His Rejected 'Queen'.

Too 'Close'...

"They both need to find the right distance between them... Too close and they both get overwhelmed, too far and he feels lost without her while she feels safe but in reality she is half without him..."

Daniel's pov

I follow her weak scent in the long, main corridor that leads to the back side of the garden but somewhere after I have walked about the half of it the scent suddenly stops.

Where is she?

How could she disappear like this?

After I talked with Ellie I began walking around the hall to find her but she was nowhere to be found and in the end I spotted Hunter but alone so I decided to leave the ball's hall and follow her scent after I caught it.

I just can't understand why she hates me so much!

The only thing I did was to ask her have a dance with me and she just run away like I have a disease or something. She is avoiding me with no reason at all. If she has any problem then why isn't she telling me? I do not eat people and if she is still mad at me about what happened some days ago with the attacks then she can talk to me about it, I am more than willing to listen to her.

It just hurts like hell to know that she has a problem with me and doesn't allow us to deal with it and get it solved.

I stop walking where her scent stops and look around me searching for the smallest clue to which direction she went but nothing seems abnormal and how could it be when it is just a simple corridor?

It is pointless, if Iris doesn't want me to find her then I won't no matter how I try...

"Daniel!"

I instantly turn around to see Caroline walking to me in hurry with a nervous expression on her face and I instinctually stiffen worried. I know her for my whole life, I can read her face and body language, something happened...

"Caroline what is it? Why are you here?" I ask shortly and take some steps to her.

We reach each other some seconds later and stop with about ten inches separating us. I look deeply into her big eyes and she gives me a forced, awkward smile that doesn't help me at all. I am a mess because of Iris' disappearance and now she makes me worse.

"Are you alright?" I ask her again more impatient than before and she shakes her head timidly.

"I am honey but... I want to tell you something I happened to see and you need to deal with." She replies and takes my right hand in hers.

"You are scaring me... Is it serious?" I ask breathless and she shakes her head negatively.

"Some minutes ago I was witness of a fight that Samantha had with... Iris, the fighter we saw..." she says calmly and I instinctually start shaking.

I f*****g knew it! Samantha is too jealous to act appropriately, not that she knows generally what this means but...

Damn it! I should have already killed her.

"Find this slut!" my wolf roars and I take a deep breath trying not to make any stupidity in front of Caroline.

"What did she do to Iris?" I ask through my teeth and my hands turn into fists.

"Daniel, calm down. The fighter is more than alright. How can Samantha hurt a woman like Iris? She just... Um... She was demanding from Iris to bow and threw wine on her dress... I appeared the moment Samantha tried to slap Iris but she had already stopped her." She explains quickly and I let out a loud, angry growl.

"I... WILL KILL HER!" I whisper and I am sure my eyes turn black but a weak, warm smile from Caroline and I stop shaking and growling.

"Calm down, nothing happened. I interfered before things get out of limits. I got rid of Samantha after I put her in her place and helped Iris go to her room because she was pale and too overwhelmed, I cleaned her dress and left her to calm down a bit." She continues and I feel my heart aching in pain.

"Is she hurt?" I ask breathless ready to go and find her but I feel my legs too weak to walk right now.

"She is alright honey, she was just too angry. You know... She wanted some air from before Samantha makes her appearance and what happened next made her worse. She is going to be alright, give the poor girl some time."

"But um... Caroline, you know..." I say but pause nervously.

Can I tell her how I feel about Iris and Diana? I mean, Diana is my mate and she knows and now that I am so confused...

Damn me!

I can't be okay when I hear what happened a while ago and I know that I am responsible for this. Samantha was planning it, she is an i***t, I know but still she is a woman and she can do so cheap things, it's not a surprise and Iris had to live something like this because I hadn't thought about it and I left her exposed again!

"Daniel, do you have feelings for the young fighter?" Caroline asks bringing me back to reality.

Okay, now it is your opportunity Daniel! You can do it, she is too kind with great understanding.

"Can I ask you something?" I ask her back and she nods smirking in a meaningful way.

"Remember when you saw my future last time? You told me you saw real love and that it isn't dead... Who did you see? Diana? Is she alive?" I whisper and she opens her eyes widely surprised.

"Um... I saw no face, I just saw true love and... What is happening to you Daniel? Diana... Is she alive?" she asks obviously shocked and I sigh nervously.

