Caught In The Middle

the blame game

SABINA’S POV

After Marcus and I left, or rather after Marcus practically dragged me out of Alexander’s house we drove to his house in a very awkward silence. There was something that completely captivated me about Alexander and it had nothing to do with his eyes or his angelic face or melodic voice. Leaving there seemed to be the hardest decision that I had ever made, something in me wanted to stay with him forever. And dare I say, something in me wanted him to hold me and have me right there. But what about Marcus, this man who was supposed to be the love of my life, I was now desperate to get Alexander out of my mind because I made Marcus promise never to hurt me, and I didn’t want to be the one to hurt him.

I loved Marcus, he was everything to me, and he had taught me to even feel love.

I had made the decision to give myself to him completely when we got home, I was trying hard to convince myself that I felt nothing for Alexander and even if I did, I would never allow myself to pursue it.

Marcus was sitting in His office doing some work, i entered his office dressed in nothing but his Shirt and my thong, and this was it...

I was going to give Marcus my V card

He raised his head slowly and was about to shout until he realised it was half dressed me standing by his door. He sat back on his chair and watched me, his eyes studying my body underneath his shirt to the extent of me feeling completely naked. I could see the lust burning in his eyes, I walked towards him slowly nervous of the way he was going to react once I reached him, and nervous of the messages his eyes were receiving from his brain.

Was I really ready to do this? Either way it was too late to back out now because I was now straddling him and he wasn’t even making an attempt to touch my body, making me feel a little like he didn’t want or desire to have me.

“What are you doing Sabina?” he asked as he stretched himself and put his hands behind his head

“I’m ready” I said shyly

“And what are you ready for?” he asked again, his tone unreadable. At this point I was just glad he hadn’t pushed me to the floor like he did Kim.

“To give myself completely to you, am ready for more intimacy” I responded avoiding eye contact and focusing on my messy nails

“I don’t think...” before he could even finish turning me down, I reached my mouth down to his and kissed him passionately. 

At first he resisted my advances but I didn’t give up, I needed this, I needed to prove to myself that I still loved him the same way I did before meeting Alexander. I ran my hands through his hair while kissing him and he grabbed my waist tightly, his tongue found its way into my mouth and somehow he started flicking mine with it, a skill I never knew anyone had. Every move he made me erupt with passion, and everywhere his fingers touched on my skin left a trail of scars of passion.

Soon he had thrown the shirt off me and across the table, his head buried between my perky breasts, I moaned to the pleasure I had never known before. Marcus stood up with me still in his arms and threw me on the couch; he stood there and watched me as if contemplating something. Then he walked back to his desk and picked up the shirt I was wearing and then came back to me and put it on me. I was confused because I could see he was erect and yet he didn’t want to go further, didn’t he desire me or want me?

“Why” I whispered grabbing the shirt tight as if it would cover the shame I was feeling.

“Because I love you, and I know you are only doing this because of today” he said his eyes warm with understanding

“What do you mean?” I asked, did he somehow find out about my dilemma?

“I know you are far from ready and I don’t want you to feel pressured. You don’t have to try to thank me using your body, you are not my w***e, you are my other half” he said and I nodded tears of guilt and relief streaming down my face.

“I love you so much” I said cupping his face in my hands and repeating the words in my head and heart.

“I know that, and I love you more but I promise you my love you don’t have to do anything you don’t want to do” he said and kissed me on my forehead.

“Thank you baby, I love you” I said hugging him “can you please take me to Arianna’s place today, I miss her” I said to him and I just wanted to tell my best friend what had been going on

“Sure thing, I will take you there right now’ he said

MARCUS’S POV

I couldn’t understand the way Sabina had been acting since we got back. First she had chosen to completely ignore me until we got here, and then she was throwing herself to me. She wasn’t acting herself at all, ever since we met that creep Alexander.

I still couldn’t believe he tried flirting with her right before my eyes, what kind of a man doesn’t respect the property of another? If Sabina hadn’t been there I would have killed that bastard and ignored the fact that I was outnumbered.

After I dropped her home I found Piet sitting in my office looking like he had seen a ghost or made a life changing discovery.

“Why do you look gloomy like that?, I should be the one looking like that considering I have a severe case of blue balls” I said grabbing my crotch which felt heavier that it ever did.

“You will also be in the same state after I tell you what I found out” he said ignoring the joke I had just attempted to make about myself.

“What did you find out?’ I asked as I adjusted my pants before taking a seat on the couch next to him.

“Well I have good news and bad news, so I will tell you the good news first. We found the people blackmailing Sabina” he said and my eyes widened this was great news.

“Oh you found them, that is good news, I will call Sabina right now and let her know” I said grabbing my phone to dial her number and he immediately snatched the phone from me.

“You can’t do that” he said

“And why not, She has wanted to know who these people were for a very long time I need to put her mind at ease” I said attempting to snatch it back

“Will you just listen to me?’ he yelled

“Fine, what is it?’ I asked

“We are the horrible people that you have been searching for” he said and my eyes widened in shock 

“Do you remember years ago we met that guy Jonathan who came to the casino and bet using all the money he had” he said reminding me of something that happened years ago, I was so f*****g young back then and still new to the game and I often felt like I had a point to prove

“Do you remember how he won every time he bet on something to the extent that we started thinking that he was cheating us? Well that guys was Sabina’s father, remember how we hired him to work the poker games for us because he was so good. But instead of being a spectator on the sidelines and being a coach he decided he wanted to play to. He started to steal money from us until you caught him red handed. You wanted him to work off the debt but instead he tried to run away and move his family but he wasn’t smart enough to move far he only moved a street away, so we had a deal that he would pay the million dollars he owed us in instalments, but his wife, Sabina’s mother missed a lot of them after he died.

So that’s why I sent my guys to go and collect the balance from his wife just like we always do after they die, only thing is that the wife was Sabina’s mother and I gave her only a week” he said, by the time he had finished telling me and reminding me I was light headed and felt like I was going to collapse.

“What am I going to do, Sabina will hate me after this” I said distraught

“You will do what we always do, you will pull yourself together and cover it up” he said

“I can’t lose Sabina, I just can’t lose her, how will I cover this up she will eventually find out, if she digs deep enough” I said

“Well we stop her from digging, you tell her you have found the person and things got messy and you killed them” he said

“I can’t do that she will be angry that I killed after she asked me not to” I explained

“It’s better she hates you for killing than for threatening her whole family, you can even blame it on me” he said and that made sense

“I don’t want to lie to her, I hate having to doing this” I said

“This is a necessary lie, and a man like Alexander will probably pursue her. If he had the guts to flirt with her in your presence” he said reminding me why indeed this was a necessary lie.

“So who will I blame it on” I asked

“The Russians, it’s always the Russians” he said smirking

“It’s always the Russians” I said giving him the side eye “you are right, those fuckers can’t do anything right” I finished and he laughed.

“so what will you tell her happened?” he asked

“She already knows her dad was a gambler, so I will use the information we got from Alexander and tell her that her father stole from the Russians and they wanted their money back. I will tell her he stole money to pay Alexander’s father back” I said

“That’s good it sounds solid” Piet said

“But listen man, Sabina can’t ever find out about this, she can’t ever know what we have done, or how I have covered it up. She can never know that I betrayed her trust, she just cant know” I said repeating myself as if I was talking to someone deaf.