Letter ITO Mrs. Saville, England
St. Petersburgh, Dec. 11th, 17-
You will rejoice to hear that no disaster has accompanied the
commencement of an enterprise which you have regarded with such
evil forebodings. I arrived here yesterday, and my first task is to
assure my dear sister of my welfare and increasing confidence in
the success of my undertaking.
I am already far north of London, and as I walk in the streets
of Petersburgh, I feel a cold northern breeze play upon my cheeks,
which braces my nerves and fills me with delight. Do you understand
this feeling? This breeze, which has travelled from the regions
towards which I am advancing, gives me a foretaste of those icy
climes. Inspirited by this wind of promise, my daydreams become
more fervent and vivid. I try in vain to be persuaded that the pole
is the seat of frost and desolation; it ever presents itself to my
imagination as the region of beauty and delight. There, Margaret,
the sun is forever visible, its broad disk just skirting the
horizon and diffusing a perpetual splendour. There—for with your
leave, my sister, I will put some trust in preceding
navigators—there snow and frost are banished; and, sailing over a
calm sea, we may be wafted to a land surpassing in wonders and in
beauty every region hitherto discovered on the habitable globe. Its
productions and features may be without example, as the phenomena
of the heavenly bodies undoubtedly are in those undiscovered
solitudes. What may not be expected in a country of eternal light?
I may there discover the wondrous power which attracts the needle
and may regulate a thousand celestial observations that require
only this voyage to render their seeming eccentricities consistent
forever. I shall satiate my ardent curiosity with the sight of a
part of the world never before visited, and may tread a land never
before imprinted by the foot of man. These are my enticements, and
they are sufficient to conquer all fear of danger or death and to
induce me to commence this laborious voyage with the joy a child
feels when he embarks in a little boat, with his holiday mates, on
an expedition of discovery up his native river. But supposing all
these conjectures to be false, you cannot contest the inestimable
benefit which I shall confer on all mankind, to the last
generation, by discovering a passage near the pole to those
countries, to reach which at present so many months are requisite;
or by ascertaining the secret of the magnet, which, if at all
possible, can only be effected by an undertaking such as mine.
These reflections have dispelled the agitation with which I
began my letter, and I feel my heart glow with an enthusiasm which
elevates me to heaven, for nothing contributes so much to
tranquillize the mind as a steady purpose—a point on which the soul
may fix its intellectual eye. This expedition has been the
favourite dream of my early years. I have read with ardour the
accounts of the various voyages which have been made in the
prospect of arriving at the North Pacific Ocean through the seas
which surround the pole. You may remember that a history of all the
voyages made for purposes of discovery composed the whole of our
good Uncle Thomas' library. My education was neglected, yet I was
passionately fond of reading. These volumes were my study day and
night, and my familiarity with them increased that regret which I
had felt, as a child, on learning that my father's dying injunction
had f*******n my uncle to allow me to embark in a seafaring
life.
These visions faded when I perused, for the first time, those
poets whose effusions entranced my soul and lifted it to heaven. I
also became a poet and for one year lived in a paradise of my own
creation; I imagined that I also might obtain a niche in the temple
where the names of Homer and Shakespeare are consecrated. You are
well acquainted with my failure and how heavily I bore the
disappointment. But just at that time I inherited the fortune of my
cousin, and my thoughts were turned into the channel of their
earlier bent.
Six years have passed since I resolved on my present
undertaking. I can, even now, remember the hour from which I
dedicated myself to this great enterprise. I commenced by inuring
my body to hardship. I accompanied the whale-fishers on several
expeditions to the North Sea; I voluntarily endured cold, famine,
thirst, and want of sleep; I often worked harder than the common
sailors during the day and devoted my nights to the study of
mathematics, the theory of medicine, and those branches of physical
science from which a naval adventurer might derive the greatest
practical advantage. Twice I actually hired myself as an under-mate
in a Greenland whaler, and acquitted myself to admiration. I must
own I felt a little proud when my captain offered me the second
dignity in the vessel and entreated me to remain with the greatest
earnestness, so valuable did he consider my services. And now, dear
Margaret, do I not deserve to accomplish some great purpose? My
life might have been passed in ease and luxury, but I preferred
glory to every enticement that wealth placed in my path. Oh, that
some encouraging voice would answer in the affirmative! My courage
and my resolution is firm; but my hopes fluctuate, and my spirits
are often depressed. I am about to proceed on a long and difficult
voyage, the emergencies of which will demand all my fortitude: I am
required not only to raise the spirits of others, but sometimes to
sustain my own, when theirs are failing.
This is the most favourable period for travelling in Russia.
They fly quickly over the snow in their sledges; the motion is
pleasant, and, in my opinion, far more agreeable than that of an
English stagecoach. The cold is not excessive, if you are wrapped
in furs—a dress which I have already adopted, for there is a great
difference between walking the deck and remaining seated motionless
for hours, when no exercise prevents the blood from actually
freezing in your veins. I have no ambition to lose my life on the
post-road between St. Petersburgh and Archangel. I shall depart for
the latter town in a fortnight or three weeks; and my intention is
to hire a ship there, which can easily be done by paying the
insurance for the owner, and to engage as many sailors as I think
necessary among those who are accustomed to the whale-fishing. I do
not intend to sail until the month of June; and when shall I
return? Ah, dear sister, how can I answer this question? If I
succeed, many, many months, perhaps years, will pass before you and
I may meet. If I fail, you will see me again soon, or never.
Farewell, my dear, excellent Margaret. Heaven shower down blessings
on you, and save me, that I may again and again testify my
gratitude for all your love and kindness.
Your affectionate brother,
R. Walton