Heal My Heart

10. My Heart...

Prince Ernest's POV

I walked towards Edward's chamber. William was just outside the chamber leaning to the wall. He looked a total mess.

"William!!! What's wrong" I gently hold his hand.

"Nothing" he tried to smile, but it didn't reach his eyes. Oh wait... is he crying? his eyes were bloody red. Yes, he was crying. I could see the wetness on his cheeks.

"You know William. You are a terrible lier"

"I guess I am..." he wiped his eyes and cheeks from both of his palms.

"It is Edward again, isn't it? I don't know what's wrong with him."

"It is not his fault"

"Then whose fault is that? why he always keeps on hurting you"

"I don't know... but I guess he has good reasons for that. So I don't blame him" even though he said so I know they all are hiding something from me. No one actually tells me why Edward always act so arrogant and emotionless. And why no one seems to complain about it.

Anyway, I love both of them more than my life. And this is not the right time to think of all of these. I have another mission to complete.

"So why you are here," William asked

"I am going to talk to my brother about the judgment he just gave" I grinned with an artificial confident.

William gave me a surprised look. "Are you going to talk about Doctor?"

"Yeah... wish me good luck"

"You may need something more than just good luck for that." he chuckled.

Then all of sudden he hugged me so tightly.

"But from all of my heart, I wish you may get succeeded," he said while patting my back.

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I opened the door of Edward's chamber and entered. He was looking outside the window.

"Edward" I called

"Yes," he said without bothering to turn around.

"I have something to tell you"

"mm..." still he was looking outside.

"I am not feeling well"

This time I have got his attention. He turned around and walked towards me. He kept his palm to my forehead to check the fever. His eyes got eased a bit after knowing I have no fever.

"Why!!! do you have any pains?" he asked.

"mm... yes"

"Did you take all the medicine? I told you to stay in the bed and rest, but you wanted to wander all over the place. Why the hell you are so stubborn. Now tell me where you have pains" he looked so worried.

"Actually it is in my heart, I have pains"

"What!!! Ernest don't try to play stupid childish games with me. You know that I have no times for them" Edward point his finger to me.

"But I am telling the truth. This is not a game. Edward. I have so much pain in my heart. And I am afraid there will be no doctor to heal me this time since the only doctor who is capable of treating me is just got banned by you " It always needs a lot of courage to speak up to the King, even though he is your family. But when It comes to Edward you may need all the courage you have got plus a lot more.

Everyone tells that I am the only person he ever cares about, but he always tries to keep the distance even with me. So this is the first time, I actually came to Edward to discuss this kind of serious issue.

"Ernest!!! You know I am a man who speaks direct words. So stop going around the bush and tell me why you are here" he gave me a deadly stare.

"Okay. I will come to what I have to say, when the arrow hit me during the battle and I fell down from my horse, you carried me to a safe shelter. By that time I was in so much pain and I have given up all the hopes to live. But you made me promise to you, not to give up. You wanted me to fight, you wanted me to stay strong with you. You said you will fulfill any of my wishes if I fight with death. I hope you can remember that"

"I remember them. So what"

"So now it is your chance to fulfill my wish"

"Okay, what you want now. Don't ask me to revoke my judgment about the doctor. Other than that ask for anything"

"But the only thing I want from you is to revoke your judgment about the Doctor," I said putting the best innocent look I have.

"Ernest!!! I have given this Verdict as the King of the Midvalley kingdom, in front of my officials and my people. There is no way that I can revoke it" he said coldly.

"But you are the king. You can do anything, you can change anything. No one will question you"

"Are you insane. You know that I have never changed my word. As a king, I always want to stand up to my word. I don't want to change my decisions from time to time. I have thought a lot before coming to the decision and now I am going to stick to it"

"Yes when you have made the right decision, you have to stick to it. But when you have made a wrong decision, you got to change it. You haven't done that before doesn't mean you can't do it now. Both you and I know that the decision you gave is so cruel. No one deserves to be banned just for protecting their loving ones. Tell me, Edward, won't you do the same for me?" oh my God did I really say them all.

Edward looked utterly shocked. Even I got surprised by the confident in my voice.

"This is enough now. Letting you speak doesn't mean you can tell whatever the stupid bullsh** comes to your mouth. Don't try to teach me how to rule and how to make decisions. Go now there is nothing to talk with me right now" he yelled. his voice was shaking with anger.

"I am sorry Edward. I didn't want to offend you. And I love you more than anything. And From all of me, I believe you will fulfill my wish" I bowed my head and left his chamber.

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King Edward's POV

I was staring at the door Ernest just left, for a few seconds. I was truly shocked by Ernest's behavior.

I sat on the chair.

What is actually going on with these two? First William who never questioned my decisions came to me asking to change my decision. Then Ernest... He has never been so demanding. And he has never spoken to me like this.

What is so peculiar about this girl, that everyone comes for her support?

I sighed.

Opening the drawer attached to the reading table I took out a small wooden framed pencil art portrait. There were four pencil art portraits like this on the table when I first came to this room. They were portraits of Gilbert family drawn by Aron Gilbert.

I just threw away all the other three portraits, but couldn't make up my mind to throw away this one.

I looked at the portrait. This Kid Aron has got some serious skills in drawing. Her smile, her eyes, every small feature of her face has been so skillfully captured in the portrait.

Looking at the portrait felt like looking at her in person.

"Why you lied to me. Didn't I give enough chances to tell you the truth? I don't go to visit my prisoners usually. But I came to see you. I asked you to trust me, didn't I? Why you couldn't trust me. Didn't I sound trustworthy enough? Or do you think I am a heartless monster as all the other people think? Is that why you didn't want to trust me?" I ran my thumb over the small portrait. Over those beautiful eyes, and those... those lips...

This is not the first time, I have given judgments against the people who tried to lie and deceive the investigations. But I have never banned any one of them. They were all given some prison time or some minor punishments.

So why? Why did I want to ban you? Why the hell I felt this is the right judgment for you?

Without even knowing my hand ran to my nape, and the moment I touched the small locket attached to my golden chain I knew the reason behind my decision. This locket which my mom gave me at her death bed holds so many painful memories of my past.

I am fed up with getting lied and getting disappointed by the people who are close to my heart.

My heart, Which I pretend that I do not have, and which I wish so much that I can rip out, have found this strange girl is so close to it.

It is why I got so damn mad with her, it is why I wanted to never see her again so I can ask my stupid childish heart to just forget her.

I am not ready to get lied anymore by the people I care. I have had enough. All the lies and betrayals from the people I cared so dearly have made my life a living hell, and I am not in a position to bare anymore.

But Will I be able to bare not seeing her ever again? Will I be able to just ask my foolish heart to wipe out her memory?

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Hello All, What you all think? Will King Edward revoke his decision? Or will he keep on pretending to be the heartless monster? Let me know Your thoughts. They are always encouraging me to write more. Love You all.