Kailus
Who the hell am I?
How did I not realize how badly I had hurt my sister?
All the things I said and did were to make her toughen up. Sure, when we were kids, I was mean to Winter. I found it hard to understand her when she spoke. But I was a kid! That doesn’t excuse what I said today about not understanding her. That was me being a bastar.d because I was frustrated.
I haven’t had much to do with Winter during our lives because I was stubborn. I thought she wouldn't get hurt if I kept her at arm’s length. I’m not talking about the verbal abuse, which clearly hurt Winter more than I ever imagined. I’m talking about the monster within me. There is something very wrong with me, and I’m terrified of physically hurting someone to the point I’d lose them.
There’s no way to fix me, and
