BADGIRL'S GOOD GIRL

CHAPTER 11

ARIANA

What has my life become? I am really struggling with some s**t right now. The list of issues that I have are like never ending, like my piece of s**t ex-boyfriend had to show up and f*****g text me and now I am finding girls hot. I have always known that I liked girls but I suppressed it really because I was with that asshole ( now that I look back at it, how the f**k did I stay with that piece of s**t even after his ugly ass cheating on me like five times? ). I always thought that it was a phase and it would just pass, not that I have anything against the l***q+ community. I have always respected them because it is awesome that they love who they want to without needing to apologize to the really small amount of shitty people of our society but it is hard to acknowledge this about yourself when all your life you have just thought that your are straight.

Also I have been thinking about something very weird which has been really shitty. I never wanted to ruin my friendship so I just kept it to me but now it is becoming impossible to keep it just to me and I did tell Emily a bit but not everything. I think right now, you are confused as f**k so I am going to make it clear for you- I AM IN f*****g LOVE WITH MY BEST FRIEND. And who you might ask- f*****g ARIEL. I had a goddamn dream about her and it was not innocent in any way. I am not going to go into details about it because it really is not pg-13. 

I know I am f****d but what can I do now?

"Where is Angel?" Emily asked.

"I don't know, probably making out with her boyfriend in a ditch"

"Ooo someone is salty because they don't have a boyfriend"

Huh? Only if she knew that I liked girls. Wait a minute, she does. I glare at her and she just chuckles.

"So are you over your hopeless love for Ariel?"

"Ems stop it. I am having a headache, just thinking about it."

"I know, I know. I really do want you to get better with that situation but it will only be solved if you tell her about it."

"Yea you're right"

"Also why the f**k did you not fall for me b***h? I am sweet and s**t, you know. Like I would be good sex."

I laugh at what she said. No matter how sexy Emily is, I am never going to f**k her because I love her as my sister.

"Babe you are not my type, plus, ew incest."

"Okay but now I am upset and you have to get me ice-cream to make it up to me!"

"okay okay"

I walk towards the ice-cream stall and I see the girl from cafe talking to Ariel. She is a pretty girl but nothing compared to Ariel but she is really beautiful. I see them talking and I can feel the green monster inside me come up in me and I feel a small itch. They start walking and talking and I follow them , I know, I know stalker-ish but what would you do? you are not any better than me.

Suddenly Roxy pulls Ariel in and kisses her and Ariel kisses her back. And in that moment my heart breaks a little.