No result...

"I don't know, I talked with her brother after a dream I had... He is not sure if she is alive or not and... All these began from the moment I saw Iris. Something is happening here, I am sure but also confused. Can I be in love with both of them?" I ask desperately and she shakes her head opening her eyes widely in confusion.

"I think that... It can happen considering the fact that Diana was your mate..."

"Is my mate!" I correct her immediately.

"Daniel, you rejected her." She says annoyed.

"But she didn't accept it." I speak back in frustration.

"How do you know it for sure?"

"I felt no pain!"

"Daniel... You are too strong and she might have accepted it without you realizing it. So... Stop being so selfish. You want everything for yourself even if you were wrong and treated her too unfairly." She says in a quite strict tone and I lower my head sighing ashamed.

Shit, s**t, s**t!

Can she have accepted my rejection? Is she alive? Can she be somewhere with someone else on her side?

Damn it!

"Daniel... What about Iris? What is wrong with you?"She asks me again dragging me away from my thoughts.

"I... Think I am falling in love with her and I am getting crazy. I am confused, I want both of them and in the thought that Diana is somewhere alive and planned her death to hurt me I am losing my mind!" I murmur nervously.

"Um... Okay, this is a lot to take. I had never thought that something like this could happen..." she says confused.

"Can you help me? Is there any way to find out if Diana is alive or not?" I ask her some seconds later and she blinks her eyes surprised.

"Excuse me? Daniel do you think that this type of things can happen according to an order? I can't do everything, I am not a God! I just can see some things from the past and future." She almost yells making me narrow my eyes confused.

What is wrong with her? She is acting weirdly!

"See my future then. Please!" I say giving her my left hand and making her take a step back nervously.

"Why do you want to see your future again in less than a month?" she asks shortly.

"And why are you acting like this? What is wrong with you?" I ask back ignoring her question.

She sighs thoughtfully looking around us and nods weakly defeated. She takes my hand and closes her eyes and I do the same in my turn. I take a deep breath to relax as much as I can and wait patiently.

This time I start feeling the pleasant energy I felt the last time but... Some seconds later I feel a weak pain filling my heart and Devon lets out some low, painful howls like he is mourning.

No! Don't tell me that Diana is really dead!

"Open your eyes Daniel. We are done." I listen to Caroline whispering some seconds later and I open them widely in agony.

She has a very tired yet nervous expression and her eyes are filled with wary so...

"What is it?" I ask her panicked.

"Get ready Daniel... You have a very hard path in front of you." She says and leaves my hand taking one step back and lowering her head.

"What does this suppose to mean? Is it about Diana? Iris? Who?"

"I do not know... The only thing for sure it that your life is going to change forever..."

"When?"

"Too soon!"

~some time later, city, club~

Diana's (Iris') pov

"Here is your vodka my beautiful lady with the black, short dress..." Hunter says close to my ear handing me a glass of vodka with ice and sits next to me on the bar.

He brought me for clubbing and I have to admit that it is the first time I am happy I am in a club with so many other people around me and so loud noise. Every time that Violet was dragging me in a club I was feeling nervous but this time it feels relieving and I guess that it is because I need to release my nervousness and also because Hunter is with me. His presence is so relaxing and helpful for me and Destiny that makes everything feel better than under other circumstances without him by my side.

Everything was done like he told me...

I got changed too quickly when he mind linked me, Caroline surely delayed Daniel and I run to the parking lot to find Hunter already inside Landon's car waiting for me and once I got in he announced me that I was perfectly dressed for what he had in mind.

And yes!

I am wearing one of the shortest dresses I have ever seen and it was one of the dresses Violet bought for me and put in my luggage and I feel great about it.

It is black, narrow, simple, and sleeveless and the fact that I have my hair still on the bun makes it more revealing but who cares?

"What is this genius mind of yours thinking baby?" Hunter asks me while placing one arm around my waist and pulling me a bit closer to him.

God!

I can say I love his touch and I don't know from when and his scent...

Oranges and cinnamon, just kill me already.

"Nothing... Just what happened with Samantha and Daniel." I reply shortly and he nods in understanding.

I have already told him while we were in the car what this b***h did and what happened with Caroline and he tried to make me forget about it but t is difficult, it was too sudden and intense.

