The Jerk is a Ghost

7

Their opinions about mine are nothing. I am who I am. If they won't like me being one of the Monteclaros, then it's okay. Nothing will change if they don't want to because I really am a Monteclaro.

If I get bullied again because of it, I'll try my best to speak up. I got my friends and they got me too. I just know that when it happens, we will protect each other.

First sem is over. Inter-QB is over.

Throughout the vacation I had many realizations.

I won't heal if I keep on comparing my new school to my old school.

I won't be able to step forward if I keep on looking back to the past. Just like what Mira said, the scars can become art too. The pains that I've felt during those times made me transfer and it actually felt nice. I never felt good about my decisions in life-except this one; my first time. I realized that transferring is my stepping stone to everything.

I met a lot of good people who can accept me for who I am. Because of people's accusations, even I didn't accept myself anymore. I didn't even love myself anymore. So today I decided to change everything.

Now, I'm slowly learning to love what people don't want for me. As the vacation passed quickly after the Inter-QB took place, so did the second semester of my first year as a Senior High School student.

I can say that a lot has changed for me. If before I was often nervous, now not so much. I'm still being attacked but it's not as bad because I've co-controlled it somehow. When I am attacked it is not as often as before. Now it's only once. Sometimes I wasn't really attacked for a month.

Apart from Glenn, Pat and Joan, I can somehow talk to our other classmates unlike before when I was still scared of them.

Our friendship is stronger. It was also the second semester when I had the experience of spending the night with Joan for the first time because of a project where we were the only group members.

Our group also got close to Joshua because he is also Joan's twin. Sometimes he even joins us for lunch, so this Glenn is very happy.

Of course, when Joshua is around, so is Brian. Brian's relationship with Joshua has also become more frequent compared to Kiel because Eunice is with the man more often.

Brian and Kiel are not enemies, but Brian just doesn't want to go, especially when Eunice is around. I also do not know why. It's just what he mentioned to me one day when Joan asked him.

Kiel? I still often go in with him. I think he can keep up with me for an entire academic year. Although we don't see each other often at school, we often see each other outside.

Just like before, when we get together we don't pay attention or greet each other. I mean, what else is it for? We are not friends either.

When we get together I'm not surprised anymore. It's like I'm just used to always going in the jeep with him.

My first year as a senior high taught me a lot. I also got to experience a lot of things for the first time-commuting alone, renting a car because sometimes it is full, spending the night in another house, participating in various competitions, and more everyone is to have friends.

I haven't felt it for a very long time but I got to enjoy waking up early again just to go to school. That feeling was the feeling that I've missed during JHS days.

"Miracle, do you create your social media accounts again, Ate? Maybe you can deactivate them again, right?"

Issa is right. I created a new account just because. I know that my old accounts were deleted already so I can't retrieve them anymore so I just thought of creating a new one. I also thought about doing it because my friends and I often talk only through telegram and I know they are not used to it.

Pat can't get online often there because they don't have internet because they haven't connected yet. It's a waste of money if it loads every day so I just thought of creating accounts especially Messenger because as far as I know even if it's just data and even if there's no load you can talk to other people.

"Let your sister do what she wants to do, Arissa. You notice everything." Mommy said.

"I just said so." He said with a snort that made me shake my head. This girl is still cute.

"And because of that, Mommy, maybe you want to allow me to do a summer job at the cafe I'm referring to? Please, Mom!" I will forgive him.

"We already talked about this, Ariya. You have your own money-"

"You gave it because it's our allowance. I want to experience how to make money from my own sweat, Mom."

"Do you want to buy something? Just say it and we will buy it. You don't need to work at this very young age, honey."

"Nothing. And if I want to buy something, I want it from money I worked for myself. I will turn 18 this year already, Mom please? Dad! Can you help me?" Daddy just sighed. Even if he wants to help me, I know Mommy will still be the one to follow.

"I will let you experience everything that you want to experience when you turn 18. But for now, please understand that it's not possible yet, son. Next summer, you can have that job." I sighed in defeat. In just a few months I will be 18 and the case will be school again at that time.

"I'm sorry, son." Mommy told me so I just nodded and smiled.

It's still fine, I guess. At least I tried.

"It's okay, Yeri. At least next year you can have a summer job." Justin said while munching on popcorn