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Chapter Eighteen

ETHAN'S POV

We didn't dance long as Sid and Harry had came back with kebabs for everyone. So we all made our way and took over the staff room.

"Music or TV?" Harry asks.

"Music" Charlie says and no one argues it so Harry puts some music on and stay the night by sigula starts to play.

Seeing that a upbeat song has started Sienna starts dancing while the rest of us start to dig into our food.

"Sienna, I'm going to go home after this if its alright with you, I will take you home first" Sid says.

Sienna goes over to Sid and wraps her arms around his neck hugging him as she say "You can go home.. I'm not stopping you. However I'm not ready to go just yet".

Then Sienna moves a few steps over to Harry and puts her arms around his neck as Sid says "Come on Sienna you know mum and dad will kill me if I don't get you home in one piece".. But Sienna says "Harry you love me don't you".

Harry looks at Sid with eyes that scream help I can't say no here. "Of course we all love you" I say coming to Harry's rescue.. "Good so you will play this song for me won't you Harry, pretty please with a cherry on top?" Sienna says moving one arm to show Harry her phone screen.

"Yeah, of course I will" Harry says looking relieved. Sienna kisses Harry's cheek like an excited little girl again then says "Thankyou".

We all knew what Harry was thinking as well, we thought Sienna was going to ask him to stay longer and then be caught between the two of them. Charlie is trying not to laugh next to me while Sienna Steals Harry drink taking a Swig of it before giving it back.

"What song are you wanting to listen to?" Charlie asks as Harry connects Siennas phone to the Bluetooth system.

"Ten things i Hate about you" Sienna says.

"Isn't that a tiltok song?" Sid asks..

"Well its a song according to my playlist" Sienna says smiling over to Sid.

As the song starts to play Sienna moves back a little as she then starts jumping up and down waving her arms to the music, The second the lyrics start kicking in Sienna then start shouting them as loud as she can whilst dancing it out at the same time. I sit back smiling watching Sienna as I continue eating my kebab much to my stomachs relief.

Sid and Charlie however get up go join Sienna in dancing the song out.

Come the last chorus of the song Sienna gets out of breath and lays down as she continues shouting the last of the song out.

"Here, have a drink princess" Charlie says the second song finishes. Sienna sits up and drinks the remainder of the drink.

"Harry, please can you pass my phone and kebab?" Sienna then says as she looks at the food on the table like its mission away.

"Your gonna stay sat on the floor?" Sid asks passing the kebab over while Harry passes Siennas phone over.

"Yeah, I'm comfortable here" Sienna says with confidence.

"More like worn out" I say laughing.

"That to" Sienna says as she stops the music completely disconnecting the Bluetooth.

"Your all done with music?" Harry asks sounding surprised.

"I want to ring Vic quickly" Sienna says as she puts her phone down on the floor and we hear the phone suddenly on speaker phone ringing.

Sienna starts to dig into her kebab at the same time.

SIENNA'S POV

I eat a little bit of the kebab while waiting for Vic to answer the phone and it tastes so damm good. It taste even better than I remembered.

"Hi Sienna" Vic says.

"Oh my god Vic you so should be here right now eating this kebab with me. Its so nice" I say.

"It sounds nice, are you drunk by any chance?" Vic says laughing

"A little bit, I'm trying to forget life right now. I think this kebab is doing a better job than the drinks though" I say

"Okay, well make sure you try to have some fun as well" Vic says.

"Yeah, but I rang with a serioua proposal for you first" I say

"Whats that?" Vic asks.

"Remember when you moved across states to work the same hospital with me? Well i want you to move to the UK and we can work together again" I say with determination that this is a brilliant idea.

"I can't, I'm sorry I don't want to ruin your life again" Vic says.

"You didn't, you help make my life better" I say.

"No, you don't get it. I can't lie to you anymore, not when you stand a chance to still be happy later down the line" Vic says

"Don't be silly, you could never ruin my life" I say picking up more kebab meat to eat.

"But, if I was honest with what I found out a few days before the wedding I know for a fact you wouldn't of married Clive and would know be married to Ethan" Vic says and I choke on my meat as I hear all the lads muttering different things in shock. I whack my chest and start coughing until I spit up the Kebab meat that got wedged into my throat.

"What are you on about?" I say looking down at the phone screen as if I can see Vic in person while taking this conversation seriously now. Also deciding I won't be eating more food whilst doing so now I can breath again.

"The best man's girlfriend at the time told me that he had overheard someone talking with your brother at stag do, apperently they were gutted that there chance for Ethan to be the groom was gone because he would of made the better husband. Not only that but they were saying how gutted they were for Ethan because he had been in love with you for years, was even waiting for you to come back home from training to be a surgeon before telling you. Which made me feel even more bad knowing you were originally going to go home tell him the same thing when you were qualified. But I had to make you go on the date with Clive. And then I didn't tell you because well you told me like a week before the wedding when I asked you what reason would you call the wedding off for. You told me only one man could make you call the wedding off or even Divorce Clive and that would only ever be Ethan. Now I wish I told you because today you would be married to the true love of your life! Without me there you may even still stand a chance" Vic says and I've already got tears streaming down my face whilst I try to digest all of this information.

"Your right I would of, you know what else instead of telling me this after I married the monster you should of let them let me die on that operating table" I say before picking the phone up and throwing it across the room screaming. I then curl my legs up to my chest then rest my head on my legs, as I start slapping my head with my hands saying "Why would she tell me that".

I feel someone pull my hands away from my face and that's when I realise everyone is surrounding me. Sid has my hands in his as he says "We had no idea, but you can't change whats happened we can only try to move forward with forgetting the bad parts but remembering the good as well".