"Baby... Stop thinking about them for now. We came here to have fun and relax." He says tightening his hold around me and taking his glass of whiskey in his hand.

"Cheers?" he says smiling and I nod taking mine.

"Cheers!" I murmur and we both drink a big sip of our drinks.

Thanks God for vodka!

I am never going to get bored of it, I am in love if I may say.

"They will be all looking for us... We will be everyone's main topic. The way we left like someone was chasing us..." he murmurs smirking ironically and I laugh resting my head on his shoulder.

"Actually, someone was chasing us... The asshole!" I say and he bursts into laughter.

"You call him asshole?" he asks surprised and I nod.

"Why? Am I wrong? Isn't he?"

"Yeah he is... And do you know why?"

"Why? Because he is a manwhore?" I ask confused but he shakes his head negatively.

"Because he rejected you!" he whispers softly and begins caressing my waist sending pleasant electric waves all over my body and making Destiny howl ecstatic.

Yes, this is my horny wolf!

"He did the right thing! I am glad he did because I would be miserable with him." I say turning my body on his and wrapping my hands around his neck.

I really like him, I mean...

It is the first time after Gray I feel like this for a man, it is not so much about s****l desire but I feel comfortable in a special way. He is the first not so close to me man that makes me feel important, okay and Land but with Hunter is more intense.

I wrap my hands around his neck and he wraps his other hand around my waist as well. Now we are fully hugged at the bar and I bury my face in his neck. It feels right to be completely honest, I do not care about being seen with a man like this, I don't care about the music or the crowd, all I think of is us.

"We need this kind of love, see?" Destiny whispers and purs.

I know that she means the love in a more erotic way because until now we have all the love we want from our friends and family and it is the first time I think I can agree.

I know that until now I couldn't think of myself with any other man and after Grayson I am refusing to give myself a chance to love again but with Hunter... It feels right and I see he feels the same way and maybe more than me. He made his interest in me clear from the first moment we met before he find out who I am also they all know there is something between us and...

I believe I want to give it a try but not now, after we are done from here I can have a talk with him about it. If he wants of course!

Grayson would be happy, my family would be happy, Destiny would be happy but...

What about his mate?

We have never talked about it and what if she is somewhere out there?

"Do you want to dance?" he asks me softly caressing my waist and I pull back to look at him even if it quite dark in here.

No mood to dance. Maybe I have to ask him... I need to know, right?

"Hunt can I ask you something?" I ask timidly and he nods immediately.

"Do you have a mate?" I ask shyly and feel my cheeks burning quickly.

Am I acting like a starving b***h right now?

I mean... I am pushing things further now and maybe he doesn't want to and...

"Diana, you do nothing wrong!" Destiny protests in frustration.

I do not give her any reply, I just stare into Hunter's big, green eyes nervously and feel my heartbeat raising. He looks hurt and...

I am an i***t!

"I am sorry, I... It is not my place to ask." I say apologetically and try to pull back and break our hug but he doesn't allow it to happen.

"You don't have to be sorry... It was about time to ask me and I am glad you did because... I wanted to have a talk with you and I didn't know how to tell you. Um... We can talk about it but not here. Do you want a drive with the car outside the city?" he says and I nod without second thought.

He smiles, pulls back breaking our hug and takes my hand in his. We get out of the club in hurry and walk at the back side of it where we have parked the car at the parking lot. Once we get in the car Hunter turns it on and soon we are getting out of the city in a road that leads deeply inside the forest and the exact opposite direction of the palace.

The drive is silent and peaceful and I have mixed feelings...

From the one hand I enjoy it because I am with Hunter and every second with him is pleasant but from the other hand I feel that something is not the same and this is...

His mood.

He is hurting and I don't know why, he is nervous and too thoughtful and Destiny has her eyes perked in alert.

I wish I have done nothing that made him feel like this because the last thing I want is to make him suffer even in the slightest way.

"Relax Diana... You are more nervous than I am..." he says after some time and gradually slows down to finally stop the car at the edge of a cliff.

I really want to talk at this point but the view is breathtaking with the forest right in front of us, the full moon shining and the sky clear and full of stars.

"It is magical..." I whisper amused with my eyes locked on the moon.

"With you everything is magical!" he says gently and takes my hand in his as I am turning my head to him.

I am sure I am blushing because he smiles warmly and brings my hand close to his lips to kiss it. The moment his lips touch my skin a wave or warmth travels all over my body and I take a deep, relieving breath giving him a shy smile.

