Restart

Chapter fifteen

SIENNA'S POV

Sid had made me wait outside the living room until he had got Maria to come out. He then proceeds to tell me everything I would need would be in there on the table or in the nappy changing bag on the floor.. it wasn't until I reminded Sid what I do for a career and how I knew what to look for if I required anything he finally calmed down.

However he wouldn't let everyone back indoors until I had entered the living room. So I took a big deep breath turned to face the living room door. Reminded myself it's okay to feel whatever I feel. And here I am now walking in. I hear Sid says "I will close the door. take as long as you like".. "Thanks" I reply and with that I hear the living room door shut. I look to see there's a pram carry cot on the floor. I take a few steps over towards it and see perfectly cute baby sleeping peacefully away in it.. I feel my eyes tearing up again. part of me is happy because Jordan just to cute just to look at nevermind anything else. part of me is a little sad that there isn't four small tiny people here now and only one. Yet he is my nephew only.. But I also feel a little teary at how I finally managed this moment. I lean down and pick Jordan up.

Jordan stirs slightly in my arms "Shh" I hmm as I take us over to sit on the sofa whilst I cradle Jordan in my arms.

"Well that wasn't so hard was it. You know I got a feeling your gonna have us all wrapped around your finger. Even your uncles out there. But if you want all the best toys really young you stick with me kid. I got all the tricks your need to have every one last of them wrapped around your finger. Trust me, it took me a few years to master being there little princess but I got there in the end.

At least I can just share my tips and tricks with you. Your have it easier. I just have one request if you need to fill the nappy up do it on there watches. Not mine" I say. I then sit and take little Jordan features in. So tiny and new still.. even the smell, baby smell calming and unique.

"How long do you think we have of peace and quiet before they all fret about us being alone in here?" I say followed by "Dont worry I won't keep you away from mummy and daddy to long, plus I'm not risking you needing to fill your nappy up. No way, I will leave that chance to your dad or uncles. Then I can laugh at them trying to change you without choking on the smell" I say whilst smiling away at such a thought.

I take a few more minutes to just enjoy giving Jordan a cuddle whilst thinking how although, I felt teary I didn't cry.

Yet if everyone was watching me I would of most certainly cried from the anxiety of it all at least.

"Alright let's go see everyone. I'm sorry if they wake you up in advance there a lively lot" I say standing up. I muzzle Jordan into my body as his head rests on my shoulder. supporting him with my arm and hand.. Opening the door gently before then using both hands to make sure Jordan is secure and comfortable as can be while walking into the kitchen. Everyone stops talking when they see me and its no doubt in my mind what they were all discussing me or me and Jordan or both.. Either way all eyes are on me now.

"If you don't want Jordan in the kitchen for any reason, then you can take him back but I wasn't leaving him alone" I say looking at Maria and Sid.

"No, its fine. Do you need anything or are you joining us?.... Or would you like me to take him?" Maria asks.

"Jordan is very cute and cuddly, he kinda makes me want to change my hoilday plans a little bit around. But needless to say right now I need to use the bathroom, therefore please take him" I say.

I see a few eyebrows raise at my choice of words but it's my dad who speaks up next who also happens to be infront of me. "Here, give him over. Then you can go to the toilet" He says.

"Okay" I say passing him over then I go to dash out the room but I hear my mum say "she said Cute and Cuddly that's got to be a good sign right". I stop in my tracks turn round not wanting to raise my voice to wake Jordan up.. "Mum, yes I said cute and cuddly isn't that all babys or have they suddenly all became ugly and spikey to touch? Of course I'm going to think he is cute and cuddly. So please stop reading into every little detail" I say and with that I then literally turn around and make a bolt for the toilet no longer caring what they all discuss.

ETHAN'S POV

"So you really think it was her therapist on the phone, I mean with the time difference I'd of thought that would of been put on hold" Ian says.

