His Rejected 'Queen'.

Hello again! Today it's Tuesday 28th of April (but any other day you are reading it it's fine) and I am writing this note because I want to say some things from my point of you as these last days and most specifically yesterday and today I read some quite (how can I say it) rude comments and I would like to make some things clear! I have to say that I didn't have this note here from the beginning (it's lots of chapters later, it's the 36th) and I decided to add it, because I was asking from everyone to read it before and almost nobody did it! First of all, I want to thank everyone for reading my books, I had never thought of all these and you have to know this is a very important thing for me! I love reading comments generally but... Some are really rude and disgrateful so I have to explain some things because I am not going to answer to any comment that is rude anymore! This note is mostly for the really ironic and offensive, rude comments and people I have seen in this app so the rest people don't have to worry, I just want to share with you how I feel and maybe the other side of the coin, the writer's. Most of the people that read my books know or can easily understand that English is not my first language, I am Greek and I had years to use English! I am not even going to say that no one can affect me about my plots because I am not changing them for anyone and anything cause I have also read too offensive comments for this and some other books of mine.  As for my plots I am going to be clear! This is my imagination, my plots and I don't write a story just to write it! I have talked about it lots of times and I am going to repeat it for one last time, through my stories I want to express my opinions, my thoughts and beliefs (I am not writing a story just to write it), I am not saying I am right or not, nobody is perfect and I have no problem with those that disagree with me but I have a huge problem with those that reach at conclusions too easily without reading or being patient! If someone doesn't like the story line, he can easily stop reading the story, I have no problem at all but he can't tell me if the story is like all the others or not!  Don't try to offend not me but other writers and the other readers that like the story. If you are against some things I want to talk about in my books (forgiveness, hatred, self improvement, regret, pain, second chances, mistakes, misunderstandings, egoism, etc) it's fine but when someone wants to be rude and mean like some that did it (and I am doing them a favor I haven't replied the way they deserve to)... Well, then they can write their own books or go to another book (because I have read comments that all the stories in here are the same and I honestly find it offensive for everyone that tries to share something with other people), it's so easy! So about my English, I am aware of the mistakes and believe me I am sorry but I am not sorry I am not taking a proofreader and I am going to tell you exactly why! These books are a part of me, it's my imagination, my creation, my 'kids' and this is who I am! I am not perfect as everyone else and so are my books, they are not perfect, they have their mistakes but this is what I can do and I am trying to improve them gradually by correcting them without most of the readers understanding it! Also, this is mostly my hobby, I am not getting paid although they have asked from me to have a contract and the fact that people are so quick to commend and say their bitterness is not getting me mad, it hurts me!  I have read hundreds of books in this app and many others and believe me lots of books made no sense to me but I never ever tried to pressure someone to get a proofreader or something or I commended saying "Your english sucks". I appreciate everyone's work  and I did read them all because at least they are trying to do something creative for themselves and they also want to share their best with other people, so I don't understand some people and I really don't want to! I came to the worst point to tell some to stop reading my books and for me it's rude to say it but neseccary when they keep on commending and being ironic and mean. This happened in this book and in some other books of mine, one of them is the one with the most views I have (Alpha's Abused Mate.). If they don't try to write and see how difficult it is, they have to at least respect some things because I would also like to see them writing in Greek (but we can't have everything in this life)! In my life till now I have done everything on my own and getting a proofreader is too easy and not fine by me and for me! I never liked easy solutions and I won't do it now!  