Forever Mine *Virginia*

Chapter 6

Virginia

I wake up, and I realize that I must have lost my mind. I smell Beck all around me. I groan. At this point, I belong in an institution, because clearly I am a crazy, dumb b!tch. They should hold interventions to get me to forget Beckham forever. They should slap me until I can't even think straight anymore. I sigh. I should not be smelling him or even be thinking about him anymore, and I definitely shouldn't miss him.

That dream last night didn't help. It felt so real. As if he was here and hugged and kissed me. He actually cared. In reality, he probably took diner girl home. Seriously Virginia. Snap out of it. He isn't the man I thought he was and that is okay. We all make mistakes. I gave my all to the wrong person. I am just glad that I got this little push I needed, and now my eyes are wide open. Beckham is a user. He used me until he no longer could. I wonder if I was just good for his ego? I now realize that I always loved him more. I loved him so freaking much. That is why this hurts so badly. But, he is finally cut off. I place my hand on my belly, considering all my possibilities. I am angry that I even have to consider all of these things. I should be happy right now.

I get up, feeling so much rage, but I am nearly knocked down by the feeling coming up and out of me. I run to the restroom. I barely make it to the toilet bowl, before I open my mouth and puke. I hate this feeling, but once there is nothing left, and I can calmly breathe again, I feel fine. Still a bit nauseous, but okay.

I go about my day, and later I get a text from Beckham asking if we can meet to talk. I know that is not possible right now. If I see him, I will break down. What if he wants to tell me that he loves her? That he made diner girl his girlfriend and never wants to see me again? What if he is going to marry her and give her everything he promised me? It would be best to know, but I just can't. I need some time. I decide to respond with a simple message to get my point across. "Sorry Beckham, I can't right now. I need some time to think about things, and I am really busy with school and work. Maybe we can catch up next weekend when I am back in town. I won't get a day off until then. I will shoot you a message when I am back home. Have a good day!" That should give me some time to figure out how I will tell him and go about this pregnancy. Thinking about the future has me wanting to puke again, so instead I lie on the couch and scroll through my phone. I decide to call my sister Cali real quick.

"Hello, are you okay?" she asks as soon as she picks up the phone. "No, how do I get over this sickness. Being pregnant and heartbroken is making me feel really broken," I begin crying. "Virginia. Want me to come over there?" she asks me. No, sorry I am not crying for Beckham, by the way. I am crying because I feel ill," I say. "It can feel bad, but just think about the little miracle that you will be blessed with," she says. She sounds so happy and I know she is. She and James wanted this. The realization of it all hits me like a damn train hitting me and k!lling me. I will never know how that feels. I know I can't get rid of my baby, but I wont get to know what it feels for you to have a loving, supportive partner throughout my pregnancy. At least I have my family. "Virginia. How about we have a bbq next weekend, and you let us pamper you?" my sister asks. Forever in mom mode. She always did this after mom died. Especially for me, because I was the baby. Let me pamper you has always been a way for her to make sure we are okay mentally. "Okay," I say, because I need my family so much right now. "I will make sure the guys don't invite Beckham, unless you want him here. Did you talk to him?" she asks me. "Please do not invite him. We are going to talk when I am back in town." I say. "Great, well if you change your mind, we can invite him, but right now just focus on getting school done, you and baby. That's it!

We need a calm and happy mama. I know its easier said than done, sister, but I promise whatever you are feeling right now, you won't always feel this. It will get better. You won't always feel this way. Both pregnancy and your heart. You have us all rooting for you, and we will all help you in whatever way you need us. You call me if you need anything and I will be there. James, daddy, we are all here. You are not alone," she says. I wipe the tears from my face. "I love you, sister. I will see you next weekend." I say. "Love you, the timer for the cupcakes rang, gotta go!" Cali sings and hangs up. I wish I had some of her cupcakes right about now. There's no way my baby would not love auntie Cali's sweets. I see the new message from Beckham and read it. "Okay. I love you! If you need anything, I am here," I scoff and throw my phone on the bed. I decide to get ready and go and spend the day at the makeup convention that is in town, and later I want to go to the library to either study, or catch up on Ella's new book. There is no reason for me to stay in and cry all day. No-one is worth that many tears, not even Beckham.