"I need to tell you some things but there is no reason for you to worry. Soon you will understand that it is me that has to be nervous..." he says timidly and I stiffen forcing a smile.

Kill me more Hunter!

"Okay... So?" I say impatiently.

"You asked me about my mate some time ago, right? Well, I never met her but... I felt this extremely strong pain that almost kills you at the age of 19 when she died." He says with a melancholic smile and I lose my breath one second later when I manage to understand what he just told me.

Shit!

"She is... Dead?" I ask him shocked and he just nods while looking the forest in front of us with a blank expression.

"Yes... You know how it feels like to feel alone, like you are completely alone with no one next to you. You may have family, friends, pack, money, strength but in reality you are alone because the one that was supposed to be with you is gone and nothing can bring him back." He murmurs and tightens his hold around my hand.

"That's why you fainted when I told you about Grayson..." I whisper and he nods still without looking at me.

"You know... I took it as a sign when I proceed what you told me after I went back to my room." he says and finally turns and his eyes meet mine.

They are full of hurt, there is no doubt about it but I can also distinguish a sparkle in them that makes my heart skip a beat.

"Diana... I had never thought that I would find someone to love or even want after that but everything changed from the first moment my eyes met yours. I felt my heart reacting for the first time and my wolf got crazy for you. Later my feelings just grew bigger and more intense. I am sure you know how I feel about you. You are a clever woman and I have never hidden my interest for you and I will never do it. I could have never imagined that you would be the rejected Queen and Aiden's sister or the rest of your story but... Everything is happening for a reason for me and when you told me that you were rejected and lost your second mate I..."

"You felt a connection, didn't you?" I cut him off and he nods.

"So did I just some time ago..." I admit timidly and he gives me a big, bright smile.

"Diana... I know that you may be confused, too frustrated, pressured, overwhelmed and worried because of the situation you are in but... I need to be clear with you. I mean, say it officially." He says sighing and leaning a bit closer to me.

He takes my other hand as well and clears his throat nervously with his eyes never leaving mine and Destiny is already a step away from howling excited about what we both know he is going to say.

God, it feels like a dream!

"Diana, I am in love with you and the more time we spend together the more I love you and everything else related to you. I am not going to pressure you or ask you to decide about us right now. I can feel that you are also feeling something and I have hopes for us... I... I love you Diana and I want to be with you when we leave from here. I want a life with you, I want to be your mate, I want to protect, love and make you happy for the rest of my life. I want us." He says in the sweetest, most confident yet soft way there is and I can't hold back my big, shy smile.

He cups my face in his hands the next second and leans even closer to me. Our faces are now some inches away from each other's and I breathe his exhales drown in him.

I may not be able to say I am in love with him but I do love him, Hunter is a great man and I want him in my life but I just can't say it now. I need to get away from here, calm down and spend time with him alone.

"I know you want your time my Queen and I am more than willing to wait. The last thing I want is to stress you more. I will be by your side no matter what your answer will be. I just want to know if you are okay with everything I told you." He continues and I nod blushing even more.

"I am... I love you and I surely need time. After we leave from here we will have the opportunity to focus on us! I don't want to lose you." I say trembling and he smiles again relieved.

"Can I ask you just a thing?" he asks me huskily with purr lust in his eyes and I instinctually nod.

"Can I have only one kiss and a hug?"

~too early in the morning, palace's parking lot~

We get out of the car and Hunter locks it.

I can't hide the big smile I have from the moment I woke up and before you say a thing let me tell you that nothing too spicy happened.

Yes, I accepted to kiss Hunter once and it was a long and gently kiss that made me melt and after this we saw the stars falling and later fell asleep at the back sit hugged.

And it was one of the best nights of my life and I am excited.

Hunter makes everything seem even better and I love it.

I walk to his side and take off his jacket, he gave it to me last night to keep me warm and as you can imagine he is the sweetest man there is on earth right now.

"Thank you for everything! I loved it." I whisper hugging him and he hugs me back kissing my forehead.

"I have to thank you baby. Do you know that you made me the happiest man there is?" he asks me smiling and I blush again biting my lower lip.

"Diana don't do this..." he warns me huskily with his eyes turning a bit darker and I let out a low laughter.