Whoever 'likes' my books maybe should accept that my English are not prefect and they are never going to be perfect probably but this is who I am and after lots of years of having problem for whom I am, I am perfect and I love me! So, we are finished from this thing, I am sorry if I said something too offensing for some but sometimes I also need to say my point of view and I would like to inform you about something else as well! I won't stop writing because I feel good to know that so many people are really enjoying my stories! I love making people happy because I know how it feels like to be miserable dealing with problems and losses or anything else, we all have our own problems! You are all the best no matter if we agree or not as for my story lines because you are all unique on your own way! This is the world's magic and our power but we have to believe it and I began believing more in me from the moment I began writing and I met you! So, this is it! I love you, I adore you and feel happy I have you! See you again but until then be safe, happy and believe in your magic because you are unique and this is what matters! Love you all,                 Marie! And now we are done from this and you are ready the first chapter (I hope you didn't skip the note, seriously)... Let this story begin... "Let go of your story so the universe can write a new one for you..." Diana's (Iris') pov "Come on guys! Ten more pushups and we are done!" I state in a loud, steady tone and cross my hands in front of my chest observing the 50 teenagers that are making their pushups on the training field. "You killed them today... Don't you think you are too harsh with them and yourself?" Violet whispers standing some inches away from me. I turn and look at her smirking and she narrows her eyes in annoyance making me chuckle. She is too kind and she never wants to pressure anyone which finds me completely opposite. Sometimes we have to pressure ourselves and the fighters or else in a rogues' attack we are done. We have a pack, our duty is to have everything under control and everyone strong and ready in any time. Our existence is related with the loyalty, the obedience and the fighting abilities, we can't follow our hearts all the time. "They are 15-17 years old Violet. They can do it. We need them ready and strong if we want them in a great condition for their first shift. They are the future fighters, it is necessary." I say and turn again to look the teenagers with most of them now standing on their feet done with the whole training. "You speak like our fathers... No wonder why Luke made you the basic trainer of the whole pack... I agree with you at some point but sometimes you just need to relax a bit." She replies and takes one step closer staring at me with wary. "Your brother made me the basic trainer because I know how it feels like to be weak. I almost died when I shifted for the first time, I do not want this to happen to anyone. I want the same thing with him, everyone being strong and ready for anything." I say through my teeth and she sighs shaking her head disappointed. "Beta, we are all done." One of the boys of the group speaks up and I nod in agreement. "Yes, today you did better than last times. Well done everyone, you are free to leave. Relax and have some fun. See you again tomorrow." I state and they all bow and leave heading to the pack's houses on our left. I sign for Violet to follow me back to the pack house and she quickly begins walking next to me in an unusual, awkward silence. This is weird... Violet is a moving noise, wherever she is the chaos is certain but these days she is too silent. In fact it has been about one week since she is not that cheerful, happy and energetic but nervous, with bad mood and an annoying nagging. I know her for about five years and this is the first time she is acting like this. We may be two completely different characters but we became friends immediately. She is the Alpha's younger one and only sister and 20 years old, one year younger than me. Her parents, Carter and Leah had been the Alphas of the White Crystal Pack until four years ago when their son, Luke took the Alpha's title from them. So as I was saying she is acting really weird and she seems worried for a reason I do not know. The previous days I preferred not to ask and pressure her trying to be discreet but I can't see her like this anymore. I really want to help her. "Violet what is wrong? You have been acting strangely for about a week now. You were never like this." I say worried and she sighs avoiding looking at me. "Nothing, just thinking about the pack's companies you know... I have lots of work to do. Luke and my father are very strict. I do not know how they thought of me about the CEO's position." She replies after some seconds and I smile in sympathy. I know it is difficult for her, we have been talking about it for some weeks now. Luke is too busy with the pack's issues while I am too busy with the training, most of the orders for the supplies we need and the typical, not so serious discussions with the other packs. Our fathers try to help both of us when we have serious and too many things to take care of and her mother is mostly taking care of the pack house and the omegas as the typical, well experienced Luna she is. All these mean that Violet will have to be responsible for the companies under Luke's supervision and she is extremely nervous. "Come on babe, you are too smart! You can make it, we all trust you and if you need anything we are all here to help!" I say encouragingly and wrap one arm around her while we reach outside the pack house and stop before the door. "Thanks cousin! If I didn't have you I do not know what I would have done. Anyway... Now go and take a bath and then come to Luke's office for a family meeting." She