Waiting For You (A Forbidden Love)

Chapter 15 Revelation

"Arthur, ayaw ko sana itong ibigay sayo, kasi ayaw kitang masaktan. Ayaw ko na questunin mo ang iyong pagkatao o di kaya baka magulo lang ang sitwasyon na nakasanayan na natin. Pero sa sitwasyon ngayon ni Rabi baka makatulong ito, di rin kaya ng aking konsensiya na sarilihin ito, baka anak siya ng iyong ama na matagal na niyang hinahanap."

"What do you mean yaya?" Naguguluhan ako sa mga sinasabi ni yaya Delia.

"May nakita akong sulat ng ina mo, nakalagay sa box na ibinigay niya sa akin nuon pero ngayon ko lang nabuksan. Nakalimutan ko na ito, nong naglilinis ako ng mga gamit, saka ko na nakita uli. Sana sa pagkabasa mo sa sulat niya walang magbago, maging mahinahon ka."

Di ko maintindihan si yaya kaya dali dali kong binasa ang sulat ni mom. After reading it, para akong binagsakan ng lupa, di makapaniwala. Everything was just in haze. I can't put my mind into it.

“How did it happen?” It shocks me the most. “What else i should know about myself? All about me was just a lie, ano pang sekreto na naghihintay kong matuklasan?” Natanga lang ako dun, still processing the information that unfold in front of me.

Dad is not my dad. Its hard to accept it because i grow with him, kami magkasangga, magkasama. He is my best friends too di lang ama ang turing ko then just to know that he is not my dad?

"It’s like the world is dumping me now? What's my fault? Di naman ako masamang tao ah para maranasan ko ito lahat?"

I broke down in that moment. Yaya is just hugging me, trying to give me comfort.

"Yaya, dad is not my dad kaya pala di kami magkadugo ni Rabi. She might be the real daughter of dad." When i recovered after some times i go to my dad’s room again.

"Dad, did you know that i am not your son? We shared things together, wala akong kinilalang ama kundi ikaw lang and this what happen. Sobrang masakit dad. All my life i grew up with you, ikaw ang kasama ko while growing up." Napahagolgol ako dun sa paanan ng kama.

All what i had now or all what is here ay wala akong karapatan.

"You have love me unconditionally so i promise if Rabi is your daughter, dadalhin ko siya uli dito para sayo. To let her know that you are her father, that she is longing for years and you are the best father a daughter can ask for."

"I have live a good life and she living in hell while growing up. Kahit ito man lang magagawa ko para sayo to save her from that monster who is claiming as her father instead of you. You get it dad, i know in my heart she is your daughter, i feel it even that guy is having a positive DNA. I will bring her back here."

Kaya bumalik ako kaagad sa Manila to talk to Rabi. The reality pains me but i have to do the right thing.

“Rabi, i need to talk to you, may dapat kang malaman. I will drop by sa house niyo later, will talk with Adric”; message ko sa kanila.

“Hey man, how are you?” Tanong ni Adric sa akin as they welcome me in their home.

“You looks distress, first time kitang nakita na ganyan. What happen, para kang silakluban ng langit?”; komento ni Adric na may pag-alala. Tinapik ko lang siya sa balikat and give each other a brotherly hug.

“You should read this Rabi”; sabay bigay ko sa isang letter sa kanya.

“That letter is from my mom to yaya Delia, our maid back in the farm, you remember her?” Tumango lang siya sa akin. She is also close to her.

“Yaya, just got that one when she’s cleaning her things and she see that box na di pa niya nabuksan na bigay ni mom sa kanya as a gift at kasama ang letter. At first she is hesitant to give it to me para daw di na magulo ang lahat but when she heard about your story, it gives her edge to give that to me. And she knows how eager you are to know your dad and she knows how dad is longing for you and your mom”

Binasa nila ang sulat together with Adric.

“Di ka anak ng daddy mo?” Tanong niya sa akin. I know she was shock upon knowing the truth kahit ako, never in my wildest dream that this things would cross into my life. Never expected it.