"Actually, I agree it probably was as once I woke up in the night to get a drink. As I reached the kitchen, Sienna was out on the balcony talking away on the phone. At firat I thought she was watching the stars, but as I got closer I could hear her talking. The door was slightly open and she was saying about her nightmares being the same. I quickly realised it was her therapist and it made sense to be in the middle of the night. That's when I realised that Sienna didn't care where she was she really was sticking that one out" I say

"Okay, since you all feel like talking about me how about I tell you about me. And no I'm not telling you things I'm not ready to talk about. I'm not sure I will ever be ready to talk to about it all if I'm honest.. but I do have something to tell you all since your all here anyway" Sienna says Walking back into the kitchen and taking a seat.

"Okay, go a head" Sue Says.

"Well for starters, I know your all still really worried about me and my little outburst wouldn't of helped. Your all correct in the fact that I am keeping up with my counselling sessions. However I feel like I need some time alone to figure some stuff out which I know your all aware. So I've booked my hoilday. Its in the UK so not to far away if I get home sick and I feel that actually I will need you all. But I haven't booked a end date yet because I don't know how long ,I will need to try get my head straight. I leave in a few days. I will try to remember to check in with you all as much as possible so you know I'm okay. But I'm gonna try and stay off my phone so i can just focus on myself. So if you can't get hold of me straight away please don't panic. Lastly I want you to all know that I know its been hard on you all seeing me go through and you also suffered in some kinda way. Mum, Dad you nearly lost your only daughter as well as grandbabies. Sid you also lost out on being a uncle right now as well as fully being able to enjoy preparing becoming parents alongside Maria. plus you nearly lost your only sister and blood sibling. And you guys nearly lost your princess and also becoming uncles in our little group kinda way. Yet you all put aside so much to be here for me. I am firstly sorry for all that but I'm also really greatful as well" Sienna says, I swear I feel a lump forming in my throat. I look around to see everyone has a tear in there own eyes and feeling just as emotional at what Sienna has said.

"Are you going anywhere nice?" Maria asks being the first speak up.

"Yes, I've choosen somewhere quite with lovely scenerys but im also staying clear of farms" Sienna says and Harry laughs at that.

"Well you do what you got to do" Sue says

"Thats right, we will all be here when you get back" Ian says.

"Thanks, dont worry though you all will get to check out my new car tomorrow, I'm sure your all love that" Sienna says.

"Where did you find time to arrange all this?" I ask

"Well I had Miss Brewers to help me, Now if you all need to talk about anyone you should all ask Ethan why he refused to go out with such a women" Sienna says getting up as if she wants to switch the focus on me.

"I told you, I'm not interested in dating my employee's" I say.

"More like anyone other than the one" Harry mutters quietly.

"Shut up, Sid says nudging him with his elbow.

"Whos the one?" Sue asks.

"No, one. I just won't take anyone unless I think there the one" I say and I see Sienna is in the fridge.

"You won't know who is the one without dating people though" Sienna says

"She has a point" Charlie says with a smirk on his face as he crosses his arms to look at me.

"Maybe so, maybe not, I will do it my way" I say giving all the lads daggers to say don't even attempt to drag this out.

"Mum, can I have this Scottish egg please" Sienna asks.

"Go ahead" Sue says and Sienna then closes the door holding a milkshake and Scottish egg.

"So what car have you got?" Ian asks

"Oh, I wanna know this as well" Sid adds into the conversation.

Sienna takes a seat next to Sid this time as she says "2022 VG Golf R MK8 in black".

"Oh, nice" Maria says as Jordan starts to wake up crying.

"Looks likes its feeding time" Sid says.

"Who wants to feed Jordan?" Maria asks.

"Your bottle feeding?" Sienna asks.

"No, breast milk but I pump so others can also feed Jordan" Maria says.

"I will then" I say.

"You will?" Sid asks.

"Well yeah, why not. Unless anyone else wants to" I say.

"One baby coming your way" Maria says.

What about you Sienna?" Charlie asks and everyone looks at Sienna even Maria as she stands up.

"No, I'm okay. I think its a nice of you to do what you can so everyone can also be involved in feeding Jordan" Sienna says taking her eyes away from Jordan so she can opening her milkshake drink.

"Well I don't mind if you want to" I say.

