to leave.”
“Huh?” Didn’t he mean just that?
“I can’t possibly eat all of this by myself. You love seafood too, go take a seat and eat.”
Again, I was dumbfounded. How did he know I love seafood? We barely have them back in the packhouse because wolves are naturally meat-eaters. Even if we have them, only Aurora gets to eat them because she’s the former Beta’s daughter. I had to go fish myself if I really want to eat them and that’s a mile walk from the pack’s territory.
My mouth watered from the delicious scent when he opened the lid that contains the buttered shrimp.
“Don’t make me repeat myself, Felicity.” He warned.
“I-i… I ‘m already full.” I lied but my stomach betrayed me. It growled shamelessly that my face turned to beat red with embarrassment.
“Sit.” He ordered, his voice now promising sudden death.
“Okay, okay!” I sprinted back and took a seat in front of him.
He snorted but didn’t say another word. Instead, he forked a huge piece of shrimp and put it on my plate. “Eat. You’re too thin for my preference.”
What the heck is wrong with this man? I wanted to talk back but decided to let it pass. He went on ahead and sliced the medium-rare steak without looking back at me again.
Watching him eat heartily is one of the things that I missed much about him.
Woah! I shook my head but I couldn’t look away. He had always loved Nana’s cooking and never eats anything else than that, well aside from the ones I made for him without him knowing. I guess being alpha with threats all around made him too skeptical.
But now, he didn’t even bother to check the food. He just digs in and ate…’ happily?’ His face is serious and stern, but there’s something different about him that says he’s now in a good mood. I know. I’ve spent every day of my teenage years watching him.
Somehow that made me smile. He is quite temperamental and no one would know when he’d snap. One moment he’s like a volcano ready to erupt. Now, he’s like a kid who just got his reward.
I sighed silently before I start eating. He’s been too familiar yet something is different about him.
Ugh! I think I will go crazy if I try to think about it more. I’ll just savor this until he explodes again and there’s no telling when that’ll be.
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