You CAN'T be My MATE! [MxM]

Are You... Sure?

Chapter 3 - Jackson  

Finally, it was the day I had been waiting for years! It was the Alpha's ceremony day, finally, the pack would recognize me as their new Alpha and I would tell them who the new dominant wolves were... Although I would still missing a person or another werewolf who completes me.

... My thoughts were soon forgotten when the Old Alpha knocked on my room's door and I say Old, not as disrespect but it was the way I should call the person who was the Alpha before my father and despite the advanced age of more than a hundred, he looked normal like any muscular sixty-plus years old man.

"Hey, Pup! How are you?" He asked me as soon as he entered the room using his old nickname to me.

"Well, Grandpa. Just a little nervous..." Even calling him grandfather, we weren't connected by blood in any way, he was my mother's adoptive father and also the person who turned her into one of our kind.

... Yes! My mom was an American from Chinese descent completely human until a car accident happened when she was 10 years old and ended up taking the lives of my grandparents and almost took her life as well if it wasn't for the Old Alpha that found her on time at the crash site and transformed her. Only her... Since she was the only one that still alive at the time...

"Are you sure little Sarah isn't your mate?" He asked me for my complete surprise.

"I am..." I didn't know how to react to it, I always thought he was ok about me being gay. "Have you forgotten that I'm gay, Grandpa?... If you haven't forgotten, you know how Sarah being my mate is impossible."

"I know... But I thought that you maybe didn't want to tell us that you might be bi, as you and little Sarah have always been so close to each other, almost like your parents when young." It was true after my mom became a she-wolf and was adopted by the Old Alpha, she ended up meeting my father in the pack's house, a wolf with chocolate skin and blue eyes like the sky, her words, not mine, and soon they became friends as children to later find out that they were mates or rather... My dad finds out, my mom told me she always knew he was the one and my dad didn't believe in her.

"No Grandpa, I'm not bi and if being close to me makes that person be my mate. You should think of how they could be Kristian, Melissa or Vinny too and add them to your list."

"Well, I know the mates of both Melissa and Vinny... And like everyone else in the pack I know how many girls Kristian dated in the last few years, so Sarah is the only one left without mate who liked guys in there."

"You're right if it wasn't for the fact that Sarah has already found her mate two years ago and wanted to surprise everyone by telling the truth at the ceremony since he is human." Without meaning to, I ended up telling something that I had sworn to Sarah that I would keep as a secret... "...And please keep it a secret until then, gramps."

And my grandfather stood there without a word for a while... Looking sad about what he had found out as I kept checking myself in the mirror, seeing if my jeans and my simple button-down white shirt that accentuated my brown sun-kissed skin were good enough for today, as it was very casual outfit although... The ceremony was just a big meeting and normally, no one dresses up too much for it.

... No long I could handle the constant silence from my grandfather who was watching me yet with a sad look in the face and I couldn't believe it was just about Sarah don't be my mate, making me finally ask him...

"Why are you asking me this today, Grandpa? Is everything ok?"

"It's just... I can hold myself off think that if you met your mate before becoming officially our Alpha, it would be easier for you as the responsibilities will keep you attached to us later, being hard to you try to look in other places for him..." I noticed he was trying to stay strong while telling me as I saw the sparkle of unshed tears in his eyes as he thought of someone special... That he never was able to find. "... I don't want one day... While you're with the Pack, to you suddenly feel the other heartbeat that is so special to you, stop beating before you even met each other... Before you even know him like was my case."

... I knew very well what heartbeat he was talking about...

When you're a Werewolf, you're able to hear you mate, your soulmate heartbeats even if you're away from each other, it's something natural to us... But this ability only happens when the wolf becomes matures, usually between fifteen and twenty-five years old, on the first full moon their birthday, they would wake in the morning hearing their mate's heartbeat, however, their mate needs to have passed the same thing before they are able to tell who they are to each other by only the one of a kind smell which no one else could feel.

... Although, if the Mate is a Human or another Supernatural Being, the scent would be here after the first Full Moon and they would need a little luck to meet this person differently from werewolves who could track each other by the smell and could feel the attraction and connection in their bond... 

Luck was also needed to these who had humans as mates as they needed to explain what they truly are to the other person without sounds crazy and for Werewolves, it was needed in hope of this person be close by as the smell wouldn't be felt from far distances, like from another town or state.

... But wasn't about it that my Grandpa talks about...

It was about a sad fact that happens sometimes like some werewolves get older without hearing their mate's heartbeat one single day, meaning that probably in this lifetime they would be able to find the other half, others could stop hearing the sound later and the reason was a very simple one... The Mate was no longer alive... 

... Being exactly what happened to my grandfather...