replies and gets in leaving me alone and most importantly surprised. This is the first time all these years that I am being informed the last moment or I am the last to know because most of the times Violet is the last to be informed. When we say that we have a family meeting we basically mean Luke, uncle Carter, aunt Leah, Violet, my father Gideon and me. The six of us have a very strong bond even if I became a member of the family about five years ago when Gideon found me almost dead deep in a forest back in USA and took me with him in England saving my life from certain death. My name is Iris Black, I am 21 years old and the Beta of White Crystal's pack. I took the title three years ago from my step father, Gideon Black that saved and adopted me. I have long, light, chocolate brown hair, mixed light blue and grey eyes, full lips, a quite pale skin and I have a regular height for a female with the right curves and a very exercised body. My wolf's name is Destiny and 'surprisingly' she is bigger than a common Beta with a thick, soft, grey almost silver fur and light blue eyes. As I mentioned before I am adopted and not Gideon's biological daughter but this never stopped him and the whole pack from loving, supporting and treating me as an equal member. I own them all my life and who I am right now, without them I would have been dead by now and Gideon is my personal savior except from the father I recognize. Before he found me I was officially Diana Rollins, the second child of the Black Arrow Pack's Betas. My 'parents' names are Mason and Mila and my older brother's name is Aiden. Unlike Gideon my biological 'parents' never loved and cared about me and my brother and when my brother left at the age of 15 to get trained for his position as a Beta my life became a real hell. I was just 13 back then and too weak to react or runaway. My parents never wanted kids or at least they wanted only one in order to take the Beta's title and as the second child I was just a 'mistake' for them. They never showed any interest to us and my brother was always the only person I had. He was my everything and I was his. I was safe with him but when I stayed alone without him my parents began abusing me in every way to release their anger and stress. I had tried lots of times to contact with Aiden and tell him what was happening to me but with no result, I never managed to find him. At the age of 16 things 'ended' when I met my mate out of nowhere in one of my parents' business trips and he rejected me without second thought. At the beginning I thought that my parents knew nothing about it because they were not present at the whole scene but apparently I was wrong as on our way back to the pack they led me inside the forest and bitted me till death. As they told me I was a shame for them and the best I had to do was to die to keep their name clean. This is the last thing I remember from my previous life with the first one of my new life to be Gideon on my side when I woke up in an unknown house. My dad (Gideon) was in USA for some pack business and when he found me that day he was for a run in the forest. He didn't waste any time once he saw me and carried me to the house of one of his friends in USA and some healers helped me and healed my wounds. I woke up three days later quite scared and confused and my dad asked from me to tell him everything about me. For an unknown reason I trusted him immediately and I told him my whole story. He got crazy and announced to me that he was going to adopt me and then told me his story. He had a mate and a daughter once. He was very happy and complete until one day rogues attacked our pack, killed his mate and kidnapped his daughter who they found also dead some days later. His mate's name was Addison and his daughter's was... Iris... He told me that it wasn't safe to adopt me with my real name, he wanted to hide my identity and keep my existence as a secret so he thought about changing a bit his daughter's history. So from that moment everyone except from our pack thinks that Gideon's daughter was alive all those years and he found her again that day but... The most shocking thing in my story is that Iris had the exact same age with me, her birthday was the day Gideon found me and we look alike. We both have his eyes' color and face's structure and I also had to dive my hair in order to make it look closer to Iris' color. So from that day I became Iris Black for everyone except from the pack that knows my secret and stood by my side and I am still Diana for the family and pack when we are alone. "Diana!" His strong, deep, confident voice is still making me jump up from surprise and especially now that I haven't even gotten inside the pack house and straight up to my room to get ready. He will scold me, damn it! "Daddy..." I reply innocently through our link. "I can still smell that you are not in the house... Violet is already up in her room. You are going to be late!" he growls and I roll my eyes rushing inside the pack house like a flash banging the door behind me by mistake. "Diana be a bit discreet!" he shouts and I giggle running up the stairs greeting some omegas that greet me cheerfully. "Sorry! Relax, you didn't even inform me earlier dad! I will be quick." I