"Okay, I am sorry..."

"Are you sure you don't want to eat and you will be alright alone?" he asks me then and I nod immediately.

"The more I avoid him for now the better. I am not that hungry for now anyway, I will go and grab something from the kitchen later. Destiny needs a run and I can't say no to her..." I reply and he shakes his head in understanding.

"Okay then. If you need anything mind link me. Be careful, deal?"

"Yes sir! Once I come back I will come to find you and the guys!" I say and kiss his cheek.

"I will be waiting for you!" he whispers and after he gives me one more kiss on the top of my head we break our hug, I hand him his jacket and walk away heading to the trees some meters in front of me.

I just want to get undressed, hide my clothes and go for a long run with my final destination being the waterfall and maybe I will also swim in the lake to relax more.

"Are you ready?" I ask Destiny.

"I am always ready Diana!" she howls excited and I laugh.

"Okay then. Here we go!"

~at the same time, somewhere too close~

Daniel's pov

I observe her getting lost in the first woods after the parking lot and this i***t walks slowly to the palace after some seconds.

I smirk pleased and get out of the warehouse I am hiding for more than four hours.

Finally!

You will have lots of questions and I am sure you want to know what has happened all these hours so let me tell you as I get undressed, shift and give Devon full control to follow Iris...

Iris...

She may thinks I am an i***t or I lose my interest too easily but she is fooling herself because her avoidance is making things worse for her.

So, as I was about to say after my talk with Caroline she left to go back to the ball and I ordered two guards to go and find me Samantha.

After what she did to Iris it was my job to throw her personally out of the palace and then close all her bank accounts that were full with my money. I warned her to stay away from the palace and Iris and never even dare to appear in front of us and believe me she is lucky I didn't kill her because of the guests and the ball.

When I was done with her I decided to go and check on Iris but I got disappointed as she wasn't in her room and I tried to find her searching the entire palace and the gardens but in vain. I know that what happened next was inappropriate and it was the second time I did it but I couldn't do otherwise so I got in her room again with my keys and the only thing I found was her beautiful dressed hanged on her closet and no trail to where she went.

So...

I thought about a way to deal with the whole situation because believe me I was pretty close to killing someone and this one was Landon who said that had no idea where Iris was and I accidentally saw that his car was missing and also I couldn't see Hunter so...

Guess who is lying for an unknown f*****g reason and doesn't seem to want Iris for himself as he had told me...

Yes, my first Beta and best friend!

The asshole is lying from the beginning and I do not know the reason but I am going to find out everything because I am going to talk with Iris too soon even she likes it or not, I had enough!

So, after I understood that he gave them his car's keys and lied to me which means that is fine with him these two being so close and he obviously doesn't want Iris in an erotic way I made my plan.

I told him that I need a long run because I was a mess and too angry and I left to the other side of the waterfall that leads to the mountains and also I had some guards for witnesses. I had to really leave away from the palace to make sure that Landon really believed it and then I masked my scent and came back to hide in the small warehouse too close to the parking lot and wait for Iris to come back, something that happened some time ago.

And I was right!

Landon really lied and gave them his car's keys so he is trying to keep me away from Iris for a completely different reason than the one he keeps on telling me and he is so f****d once I talk to Iris.

And then comes the second person that is dead once I lay my hands on him and it is Hunter!

I am so f*****g jealous, damn it!

He was with her for the whole night and who knows what they did and it is more than obvious that there is something between them and if I keep on allowing Iris running away from me and I am going to lose her from him and I do not accept it!

"We are here... She is at the waterfall!" Devon informs me shortly after about fifteen minutes and I smirk.

Seems like you can't hide from me anymore Beta... Right now it is time for us to have a serious talk!

Devon gradually slows down keeping the necessary distance from Iris and her wolf in order not to be heard and I take full control getting ready to make my appearance but freeze when her scent gets weaker which means that...

She got in the lake!

Why does she do something like this?

I take some careful steps in order not to make any noise and hide myself behind some bushes and I try to take a look of her even if it still quite dark and when I do I freeze...

She is in her human form with her naked body being half out of the water and...

She is beautiful!

If she wants to kill me then she found the perfect way in her ignorance because I am dying from desire already and even Devon got aroused and took the predator's position.

Why me? Why now?

How am I supposed to react when I see her like this?

