Asha
I am appalled by the direction of my thoughts. Seriously? What is wrong with me? Here I am getting too caught up on a guy when I told myself I would never do that again. Besides, we were never anything to begin with.
But it still hurts.
I want to go hide and lick my wounds but it’s time for dinner, so I take a quick shower and change. I wear a form fitting maxi dress and cover my shoulders with a cardigan. I put on some makeup. Dressing up a little always helps my mood.
Lana serves the dinner. There was eating, talking, and laughing. None of which I participate in. And I avoid Max all together. It’s our last night together forever, so best get used to it. I am getting way too attached to someone who isn’t mine. Besides, I don’t do that anymore.
I try to reinforce the walls I b
