The Seduction Of Chaos

Chapter 4 (What's love?)

Nila Quill

I rushed to Knox's room. I pounded on his door. "Open up!" I waited a few seconds until he opened the door. Bare-chested.

"What do you want, Nila?" He asked while he leaned against the door. Seeing his chiseled chest with slight red marks scraped across it didn't make my urges any better.

"He's uh- He's awake..." I said, gawking at Knox. I know this wasn't right, but...He was the only one here who understood me. The others always accused me of lacking morals, but it wasn't like that at all. They had no idea. To be born this way was a burden...to never really know love—just lust.

Knox understood when I broke it off with him, or at least I thought he did. He wanted more than I could give...

I swallowed the lump in my throat. Knox leaned into me. "You really didn't come here to tell me that, did you, baby?" he said in a quiet low tone, but his smug grin stained his lips like red lipstick.

"I just wanted you to know..." I turned and started to walk away, but I didn't get very far.

"Nila..." He knew what kind of tone to use with me. The one that sneaked into your head and nudged you to make bad decisions.

I started to bite my lip. I hated that Knox sometimes knew because I felt like he used it to get closer to me when he knows it was nearly impossible.

"Come on," he said; I turned to him as he opened his door, gesturing me to come in. "You better get in here, or I'm dragging your ass in." Knox teased.

"Make me," I said as I nibbled my finger. Knox closed the distance between us, pressing his body up against me so that I could feel him. "You enjoy what I do to you..." He whispered in my ear.

I felt my cheeks flush because I knew it was true. I hated that I liked it, but I couldn't help it. Soon I stopped resisting him and gave in, and god did it feel good to give in to him.

I remembered the first time I slept with him. We weren't in a relationship, and I liked it that way. Then It started to get serious. He wanted more of a commitment from me, but I couldn't do it. I didn't feel the way he did.

Love was a word I never grew up with. Lust, on the other hand, was the word that surrounded my way of life. How I got things done and how I survived. This world was full of it, and being what I am, I learned to use it to my advantage, but I could never dive any deeper than when It came to relationships...

Knox was a good man. I wish I could have given him what he wanted, but it just seemed impossible. So now we fool around a lot. He wanted me to stay close to him, and I wanted to be further away. This was in the middle for me.

I had always wondered what Love felt like. Being jealous of someone. Which is what Knox did, all the time with me or just wanting to be by someone's side. Those are things I've been told you feel when you are in love sometimes. But I've never felt them.

Maybe I was just incapable of Love. Some say the 'right one will come along, but I've been alive for over a century, and no one like that has come along, but I didn't feel like I was missing anything. I never knew love in the first place. You can't miss what you don't have...right?

Laurent De'Vall

After Clover made me food ( Which I didn't eat), She brought me to the main office. The place where they spy on Anchor.

"They never suspected we could get a hold of their footage," Violet said. She was at a large computer desk with multiple screens. "They really don't like people snooping in on what they've got." Violet seemed to be talking to herself. Her tongue stuck out a little when she squinted her eyes at the screens.

"Violet is our mainframe, Guinness. She can get into anything." Clover bragged. I saw Violet's face flush then she cleared her throat. "Looks like they have a new guy they're experimenting with." She double-clicked on a screen to widened the view. It was still blurry, but he looked like he was in the same cages I was in.

"Those ruthless bastards..." Clover clenched her books to her chest. "They caught another one. So what are they doing with him?"

"I don't know yet, but bitchy witch hasn't been around, so she might have something she's working on she wants no one to find out about," Violet said as she clicked the main screen off.

She stood up. She wore ripped jeans and a crop top. She also wore purple gloves. "So, do you know how to fight, Drake?" She asked.

"It's Laurent." I corrected.

"Yeah, whatever. If you don't, then we will have to teach you for when we infiltrate this place again, and that will be soon." Violet picked up a can on her desk and chugged it.

"Alright, let's see what you can do. I'll meet you guys in the fighting area." Violet started to walk away.

"Oh, hey! I -uh like your outfit today." Clover said as she fiddled with her fingers. Violet looked over at her, "I like that white dress on you...brings out your eyes."

I saw Clover's face brighten up as Violet left the room. Her cheeks had a hint of flush to them. "Clover? Are you alright?" She jumped at the sound of my voice.