"What good? What good came from it? Nothing!" I scream.

"Your wrong princess, the good is we didn't lose you. Yes it may hurt like hell but we can help you through it. I swear we all will" Harry says as Sid trys to hug me but I do my best to push him away while screaming "Leave me alone. I want to be alone".

Sid let's go but says "Fine we will leave but I'm already scrambling to my feet ready to run for the door.. Charlie grabs me by the waist as I try to run away and hugs me from behind as I start screaming "Let me f*****g go!".

"Look at me" Sid yells cupping my face as I struggle to break free. The second Sid manages to make eye contact with me he says "You can be alone in here, not out there if thats what you really want. But I assure you, your not leaving this place alone in this state. I'd never forgive myself if anything happened to you".

"What could possibly happen worse than already has? look at me does this look like a happy person to you? Do I look happy? Even drinking i can't forget because it haunting me in here" I yell whacking my head again as I start to crumple and if Charlie wasn't holding onto me I'd fall to the floor for sure

"I know" Sid says taking his chance to hug me again.

"You don't know, I'm trying really hard but its not working. I didn't need to hear that" I cry.

"I know, but we will fix it somehow" Sid says rubbing my back as Charlie let's me go since I've given up fighting and letting Sid hug me.

"Tell me its not true! Please" I say crying.

"Then it won't be true unless you ever want it to be true. But nothing ever changes the fact I'm your friend who would move mountains for you. Always and forever I will do whats best for you" I hear Ethan say followed by a door closing.

"Why is this happening to me? Am I really that much of a horrible person?" I say grabbing Sids top in my fists looking at him to give me a damn reason why me.

"No, your not. Your to kind. Dont think that" Sid says as I see a few of his own tears pooling his eyes.

"Yeah, your the best person I know. If I could take your pain away I would" Charlie says

"Yeah so no more talk like that. Stick with us princess and we won't allow anyone to ever hurt you again. All you got to do is keep trying to move forward, you may not see it but your doing amazing" Harry says.

"I just need a moment alone" I say trying to calm myself down.

"You got to promise not to run away" Sid says.

"Okay, just leave me for abit please" I say.

ETHAN'S POV

I decided to stay outside because I was worried I was making things worse. I walked outside to see security all arguing about going in.

"If you hear Sienna screaming in future you don't f*****g debate it any women for that matter. But for now you can all go away she needs a moment and is safe" I say dismissing them all but I'm even more pissed off now that they would debate such a thing even if its us all in there.

"Sorry" Neil says before walking away.

Sorry my ass I think.

After a few more minutes that I've spent trying to calm myself down and digest all the information I've just found out and what to do with it all Sid, Charlie and Harry come outside and leave Sienna in the staff room.

"She wants to be alone" Sid says.

"I figured she wouldn't want to see me right now" I say

"I think she doesn't want to see anyone. so don't take it personally. Hell I think it was a shock to all our system" Harry says

"How the hell did I miss Sienna was in love with you as well" Charlie says

"I'm surprised she didn't tell me" Sid says looking just as surprised but then we all look worried as we hear a piercing scream fill our ears coming from Sienna. Harry opens the door and we look inside to Sienna sat on the floor screaming.

"Let me try" I say not being able to do nothing. "Okay" Sid says and I walk past them all like lightening until I reach Sienna and pull her into my own arms and hold her tight. To my surprise she doesn't fight me off and just let's me hold her whilst she crys.

"Just cry it out" I say.

"I want to go home" Sienna replys through the tears.

"Okay, once you stop crying we will make sure you get home" I say rubbing Siennas back to try calm her down.

Nothing else gets said and we just sit like this while Sienna crys it out. Everyone else has walked back in and just stood watching us.

When Sienna stops crying I look down to see she is fast asleep.

"Let's get her home" I say gently moving the hair out of Siennas face. She doesn't even stir which I thank my lucky stars for mentally.

"Whos going to carry Sienna? I will call a cab" Charlie says.

"I'm so tired and the drink isn't helping, I don't want to wake Sienna up... otherwise I would. Maybe we should just wake her up thinking about it" Sid starts rambling.

"I will do it but we will go out the back and not through the club so the music doesn't wake her up" I say.

"Okay, I Will come with you. I have keys to get in" Sid says.

"Tell Neil we need him to drive us instead and to take the car around back" I say suddenly having a brain wave.

"I will go get him" Harry says going out... Charlie takes his jacket off and covers Sienna with it as I stand up with her in my arms. "I don't want her getting cold" Charlie says and I'm surprised she is still out of it.

"I just hope we don't wake Sienna up getting into the car. I pray even more she doesn't have a nightmare" I say.

"I'm more worried about the fact Sienna is going off to Scotland for god knows how long after this news and the breakdown she just had. I shouldn't of brought her out tonight. Its all my fault" Sid says pacing the room.

"Better with us she found out than in Scotland alone" I say imagining that unfolding in my head.

"True, for all we know Vic could of told her then" Charlie says picking up Siennas phone and handing it to Sid.

"That doesn't make me feel better though. You all heard her scream you should of let me die. What if she is suicidal?" Sid says and its really rare we have ever seen Sid cry but now he is the one crying and even me and Charlie have unshred tears pooling our own eyes.

"What are we going to do? We can't stop her going though" Charlie says.

"We will talk to her tomorrow. We can try figure out her mental state then go from there" I say looking down at Sienna as if I might be able to figure this out myself just by looking at her. But I can't and it scares the hell out of me that she might be suicidal after all. Who wouldn't be after everything that's happened to her I think to myself.