Waiting For You (A Forbidden Love)

Chapter 14 No life

Over the past month Adric and i develop a good relationship, not just a friendship but a brotherly relationship. We already established our connection, he knows na di ako mawawala sa kanila coz i considered Rabi as my sister even not by blood.

We become a business partner and we both strive to conquer the world together with our names on it.

Arthur, over the past month, I learned to know you so well. You’re one of the people that i trusted with my life and my family. You become a part of my family. With our partnership now, i can guarantee you that you will rise with me. I will bring your name with me as we roar in success.

Minsan saad niya when he invited me to have a get together in their home.

Thank you man, just your trust alone is a big thing for me. I don’t have family left anymore, kayo nalang that i considered one, so your recognition means a lot; we shake our hands together as we drink our beer. Palagi akong andito sa bahay nila. His house becomes my home too.

What happen after those past event in my life, shake me so much. I lost interest in love or falling in love.

If i want someone to have s*x with, to give in to my earthy desire, I just got to the club, hang out with few girls then head to somewhere to do the deed. But i don’t invest emotion to any of them. I become different, my mindset becomes different.

Adric and Rabi’s relationship becomes strong, so with my connection to their children, especially to my little girl Drice.

She's my apple of the eye, every time i get so stuffy, loaded, emotional, i seek comfort in her presence.

She makes me feel grounded, had that calming effect over me. Sometimes when i hold her, i feel so light, she often caress my face that makes me wanna fall asleep. Its weird coz i had that connection to a little girl na di ko naramdaman sa mga girls nakasama ko even if we engage s*x.

While i am having a drinks in the bar, pampalipas lang ng oras, i saw Adric, drinking in the counter. Bakit kaya naririto ang lalaki ito? It's weird and i decide to talk to him.

Adric, you are here. It's surprising to see you in this place; saad ko sa kanya at umupo sa kanyang tabi.

Yeah, just want to cool down; wika niya while getting his drink from the bartender.

Problem? I guess i knew already what it is, relationship drama? Natatawa kong sabi kasi looking at him now he looks so defeated and lost parang natalo ng ilang billion sa isang casino.

Yeah you can say that; balik niyang saad while having a shot.

You want to talk about it? They say if you able to let it out, makes things bit lighter after, if you only want. Offer ko sa kanya, to unload whatever he is feeling.

Yeah that might be good, Man. I’m so f**k up these days. I maybe need some senses; pag-open up niya sa akin.

I am not an expert on it though, but had few experience on relationship. I guess can give you some insight.

We will see but this is not the right place for it. Let’s go somewhere, we'll get some drinks.

Yeah that would be good, i knew a place. I bring him to the place where i usually go to have a peaceful night, if i want to relax, to breath and top clear my mind, this place becomes my haven. Have a nice city view, overlooking.

So what happen to you and Rabi, why you seem off? Start ko tanong sa kanya. He might be hesitant to open up with me; he has this pride, the famous Adric’s pride.

You know Adric, we are close and Rabi is very dear to me and i know you are important to her kaya gusto ko sana magkaayos kayo lalo na may anak kayo na maapektuhan. Panimula kong saad for him to open up.

All started with that pageant thing. I was the main judge. Then this one contestant happens to be na ako ang nagtanong sa kanya. All those questions were prepared though and the questions were good, simple and yet catchy di ko akalain na mabalikan ako ng contestant na yun, she was clever to use that question para mapansin ng tao, she fired me back with that question.

Ako naman is ayokong mapahiya ang babae sa madla, so i go with the flow thinking na di siya mananalo, but my assumption was wrong, she did win. That question was really nothing if i am a free man. Rabi happened to be one of the judges as well. I don’t have a bad intention in that statement but it seems f**k up really.

I know i hurt her. She thinks i flirt with that girl which is not. You know very well that our relationship is discreet at the moment, so people around thinking i am single. The media make a big deal out of it, insinuating that there’s something more.

I am hurt for Rabi, di ko pa nga nasabi sa madla that we are in relationship but then i already tainted her image as a woman that i am a f**k-boy, not serious with her.

Adric, Rabi is a fair woman; her judgment is wide, yeah it hurt her but for sure she understands, gives it a time. I pat his shoulder to make him loosen up, he’s beating himself so bad.

I know but she is not talking to me right now, alam mo naman kung gaano katigas yun. I work so hard for me to get close to her again since the last problem and now this happen.

Just keep assuring her about your feelings, you know girls wants full commitment, assurance and other stuff, they’re quite complicated. You know that but you have to deal their drama; natatawa kong saad.

I have been doing that, i know she will come around. I just need to give her space but tonight i made it worst. I judge her again the way i judge her before. I wasn’t able to control my emotion.

Why, what happened? I am interested on it kasi di pa pala yun ang problema niya. The situation keeps on filing up.