"Oh geez! Sorry I was daydreaming." She giggled. "Um, you can go meet up with Violet. I have to do a couple of things."

I left clover and walked down one of the halls. She didn't tell me which way it was, so I guess I'll figure it out. I started to hear pounding on a door nearby, then breathless voices. That couldn't have been the Fighting area...was it? I decided to check it out. As I got closer, the voices sounded more like moans...

I suddenly stepped away from the door, feeling my face flush. Yeah, this definitely wasn't the area. I quickly began to walk away until I heard the door open. I turned my head slightly to see Nila walking out of the room. Her hair was messed up, and she was adjusting her skirt. She messed with her hair shaking it. She hadn't noticed me yet. I suddenly felt a sharp pain in my mouth. I ran my tongue over my fangs.

Why did she look so good to me right now...

Her chest was flushed with just a hint of pink. I felt something inside me stir once again. I was examining her head to toe, from those slim, sleek legs to her hips that showed a bit of a curve to her small frame. To her chest, that was honestly bigger than anything else on her body...

The door opened, and some man with a 4'o clock shadow and short shaggy looking dark brown hair tried to close in to kiss her. She pushed him back into the room and shut the door on him, and a deceptive smile snaked across her face.

I couldn't help but like that smile on her...

She took notice of me in the hallway. Her eye's suddenly darted to the door and then me. "Uh- hi." She said. "H-how long have you been there?" She hugged her arm.

I chuckled. "Long enough."

Her eye's widened. "Oh...sorry about that. Are you lost?"

I got lost looking into her eyes...the beast once again stirred within me. I felt a shiver up my spine. My fangs ached...

My neck suddenly started to burn. "I need to go." I've never shifted without that collar on me. I don't know what would happen if I did without it.

"Hey, what's going on?" Nila rushed up to me. "The burning...my neck burns just like the injection they use to give me," I said

"That collar? It had a syringe in it?" Her face was aghast. "Come on, your coming with me." She grabbed my hand and pulled me down the hall. "We thought about this before you came, but...I didn't think we would have to use it so soon."

My head started to pound. "Alright...make it quick, though." We turned a corner to a metal door with a bolt lock. Nila took a key from her pocket and opened the door. She pushed me in and closed the door after she came in with me.

"Wait, you have to get out." I urged.

"I'm not going anywhere. You didn't hurt me before; why would you hurt me now?"

"I black out, Nila. I don't remember anything... it's like another part of me takes over." I felt my heart pounding. I was not too fond of this. Nevertheless, she persisted in staying with me, knowing the danger she would be in.

"I think I might have an Idea to tame your inner beast, but you will have to let him out for me." She smiled.

"This isn't a joke, Nila," I said through my teeth. She was starting to get on my nerves...

"I know it's not, and that's why I thought of it. I'm a Succubus; I can drain you of your chi. So the part of yourself you fear won't be able to take hold of you."

She was a Succubus? Now her actions kind of made sense, but I didn't feel like this was a good Idea...

"I don't even know how to shift without that collar," I said, holding my neck feeling the bump of where the needle stuck me more times than I count.

"Can I try something? The part you, you hate seemed to like me kissing him.." She tilted her head, hinting at what she wanted to do.

"You think kissing me again is going to make me shift? I'm starting to think you won't make out with me." I chuckled.

"Well, I'm not going to lie and say I didn't like kissing you before, but I wanna see the difference." She said, her eyes beamed at me.

I sighed. "This isn't gonna work...but I'm willing to try anything." I needed to learn more about this part of myself to have more control over it.

She jumped up and down, clapping, "Yay! I'm excited to see what happens." Then, she closed the distance between us. My heart was fluttering, she was the first woman I ever kissed...sad that I couldn't remember how it felt, but I guess I was about to find out.

As she got inches from me, I felt my spine tingle again. My fangs started to ache. I felt my chest pump up and down. I covered my mouth so she wouldn't see them.

"No." She said as she reached for my hand. "I like seeing them." She purred. Now my heart started to thump hard. She was inches from my face now, and she smelled fruity. I licked the tips of my fangs.

She wrapped her arms around my neck, and I felt her lips press against mine softly. She tasted so sweet, like forbidden fruit. I couldn't help but want more of her... Then, I suddenly felt a switch inside me turn off, and I blacked out.