I can't breathe and my heart is ready to explode in my chest, I feel ready to collapse and I can't take my eyes from her figure!

She is out of the water from her lower stomach and above and her long brown hair is wet just like her whole body and she is 'facing' me with her eyes closed and a pleased, relaxed expression on her face.

She looks like a Goddess or better a nymph and if I was crazy for her until now then from this moment I am dying for her. I am a man that loves women and I had s*x with so many that I have lost counting and I have seen them all naked too well but I have to admit that Iris is by far the most beautiful woman I have ever seen and the lust I feel right now can't be compared with any other time!

I just want to shift back to my human form, get out of the bushes and run to her and imagine that I haven't even she her whole body, I mean her thighs and legs and...

No! Focus Daniel! She can't find out that you are watching her because then she is going to hate you even more and it will be too creepy. You already can be called a psychopath stalker and at least you have to be discreet and keep on hiding until she leaves.

I can't leave now, she could listen to me and understand and it is the last thing I want and need so we have to talk another time...

Fuck my life! I can't take my eyes from her and I feel my hormones getting out of control!

"I want her now!" Devon whispers huskily with a lust I have never heard in his voice and I sigh nervously.

"We can't do a thing now but I understand you!" I reply shortly and gasp as my eyes travel on her bare body.

She has such a long, beautiful neck, so soft skin, her collar bones are so harmonic and then her breasts damn it!

They are not small or big, they have the best idealistic size and they have the perfect shape and then her stomach and lower belly that makes me want so desperately to see more!

But...

If I see more then I won't be able to hold back and Devon will take full control to make her ours and this mustn't happen now...

Just not now!

I observe her getting her whole body inside the water and pulling her head back with her eyes closed and I listen to her strong exhale. I wish I could be in there with her, hold her, and breathe the same air she does but...

I can't and this is breaking my heart, believe it or not I mean it. Without her is like I am not complete anymore, she has already changed me and it hurts not having her.

Who could have imagined that Iris would make me feel like this?

Now it is clear that I felt something for her from the first second my eyes landed on her and like Diana I tried to push her away and deny it to keep the stupid way of life I had been thinking I wanted!

Shit!

What am I going to do?

I f****d up everything and I still don't know what to do with Diana's topic.

If she is alive then what am I going to do?

Who will I choose when I want both?

"Daniel, she is leaving... See!" Devon says making me gain my thoughts again and I watch her walking to the coast to get out of the lake but she stops after three steps and looks around her worried.

The water reaches again her lower belly and I stiffen nervously ready for what I am about to see next but I suddenly listen to bones breaking, she shifts right in front of my eyes back to her wolf form and the next second I open my eyes widely from her wolf's appearance because she is...

Breathtaking just like Iris!

I observe her walking out of the lake with slow, steady steps and gasp breathless from her beauty with Devon being in worse condition than I am.

She has a unique grey fur that easily looks like silver and she is big as an Alpha if not more... Her big eyes have the exact same color with Iris' and her body is magnificent and the best I have seen in a young she wolf.

What is going on with this woman and her wolf?

Is she really a werewolf?

A loud thunder echoes right when she steps out of the lake and shakes her body to get rid of the big amount of water and she lifts her head up to look at the quite cloudy sky.

There weren't clouds some time ago, weird...

And right now a cold, gentle breeze takes her strawberry with blueberries scent and brings it to me and I take a deep breath to take as much as I can from it.

I am drowning in her and from now on I won't be able to stay away from her. Even the idea of her leaving back to the palace is hurting me even if I now that I will see her again soon...

"She is leaving!" Devon whispers disappointed and I nod as I watch her taking some steps to the palace's direction on my left.

I sigh and soon she starts running next to the lake's shore getting away from me and some seconds later after I get sure she has disappeared for good I finally step out of the bushes quite dizzy and overwhelmed.

This was the most special moment of my life and I didn't even touch her body or talked to her.

What is happening?

Why does she have such a strong and unique effect on me?

"Can she be the reason our life is soon going to change?" Devon asks me remembering Caroline's words from last night and I sigh confused.

"I do not know man but..."

"What?"

"I am not going to let Iris leave or get hurt... I have a feeling!" I say nervously and he stiffens worried.

"What do you mean?" he asks me impatiently sharing my feelings and I take a deep breath trying to push away my agony and fear but in vain.

"Something bad is going to happen!"