reply and he closes the link groaning. "What is happening today? They are all in tension or is it just my imagination? First Violet and then dad..." I murmur confused and Destiny groans nervously. "I do not know but I have a weird feeling..." she replies shortly and we end our short chat here as I reach the top floor and run straight to my room which is the door at the end of the corridor. I open the door, get in the room, lock it in hurry and rush in the bathroom trying to get rid of my white Nike, socks, black sport leggings and matched bra and underwear. I unleash my hair that was up in a high ponytail and get in the tub turning on the warm water. I sigh relieved once the first drops fall on my head, hair and skin and close my eyes as I feel my body's muscles relaxing instinctually. Now this feels like heaven! The last days have been a real hell for me. I am too tired with all these training and pack duties and there is no time for fun and rest. I wake up every day at six in the morning, train the pack warriors for about three hours except from the weekends that I first train the teenagers and at the afternoon the warriors so then I take a bath and lock myself in my office for hours. I stop only about one hour in order to take my lunch and dinner with the family and then I go again back to work most of the times until midnight. This is the period of the year that I have to make a full list with all the supplies we have and these that we need and give a full report with all the details and costs to Luke so there is no time to take a break. I prefer to finish it earlier and relax later than work less now and get stressed in the end. Unfortunately today is Saturday which means that early at the afternoon I have to train our warriors so I won't work that much in my office and now with the family meeting I am going to lose more time as well and a hot bath is the only thing that can help me a bit for now. I raise my right hand and take my shampoo with my eyes still closed. I put a small amount on my left palm, leave the bottle again and lather the liquid into my hair thinking about the reason we are going to have a family meeting so suddenly. Destiny is right... I also have a weird feeling about it. I sigh as I leave the warm water wash away all the shampoo from my hair and then take the bottle with my shower gel. Blueberries' scent hits my nose once I open it and place some amount of it on my sponge making me smile calmly. I love this scent, it reminds me of him... "Babe are you done?" Luke's voice sounds from our personal link ruining my peaceful moment and bringing me back to reality. "I will be there in ten minutes." I reply and wash my body in hurry pausing for some seconds when I reach my right hip where my real name is written in artistic letters. 'Diana'... This is always reminding me of my past... I have this tattoo from when I turned 15. In my old pack there was a custom for every teenager to have his name as a tattoo somewhere on his body once he would turn 15. I had decided to make my tattoo a dark red color high on my right hip and it is so high that not even with short shorts can be visible. The only way for someone to see it is only if I am naked or wearing only an underwear. Anyway... I do not have time to think about my past again... Once my whole body is free from the shower gel I turn off the water and grab one big, black towel from a shelter next the tub, wrap it around my body and then take one smaller for my hair. I use it to dry it a bit and then I take my hairdryer to dry it for good. I brush it and leave it down on my natural big waves and then get outside heading to my dressing room to take a black underwear with a matched bra from lace, a dark blue jean, a black narrow shirt and my short, flat, black boots. I put them on quickly and I decide not to do my makeup, I don't need it anyway. I look myself at the big mirror opposite my massive, black wardrobe and once I am quite pleased with my appearance I get out of the dressing room and then outside my room walking quickly to Luke's office at the other side of the long corridor. As I get closer their scents hit my nose filling my lungs and I immediately feel embarrassed because I am the last to reach. I stop outside the door, take a deep breath to relax and raise my hand to knock the door. "Come in Diana!" Luke orders from inside and I open the door walking in with a smile on my face that falls once I see everyone's expression. They are all pale and look nervous. Uncle Carter is sitting in Luke's sit behind the massive desk from oak with aunt Leah next to him while Violet and Luke sit on the couch on my right with my dad standing in front of the window with his hands crossed behind his back. My dad is sweating from what I can see, his bright, big eyes are not shining like always, his expression is tensed and today he has bags under his eyes. What is wrong with him? He should have told me if he had any problem, we always talk about everything. My eyes leave his and I turn to look at Violet and Luke on my right. Violet immediately lowers her gaze avoiding looking at me for once more and Luke stiffens nervously sighing and forcing an awkward smile. My uncle then clears his throat and I quickly turn to look at him confused. He