‘Yes, it was clear that mom is already pregnant when they got married and that child is me from her boyfriend na driver nila. Dad doesn’t know about it. Kaya di talaga tayo magkadugo kasi di ako anak ni dad”. Malungkot kong saad, it’s the reality that hard to accept.

“And it hurt Rabi, the only man who brought me to world, cared for me like his own, siya na nakita mula pagbuka ng aking mga mata. Kami magkasama buong buhay ko and now he is not my father? Ang hirap tanggapin.” I break down in front of them, di ko na napigilan ang sarili and they just comforted me.

“I never met my mom, just a picture and what yaya and dad told me and i also haven’t met my real dad? It’s like everything in me was a lie.” I know i looks so devastated and miserable in front of them but i considered them as family so who cares.

“Rabi, there’s a big chance that my dad is your dad. I know i haven’t told you anything about your mom but dad say something to me when I was young that your mom says that he is your dad, yun nga di natin ma-sure. The only way to know is DNA test.”

“How Arthur, patay na siya?”

“Babe, he could be right, why not try the DNA test baka siya ang real dad mo, we can’t rely on Marcos result, he could fake it. And also Arthur have DNA test to know the truth if he is your father or not.”Adric might be right, i also should undergo DNA test again.

“Arthur does your dad has left family member?” Tanong ni Adric sa akin.

“Man, wala na eh, he’s the only child, patay na din parents niya, meron man pero malayong kamag-anak na.”

“I think there’s a possible way, na yung bones or teeth niya pwede dun matrace. We could exhume his body. If you would allow it Arthur. Pahayag ni Adric sa akin. I’m glad he considered my feeling but I’m into, I want to give something for dad. If Rabi is his daughter then i already fulfilled his request to find her.

“Payag ka ba Arthur, na hukayin natin ang bangkay niya? One year na mahigit na nakalibing siya, alam ko masasaktan ka”; she is really an angel kahit she might has the right to dad but she didn't get it out from me. Yeah masakit balikan ang alala ng nakalipas but if help to end the suffering i can take the pain again.

“Rabi if that’s the only thing para matuldukan ang question ng pagkatao mo then titiisin ko ang sakit. If anak ka ni dad, you have the right to know and dad deserve the truth. You have the right to his property left.”

“No Arthur ayaw ko na pakialaman pa yan, ang importante sa akin ang malaman kung siya ba ang tatay ko. With this Marcos things, nagsanga sanga na ang mga issue. I wanted to end it para sa katahimikan ng pamilya ko.” I don’t care the money too, mas may karapatan siya kaysa sa akin.

“Will get right people to do that and a reliable DNA testing clinic to perform the test, ako ang bahala”; sabi ni Adric. I trusted him into this.

“Do it man, i will cooperate para magka-alaman na lahat both me and Rabi”; sagot ko kay Adric.

With this heaviness i feel i need much comfort and there's one that can calm me down and gives me peace, its my little angel, Drice.

"Rabi, Adric can i see the kids? Can i sleep in their room?" Tumango si Adric the kids has a nursery room but sometimes sa kwarto nila Adric natutulog parin

I saw them in the cribs, Zerus is sleeping but Drice is awake with her yaya. I signal the nanny na ako muna ang magbabantay sa kanila, she was used to it. I pick up my angel and brought into my arms. I suddenly feel lighter.

"My little angel, i am so devastated now, things are so unexpected, my mind wasn’t there yet." Bulalas ko agad kay Drice as if she can understand what I'm saying.

Drice was just touching my face. Oh how i love her caress, it soothing. Her little fingers is like a like a feather that gives me a softy touch. Gumaan bigla ang pakiramdam ko.

"Why i feel that you can feel my deepest pain? How can you be able to do that to me, like we are connected?

She looks at me while i am talking to her like she understands me. We shared unimaginable experience. Like the pain just goes away and i feel heaven.