"No, honestly it's fine. Your meeting Jordan for the time today as well. Plus, I'm really hoping that Maria will coming shopping with me tomorrow and if she does I'm pretty sure she will bring Jordan with her all new mums don't like being away from there babys early on. Which is understandable. If you do want to come with me then I can pick you up whenever your ready in my new car" Sienna says looking at Maria who getting a bottle ready. I get passed baby Jordan as Maria says "I'd love to, I actually need some new clothes anyway. What time is your car arriving?"

Sienna actually smiles and I don't even think its a fake smile. "Well its coming in the morning so that leaves all afternoon free. I need clothes as well. Warm clothes and wellies what with winter coming I don't want to freeze in the middle of no where" Sienna says.

"Where are you going again?" Sue asks getting up herself

"Scotland" Sienna says

"Oh, yeah your definitely need warm clothes then" Maria says as she passes me the bottle. I take the bottle and start to feed Jordan.

"Do you reckon the men will be wearing kilts?" Harry asks.

"Probably, there Scottish how they don't get frost bite on there ding songs down stairs I've no idea" Charlie says making everyone laugh.

"Did you just say Ding Dongs in place of willy's?" Sid says while trying not to laugh so hard..

"Shhh, little ears are around! Yes, ding dongs" Charlie says which just makes everyone laugh even harder.

"Alright, who wants tacos for dinner?" Sue asks.

SIENNA'S POV

Once dinner was done all the men started playing pie face. My mum and Maria where in the living room seeing to Jordan so I decided to have a shower and get ready for some sleep. All cleaned and in my pj's plus a fluffy cardigan to keep me warm while I get a drink. I head downstairs just as Charlie, Harry and Ethan where getting ready to go.

"Princess you look as lovely as ever" Charlie says holding out his arms for a hug. I walk over and give Charlie a hug as Ethan says "Don't miss me to much, I know I'm going to find it strange not being around you all the time now".

"I'm still going to be around for a few days, no doubt your all come by to see the car tomorrow anyway. I know what your all like" I say going to give Ethan a hug next but Harry quickly side steps and hugs me as he says "Ethan can wait he had you for weeks already. Sleep well princess and I will definitely come see you and the car tomorrow" which makes me giggle a little from his childish antics.

"Dont worry, I'd of given you a hug bye as well" as I move back Harry has a smug look on his face as he looks at Ethan then he pokes his tongue out at him.

"What are you two years old?" I ask while shaking my head and rolling my eyes but I can't help smiling at the silliness as well.

"Sleep well, by the way I put your ear pods and ipod on charge when you went for your shower. I knew you probably forgot about them and might need them. There in the kitchen". Ethan says pulling me in for a hug.

"Thanks, and thanks again for the suggestion in helping me switch off before sleep" I say.

"What suggestion was that?" Charlie asks as I then move out all there way so they can leave.

"Meditation and sleep relaxing music" Ethan says

"That was a really good idea Ethan" My mum says from the living room door way. No doubt she has all intentions of seeing them all out.

"Its alright mum, you can go sit down and enjoy more time with Jordan. I can see these lot out" I say

"Sid and Maria already took him home, they did say to call if you needed anything and sorry they didn't say bye but you were in the shower" my mum says.

"Okay, I will still see these out you relax" I say.

"Alright, how about I make us both drinks and we can have a proper catch up after there all gone?" My mum says.

"Alright" I say as we all start walking towards the front door. I automatically open the door and wait for everyone to walk out whilst thinking how I wanted to speak with Sid still.

"Night princess" Harry says passing me first and giving me a kiss on the cheek.. "Night" I say.

"Sweet dreams, princess" Charlie says giving me a enougher quick hug and a kiss on the cheek before passing me by. "Night charlie" I say.

Ethan though he stops looks at me for a second as he takes my hand and gently squeezes it as he says "You should be proud of yourself today. you got through it. But if you need to talk you know where I am. Night princess" Followed by a kiss to my cheek then Ethan let's go of my hand as I say "Thankyou, I will miss being apartment buddies" I say

"Me to" Ethan says then he heads on out to join the others.

"Alright, you go on in its getting cold out here, sleep well" Charlie shouts

"Bye" I say waving as I shut the door.