Beckham

I check my phone again. Still no reply from Virginia. I listen to my buddy Two go on and on about some chick he met at the bar. How she was so beautiful, but he didn't get her name, but that he hopes to run into her again so he can take her on a date. He says she is the most beautiful girl in the world and how next time he will not only ask her for her number, but he wants to ask her to be his wife. He claims that's how much of an impact she left on him. I should have asked Virginia to marry me as soon as we graduated high school. Yes, we would have been young, and we still are young now, but she is the love of my life, and now I really f*cked it all up. I am annoyed listening to him go on and on about his perfect girl, so I decide to give up with conversation, and since it is still early enough, I will go get a couple of things done.

I hop in the shower and lather myself with soap. As I wash my hair out, I decide that I need to go speak to that girl and set boundaries. I can't just say I will do it. I need to actually do it, so I finish up. I get out, get dry and get dressed. I know mom is working, because she almost never takes a damn day off, so I will see her while I am there. I grab all of my things and head out of the door.

The door announces me. Some people look over, others are just enjoying their meals or their cups of coffee. As soon as the chick's eyes land on me, she smiles. I do not smile, but I will admit I am glad she is here. I was unsure if she would be. I do not know her work schedule, and I do not want to have to be looking for her. I don't want anyone to get the wrong idea, especially her, which judging by her smile and her eagerly walking over here, she already has the wrong idea.

"Beckham, you know what they say, third times the charm," she bats her lashes at me. "I need to talk to you, but in private, where no-one can see us," I say, realizing that some people who know some people are here, and I do not need anyone running their mouth while I am trying to clear this up and win my girl back. "Oh," her eyes light up even more. She drag her eyes down my body and back up. She smirks. "I know just the place, follow me," she says. I am following her when Tilly, Tyler's mom, walks out from the back. "Beck, son, how are you?" she asks. "I am great." I say. She looks from me to the girl and back. Her smile gives her away, and I know I am screwed, but as a last minute ditch effort I say. "Oh, this waitress is helping me find my mom," I say. "Lianne. This waitress's name is Lianne," she says. I nod my head, not even caring about her name. "Alright, well go meet with her. I know how much she misses you. She is in the back," she tells me, and I nod. The waitress, who I now know as Lianne, keeps walking until we get to a door, and she pushes it open, and we walk through it. There are a bunch of supplies for a restaurant here. I turn to her. "Lianne, look, I don't know you and you do not know me." I begin telling her, but she starts pulling her skirt down. "We have to be quick. They know we are together," she says quickly. "Whoa, whoa, whoa," I hold my hands up. "I just came here to tell you to stay away from me. I have no idea why you kissed me last night, but I already belong to someone else, and I just wanted to be real clear with you, and let you know that I want you to stay far away from me," I tell her and turn around and walk out the door.

I walk out and almost crash into mom. "Beck, why do you look like you seen a ghost?" she chuckles, but if she only knew what I just saw. All of a sudden, I feel my butt being squeezed and Lianne walks over to my side. "Hi, your son and I were just catching up, but here, let me get those dishes for you. See you later Beckham. You can stop by and visit me anytime," Lianne says, and walks back with the pile of dishes. My mother frowns, and her eyes immediately get tears in them, but she doesn't say anything. I know she won't. She loves Virginia so much, but she will never interfere in my personal life. She has always allowed me to make my open decisions. "It's not what you think," I say. "I don't think anything Beck," she tells me. "Your face gives you away," I tell her. "Well, I was caught off guard. From the last conversation we had, you told me you were getting Virginia back, and today I find you coming to visit with the new waitress. I guess I am just confused," she tells me, and I know I am so screwed. "I did not come to visit her mom. I came here to tell her to leave me alone. She kissed me, and Virginia saw. Do you realize the gravity of this situation?" I ask her. Her eyes are wide. "I have to get back to work son." she sighs. "Stop by later, so we can finish this conversation," she tells me as she walks away to take more orders. I make my way back home, and get on my laptop. I search for the closest flower shop to Virginia and I order the biggest flower arrangement for her. I lie back on the couch and check my social media. A follow request. I click on the picture of 4 little boys 69.Lianne.69 is the username. Pictures of Lianne, and 4 kids pop up on the screen. There's only 6 pictures, so not much to look at. In fact, it looks like a pretty new profile. I reject the friend request and block her all together. I scroll through a couple of videos, and Virginia pops up. She has very bright makeup on her face. She is smiling from ear to ear as she talks to a man. I notice that she was tagged in this video. "Great to meet you and can't wait to start working with you. You really are a joy to be around. @DallasReyBrowne was right, you really are the best. And yes, she is single." the caption reads. It even ends with a winking emoji face. The way I smash my phone on the ground is not normal. I need help and a new phone.