Early this evening, i do that date thing to be done with this drama and i saw Rabi in that same place having a dinner with some guy. Because of what happen in the previous that she wasn’t talking to me, I accuse her of dating someone to get back to me without asking first for clarity. She said that guy is happening to claim as her father.

Her father? Mas nabigla ako sa narinig, it’s not something na simple lang, this is serious.

Yeah that was she said, a big chance that guy is her father, di ko pa siya natanong kasi yun nagbanggaan na kami kaya umalis muna ako. You know Arthur how much she wants to see her dad and it's very critical coz who knows about this guy and his intention. He just comes out of nowhere.

You should be with her at this moment Adric, alamin mo ang lalaking yun at ang pagkatao niya. Nabahala ako sa narinig.

I know had to do that, i can’t trust anybody right at this point, lalo na my number one enemy is just close.

Man, she will understand, just say sorry, but i am curious with this guy. If he is the father, we can't trust him coz according to the letter from my dad, that man rape her mother.

Nakita ko ang pagka-alarma sa mukha niya. I got his interest. Yeah that man is dangerous. I believe Rochelle was being rape by him.

Don’t be hard on yourself Adric. Things will be alright soon, there’s nothing Adric Emperial can’t do; natatawa kong saad to lighten up the mode. I feel honored that he trusted me with his problem.

My life lately just becomes boring. I may conquer the fame, money and success but i don’t have a life. I can’t find happiness within even with my achievement, i got all what i want but not the fulfillment inside my heart. I feels so empty.

Is this what dad’s feeling before when he is waiting for Rochelle? When he was hoping at the same time thinking he had nothing to hope for?

Kasi feeling ko we are in same boat, no life, no happiness. I don’t want to end up like dad but where can i find the person that makes me happy? The feeling that is worth the sacrifice like what Rabi and Adric feels. Is there a chance that i can feel it too?

I decided to go home to the farm, i feel much at home there. I want to spend time in dad’s room, feeling ko we had the same destiny. We both fell in love with the same woman.

Ang kaibahan lang namin ay siya he had that chance to be with her, ako di man lang siya nakita. To feel kung paano siya tingnan habang nangungusap, tumatawa o di kaya nalulungkot. Mali man kasi wala na siya but having her thought in my mind gives me a little bit of peace and courage to keep going.

Nakarating ako ng farm ng mas maaga pa.

Yaya kumusta kayo dito? Tanong ko sa kanya and she just looks at me na wala sa sarili,.

"Hey yaya;" pukaw ko uli sa kanya.

"Oh Arthur bakit?" Tanong niya na wala parin sa sarili parang may malaking iniisip.

"Kanina pa kita kinakausap pero di ka sumasagot, may problema ba? Come on you can tell me?"

"Di okay lang ako, namimiss lang siguro kita, matagal ka na kasi na di nakauwi dito." Alam ko alibi lang yun pero ayaw ko siyang pilitin magsabi sa problema niya.

"Kaya nga umuwi ako kasi na-miss ko kayo and i want to spend time here and in dad’s room,. Di man lang ako nagkaroon ng mahabang time for him nong narito pa siya. I miss him yaya."

"Kumusta pala sila sa Manila, kumusta si Rabi?" Interested niyang tanong.

"Ayun okay na sana, kasi nagkaayos na si Rabi at Adric kaya lang may lumulutang na lalaki na ama niya who's threat to them. Di ba, dad told us before na Rochelle is being rape by Marcos, but Rochelle insisted na si Dad ang ama ng anak niya which is si Rabi but di naman kami magkadugo si Rabi. So that guy might be her dad."

Share ko sa kanya ang storya.

"Okay lang sana eh kaya lang that monster is the number one enemy of Adric, siya pala ang nagpapatay sa mga magulang niya, nag ambush nong isang taon kay Adric, who also rape his mom in front of his dad. He is a monster yaya." "Then he made worst things to Adric while growing up. Adric put his life on revenge and Rabi can't accept na ama niya yun. Adric feared for the life of his family. Kaya ayon problematic yung dalawa kasi nag-away sila ngayon because of that guy."

Nakita ko ang takot at pagkabahala sa mukha ni Yaya.

I came to dad’s room. I miss staying here. I saw Rochelle’s picture hanging in his wall.

Dad, help me to get over this feeling that i will not end up like you. Growing old like miserable. I want to live happy with the woman i love, kahit its hard basta lang mafeel ko yung sinasabi nila na utmost happiness. Because nagmamahal ka ng totoo.

"Rochelle please find me the woman i can fall in love, the way i had love you. Gusto ko ang ganun feeling. Knowing you're already gone breaks my heart so much para na rin gumuho ang mundo ko."

"Please help me to find the woman that is worth to be with, that is destine to be my wife and my forever. Like what Adric and Rabi did."