The Lost Lycan Kingdom

Chapter 3 -I Can't Believe You

***TRIGGER WARNING!! TALK OF UNALIVING ONESELF****

***Ivan’s POV***

I’m lying in bed playing with Jessica’s hair when I get this sudden stabbing, burning pain in my chest. Curling up into a ball, I rolled onto the floor. The color briefly drained from Jessica’s face. If I wasn’t blinded by the pain, I would’ve thought I saw my ex, Katie.

“Babe, what is happening? I’ve only heard about this pain happening when someone’s mate is with another.” I barely recognized my own voice; it sounded so strained and weak. Jessica looked like she had seen a ghost.

“Wait here, I know how to help your pain. It sounds like you’re having a heart attack.” Before I knew it, she got up and ran out of the room. The pain was so overwhelming that I barely heard her enter the room. Suddenly, I felt a needle pierce my skin, and I started to feel funny. My vision became blurry and doubled, and Jessica’s voice started to sound different yet familiar. Still, before I could process it, everything went black.

***Katie’s POV***

What the actual f*ck! This is not going to plan! I don’t know how much time has passed; it has to be at least more than a month, and he still hasn’t marked me as his. I can’t afford to fail this mission. They’ll get rid of the rest of us if they have kids. But I don’t understand what their offspring has to do with Cerberus since Apex won’t tell us anything. It’s almost like he’s scared we’ll betray him. The other girls might, but I’m his mate! Shouldn’t he trust me? Part of me wanted to cry because what mate worth their salt would be okay with their mate sleeping with someone else, but I refuse to believe he doesn’t love me. It’ll probably kill me if he doesn’t!

***Jessica’s POV***

I woke up in the arms of that lycan I hooked up with from that bar. Her skin crawled the human side of me, but my lycan took peace in him. It was confusing to me because I could feel that Ivan was still alive and the bond was still strong. I don’t understand what’s going on.

“I know you’re awake.” Upon hearing his voice, I rolled around to face him. This guy wasn’t ugly by any means, but he wasn’t Ivan. At the thought of him, my heart started to break.

“Hey, why are you crying?” I couldn’t stop my tears. How could I have gone as long as Ivan has? I’ve NEVER been one for tip for tap. I d*mn near fell onto the floor with how fast I rolled out of the bed when he leaned in to kiss me. Anyone else would’ve thought that I was on fire with how I stopped, dropped, and rolled. But I avoided his kiss.

“Let me guess, you’ve already found your mate, but you would rather f*ck around before you’re marked? All lycan she-wolves are the same! You guys are willing to spread your legs for any lycan that breathes in your direction.” Instantly, I was triggered and slapped him hard across the face.

“First of all, you f*cking b*tch, my mate went on a mission to save my mother, but I’ve been feeling him f*cking another b*tch for the past three months! So don’t b*tch at me about sleeping with anyone when they have a mate because trust me! I was fantasizing that you were him the entire time. It was the only way I was able to c*m.” I don’t know what overcame me, but I’ve never felt this amount of rage. My lycan wanted to rip this mouthy b*stard to shreds, but I knew my anger was somewhat misdirected. I rolled to the edge of the bed and sat on it while hugging my knees to my chest.

“I’m sorry for saying that. It was extremely rude of me. But you don’t understand what it feels like when your mate sleeps with someone else! You feel every thrust, stroke, and orgasm! You don’t get the luxury of feeling the pleasure! No, it feels like you’re being f*cked with a rusty pipe with nails sticking out of it. Every single time, you’ll feel the pain in your chest as it agonizingly chips away at your heart bit by bit! Do you know how many times I’ve begged for death or begged the moon goddess to end the pain however she can? For so long, I’ve been doing anything and everything to numb the pain, but nothing works!” I was so worked up that I didn’t realize he was standing in front of me until he started wiping my tears away. He tentatively pulled me into his chest and allowed me to sob into his chest. As much as I wanted to push him away, I was mentally, emotionally, and physically too exhausted to do so. He cleared his throat before stepping back.

“You wouldn’t believe me if I told you that I understand what you’re going through. Because I was dragged through something similar with my fated mate.” He sat down on the bed and patted the spot next to him, indicating for me to sit down.

“For starters, I’m of beta blood. My home back, if I should even call it that. I was next in line to take over as the beta, and the future alpha is my childhood best friend; well, he was, at least. But everything was going good until I met my mate.” I c*cked my head to the side in confusion.

“Why do you say that? When we find our mates, it’s supposed to be the best thing ever.” He scuffed at me.

“Yeah, it should be, but I wasn’t that lucky. My mate turned out to be my best friend’s and future alpha’s long-term girlfriend. Everyone was so sure that they were going to be mates. His mom was even teaching her how to do the different tasks that lunas perform. So imagine everyone’s surprise when she ends up being my mate. At first, my best friend, Allen, was furious with me, which was somewhat understandable. Eventually, he came around and told me that he wasn’t upset with me because we couldn’t help who the moon goddess paired78uy us with. My mate, Alexis, was having trouble accepting the bond at first, but with time she came around. Randomly, one day, she said that she wanted to mark and mate me. I was over the moon because I never expected that she would want to so soon. That night, we spent hours making love to each other until she marked me.” He took a long pause and stared off into the distance. Whatever happened next was clearly too painful for him.

“You don’t have to finish if it’s too pa-.” I lightly placed my hand on his knee, attempting to comfort him.

“NO!” He sprang to his feet and walked to the other side of the room.

“I have to finish this for myself. This is the first time I’ve ever told anyone the story because I swore I would take it to the grave. But it has been eating away at my very being.” He took a deep breath while running his hand through his hair. “I marked her back, and she had a look of dread and joy. The following two months were pure bliss. So imagine my surprise when I’m working out, and I feel my mate mark start burning like it’s on fire. It hurt so bad that I dropped a 50 lb weight on my foot, but even that didn’t compare to the pain I was already in. It was so bad that I fainted and ended up in the pack hospital. The cause of the pain was because there was a rejection ceremony. In one night, she rejected me and removed my mark, only to be marked by our alpha.” I couldn’t control the gasp that left me. How could someone be so horrible?

“I couldn’t imagine going through something so horrible.” He let out a humorless laugh while shaking his head.

“Oh, trust me, it gets worse. She ended up pregnant with my pup but refused to let me see it. When our alpha found out that I fathered the pup, he banished me from the pack. He didn’t want the pack to know that he wasn’t the father. So yeah, I know what it feels like to be f*cking betrayed by the person the moon goddess picked out for you.” He stormed out of the room and slammed the door in the process. I flopped back onto the bed, deep in thought. Suddenly, it occurred to me he said that he was banished from his pack. Which means that there are more lycans than I expected. Maybe it won’t be as hard to restore the lycan kingdom. Sadly, the only person with the information about that pack is currently p*ssed off with me. Before I knew it, I was drifting off to sleep.