is too silent and serious. Most of the times he is teasing me from the first second and we all laugh with each other and also my aunt... She is not smiling at me sweetly, she looks worried. Why are they all acting like this? They act like they know something that I obviously don't and I can't think of anything. Except if... "Um... Did I do anything I do not know by mistake?" I ask timidly. This is the only thing that comes in my mind right now. I am very careful with my job all the time but there is a possibility to have made a mistake. I mean with all these numbers, supplies, lists and codes I could have gotten confused... "No my dear. Come and have a sit. We need to talk about something." My uncle replies pointing one of the chairs in front of the desk. I walk nervously and sit on one of them while Luke and Violet stand up and leave from the couch approaching my side. My dad from the other hand walks to the chair opposite of mine and sits with his eyes locked on the floor. Luke joins my side standing beside my sit and Violet joins my dad's side tapping her foot on the floor nervously. "Is it about the pack? Do we have any problem?" I ask again more worried than before and Luke places his hands on my shoulders gently while my uncle takes an envelope from the desk handing it to me without talking. I take it in my hands and read my name on it, well not my name as Diana Rollins but as Iris Black, Beta of the White Crystal pack. Too weird... I open the envelope in hurry without taking my eyes from it and take out some papers. I begin reading the first one with great interest and stiffen on my sit nervously.    ' Dear Iris Black, Beta of the White Crystal pack of England,     I am honored to announce you that you are one of the best 200 warriors of the whole kingdom and this is why your help is necessary.     You are ordered to attend a special training program in order to join the special army for special occasions.     In the next papers you will find all the information you need to know with the reason, the day, the way and a ticket booked in your name for a private flight to USA.     Your presence is definitive and irrevocable.         Sincerely yours,                          His Royal Highness...' I do not end the last phrase. I stand up gasping for air and begin screaming feeling my blood boiling and my anger raising. "The f*****g asshole! There is no way in hell I am going!" I roar and throw the package of papers on the floor shaking from anger with Destiny howling outraged. I can't believe it! This is a nightmare and I will wake up soon. This can't be true, someone is joking. "Babe, please try to calm down and talk about it." Luke says trying to seem calm and raises his hands to touch me again but I snap them away still shaking breathless. "Are you kidding me? How the bloody hell do you expect from me to calm down after these?" I scream pointing the scattered papers on the floor and take some steps away heading to the door. "Diana just take some breaths. You are overreacting right now." My uncle says smiling weakly. "Do not tell me stupid things! I am not overreacting and you all know it! I am not going!" I scream and then sigh desperately. I feel like drowning, damn it! "Sweetheart, he is the King and..." my aunt begins but I cut her off. "...He ruined my life! He is responsible for the hell I had been living for about two years!" I shout and bury my hands in my hair fighting to breathe. "Di... Please! He doesn't know your identity. He can't harm you again." Violet whispers caressing my father's shoulder who is observing me pale and silent ready to cry. "But he is harming me now! Just imagine how I am going to feel when I have to face him again and moreover live in the same building with him! Do you know how much I try to forget? Do you? I still have nightmares, I still jump up panicked, I almost died because of him and not once but four f*****g times!" I roar raising my voice as I am talking and begin feeling me legs weak and heavy. My heart is in so much pain, it is breaking like the day I lost him... I can't breathe, I can't move as I realize what I just read, my head is hurting like hell. The bastard! One time was not enough for him, he needs more. "Babe, he is our King, we have to obey him." Luke states and walks to me slowly with a hurt expression. "Luke, this murderer is not my KING! He is nothing more than a selfish manwhore, a heartless monster that cannot even accept his own mate and now he wants my help? For what? He did nothing good to me to demand anything!" I speak back screaming. "We are not good for you? We mean nothing?" Violet asks me with tears blurring her vision making me even angrier. "Violet cut the crap. You know very well that I do not mean our pack and family. I MEAN EVERYTHING ELSE! And do not think that you will get away with the whole thing so easily. You all knew it, didn't you? That's why you have been acting differently. I am not a fool! I thought that we were a family, how could you hide it from me?" "Babe, it is my fault! I received your letter and one more that was for me one week ago. The King was informing me that I had to send you no matter what. I thought that I could manage to do something and prevent you from going. I called his Beta and asked from him to replace you but he told me that the King's order couldn't change so... I am sorry, I asked from everyone to give me time to think of another way but I couldn't. Telling you was our last option and unfortunately it had to happen but I promise you that everything is going to be alright." Luke explains and pulls me in his arms gently and I allow him to hold me a bit unwillingly. I bury my face in his neck and sigh. I manage to breathe but his levanter scent is not helping me calm down even a bit. My nerves are too tensed, Destiny is not making it any better with her screams and howls and my mind is stuck back at the day I lost him... Grayson... There is no way I am going, I do not want to see that murderer. "I deny." I state determinate after I take a deep breath and pull back getting free from Luke's hug. "Honey, he is the King. You can't say no without creating suspicions. Your father was one of the best when he was young, now it is logical to ask from you to replace him especially after the ranking you have." My uncle says and I smirk ironically ready to begin screaming again. "He is not my King and I do not care about the place I am in the rank. I prefer to become a rogue and leave away than see him even for a second. I never asked for revenge but this doesn't mean that I can act like he did nothing." I reply and get ready to turn and leave but then my father's voice makes me freeze. "Diana!" I turn and lock my eyes on his, they are full of pain. This is the first time I see him suffering. He is always so strong, confident, calm and now he looks broken, worried and scared. He was never so silent, usually when we discuss a serious matter he speaks first but this time he didn't say a single word. Except from now... "I do not want to talk about it anymore. They want Iris Black, I am sorry... I may have the name in the papers but you all know that I am still Diana Rollins, my heart is not Iris' and my past is surely not hers. I can't pretend to be someone else when my heart is not listening to me. I own you everything but this is too much. I prefer to die than go back, ask anything else but not this." I say and turn to leave stopping at the door. "I am out of here, I need some air. I will come back tomorrow to pack my things and leave for good. I do not want to put you into more troubles." I state without looking at them and get out like a flash heading to my room to take my car's keys. I get in my room after some seconds and open the link with our Delta, Charles. I leave him in my place when I need to miss for any reason so I have to inform him about my absence. "Yes Beta?" he replies after some seconds. "I am going to leave. Train the warriors early at the afternoon in my place and if anything else happens take care of it Charles. If you need help ask from someone." I say in hurry getting ready to close the link while I am now running down the stairs with my keys in my hand. "Diana are you alright?" he asks worried. "No!" is my only reply. "What happened? Can I help you?" "No one can help me Charles. Thanks for your interest anyway. I totally appreciate it." I reply and close the link when I hear footsteps from behind me and take Luke and Violet's scents. "Diana come back! Let's talk about it all together!" Luke begs me but I prefer not to reply at all. Things won't change no matter what we say and they cannot understand me. There is no way I am going to USA and if I stay here and deny going that asshole is going to come after my family and pack. So my only chance is to runaway and save all of them and myself. There is no reason to talk about anything, no use at all. I continue running with them trying to reach me, I pass the stairs, avoid some omegas in hurry without showing them any interest, pass the big living room, then the long, main corridor and get out of the house ready to close the door. "Diana you can't just leave us and runaway!" Violet screams obvious panicked. I close my eyes and bit my lower lip trying to hold back the tears I feel building up. I slowly open my eyes again and turn to face them standing at the end of the corridor about ten meters away from me. Violet is crying and Luke seems heartbroken yet lost. As much as it is killing me I can't do anything else. It has to be done. I have to stay away for now and there is only one place I need to be. "You can't leave Di!" Violet whispers again with a voice that cracks and takes one step forward gasping for air. "I can Violet, you know I can. I am capable of anything after I lost him because of HIM. And if you don't believe me just watch." I state doing my best not to burst into tears and close the door feeling my heart breaking for good once more. I sigh heavily and walk quickly with every power I have left to my car that is parked some meters away at the parking lot. I unlock it automatically and get in banging the door. I turn on the car with shaking hands and take a deep breath trying to clean my mind and focus in order to drive at the only place I want to be right now. "But first we need to stop and buy some flowers..." Destiny whispers gently not wanting to frustrate me more and I nod. "White lilies... And some beers... His favorites." I state and she lets out a low, painful howl. "I am coming Grayson!"